This is different... - CuckoldPlace.com

OK, not cuckold as such, but started here. I haven't yet come to terms with this, it is a completely new direction for me that I am a little embarassed about, but I'm going to honestly write what I feel and see what you think.

Background first. I am / have been a real cuck - my really lovely wife submissive to another man for an extended period, my role being a facilitator and watcher. She is gorgeous, has had other affairs with my knowledge over our long time together, and I wouldn't change a thing - see some of my other posts.

For the last few years, our sex life has dwindled to virtual non-existence. She remains fit and lovely - I am late fifties and close to impotent, although my brain is still very active, and I read this site every day, get a semi, and enjoy the caps, stories and reminiscencies that excite me so much.

Out of the blue a few days ago I read some stories here about toilet cucks - cleaning their wives front and back, a living toilet paper for the women they love so much. Unusually, these stories excited me more than I would have anticipated. Despite spending a life decadently excited by 95% of the world's kinks, this was one that I had never previously been turned on by. But they did arouse me. Some of the stories extended the concept to performing the same duties for the Bull.

I went to work the next day and the stories played on my mind. I had been surprised by my reaction to them. I replayed the stories over and over.

At some point in the day, and here is where I get embarrassed by my behaviour, I went to the toilet at work. The urinals were full. I went into the single empty stall and shut and locked the door behind me. I lifted the lid - I only wanted a pee. the lip of the toilet bowl was covered in splashes of urine from the previous occupant. I looked at them and remembered the stories that I had read the previous night.

I asked myself the question "could I clean a Bull's cock after he had peed?" I stood there in the stall looking at these splashes of stale urine drying on the lip of the bowl. I found myself getting excited. i dropped my trousers and pants and looked and stroked.

Without even thinking about what I was doing, I dropped to my knees to bring my face closer to the splashes. i remember even asking myself what the hell I was doing. I guess my submissive side emerged. i imagined this unknown Bull unthinkingly dripping spots of urine on the toilet bowl, and I wanted to submit to him. I moved my face closer, and licked up the residue.

It was a deliberately submissive act. Something I had never done previously. My excitement mounted rather than diminished. The taste was salty and acidic, not at all unpleasant. I relished the taste, and the act of presentation to an unknown man. I found myself licking all around the bowl lip, searching for more evidence of the man I was paying homage to. It was a mind-blowing moment. When there was clearly nothing else to savour, I dropped the lid, sat on it and brought myself to a mind-blowing orgasm.

Funny thing is, it hasn't stopped there. I found I enjoyed this so much that I have repeated it again and again over the last few days. I have never behaved this way before. I could never have imagined behaving this way. But I do, I love it. Explain that.

So, sorry to those of you that I have grosssed out if you are still with us. If you are still here, have you ever done anything like this? I can still taste the taste of the last one I did before I got home this evening, and I like the reminder. Weird. Dangerous? Exciting? Any explanations?

I don't have that many years left, even if I'm lucky, I'm in the last third of what has been a great life. At the moment, this is fun and exciting and I'm going with it (along with a whole host of other goodies!). What do you think? One thing's for sure - I wouldn't have any problem joining the ranks of those toilet cucks that I read about!

Thanks for reading this far. i would really appreciate your reaction, although I expect for most of you it will be negative.
Utter_Rotter
Writer and decadent