Story Time

Great post!

I've posted on my situation before. I'm engaged to be married to the love of my life, but I get very little action myself! Once I told her I was submissive and had a foot fetish everything changed. She knew I loved eating her out and now she felt no need to reciprocate.

So for the last 4 years or so our sex life has primarily been me giving her oral. I haven't had a blowjob in at least 4 years. I've had sex less than once a year in that time. She'll often stroke me a bit while we are having foreplay or if we are in a sixty nine position, but as soon as she gets hot her hand slips away and she focuses on her pleasure.

I'd say 95% of the time my orgasm occurs once she is satisfied. She'll lay back in bed and I'll beg for release. She'll consent to watching me jerk off and if I'm good she'll let me kiss her foot while I stroke, which always makes me shoot faster and harder. I sometimes crave the offense, but she enjoys more just simply telling me know when I ask for more than my own hand, which is incredibly hot in its own way.

Find a local Fem Dom group and confess to them.

They might hand you over to an owner for training.

Great post and great thread idea. One thought; you write:


Why not call her now and reveal all? As a hooker, she has seen it all. Tell her that you loved her blowjob and still dream of it, that she was the first one in years and you've had one since. But also tell her about all your sexual history as you have here (print it out and read it to her maybe) and that this was why you hadn't called her even though you often wanted to so, so badly. Then confess to her the truth: That what you really want from her is wimp sex and to have her see you wimp out. That it turns you on to imagine that that blowjob she gave you will be the last you ever have. See where she takes it. It might be the thrill of your life!

Good luck.

(P.S. - I've shared my own situation elsewhere on the board many times, but I'll recap it here sometime soon!)
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

im 27 and have only had sex 13 times in my life, not 13 people, 13 times with my gf, I was a virgin until 1 was 22 and have been celibate for the last 3 years. my gf has been very sexually active in our relationship, just not with me.
justin mathewson

Let's see if I got all your questions here:

1. How long I've been sexless,
2. Why I think it has been this way,
3. Who I last had sex with,
4. Who I'm with now and why they don't fuck me
5. What are other interesting tidbits about my celibacy.

And you define "sexless"/celibacy as being denied vaginal penetration.

OK: I last had vaginal penetration 13 years and seven months ago with my wife. It has been this way for a number of reasons. First of all, she really doesn't like the shape and feel of my penis. It isn't that she doesn't like penetration, she just never really enjoyed it with me. (She did like fucking me for other reasons - relishing control over my orgasm, etc.) Secondly, I am a sissy sub and she is aroused by assertive, take-charge lovers. Although I used to do that for her, the more she saw me abase myself, the less able she was to see me as a sex partner. Third, I get off on the humil-iation of denial, so it was a natural win-win for us.

As for who I am with now, I would say that I am with my blow-up doll. This is a male doll I exclusively have my orgasms with. Other people might say I was with my wife still, in the sense that we are still married, still live together, etc. Which brings me to the tid-bits: After taking away my privilege of penetrating her pussy, she also took away blow jobs, hand jobs, and even kissing her. And not just with her, bit-by-bit with everyone.

The only way I come these days is by straddling my doll's rigid plastic cock and bouncing it in and out of my ass until I blow my load. I am not even allowed to touch myself anymore, it all has to be hands free. I have been promised (and have sworn) to never have a human hand on my cock again. Also, to never have a mouth or lips on it and to never insert it into anything other then a chastity. This I wear pretty much all the time except when I am unlocked for "date" with my doll. (I also often suck and fuck the doll while caged, with no possibility of orgasm.) My wife took away french kissing sometime ago, then lip kissing, and has recently limited my lips to only her anus - they are not allowed anywhere else on her body. (She does kiss me sometimes, but never on the lips.)

This last rule does not extend to everyone, just all females; I may put my lips on men's bodies. In fact, she insists on that. In my chastity and denial fueled submissive lust, I've learned to suck cock, take it up the ass, and ream guys butthole's for their pleasure, but I stayed locked except with my doll. Lately she is really into my making out with guys as well - getting the lip on lip and french action I no longer get from her. As for her, I still sometimes get to finger her to orgasm and she specificied that she reserves the right to suspend the no lips rule if she wants to use me as a sextoy. (Redundant really, since as my mistress she can override any rule anytime.) But so far, she hasn't done that and given that she's getting plenty of outside sex these days its not very likely she'll need me in that capacity too soon. She says that someday she'll put me in permanent chastity and ban me from touching her at all.

What other tidbits can I share? Obviously, we cuckold. Most friends and family are well aware of it, of my service as a gay slave, and of my relationship with my doll. Also I am in domestic servitude, wearing a uniform much of the time when I am not at my job. This is also not a secret to most people in my life (although it is from business contacts).

The only other thing I can say is that when we first started (or should I say, stopped?) nearly 14 years ago, neither of us ever thought it would go on for so long, or be expanded so much to a general lack of sexual contact. But games this intense have a way of entrenching themselves and going from game to lifestyle. There came a time when my wife admitted that she would feel really bad - a failure - if she threw away the investment in years and broke the streak. She says (really, not to assuage my kinks) that she doesn't miss it at all anymore and has zero desire to fuck me ever again. She instead has deep and serious relationships with other men and dreams of meeting "the one" who she will divorce me for, making me their servant and ending my orgasms forever in the process.

It is really amazing how things can snowball. But I'm not complaining; I love my life.
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.