Having known just about all my life from at least the age of five that i'm just different, i didn't find out that i was meant to serve superior black men until later in life. My first acceptance of being 'different' was being caught by my man with polished red toenails when i was five. My first ejaculation occurred while rubbing a shear nylon stocking underneath my lil clit and the shock of spurting cum i've never seen or heard of before, but i knew i had to feel it again and again even after the feelings of guilt subsided.
The opportunity to serve three wonderful black cocks in my whole life never led to a committed relationship, which is what i really desired i guess, but somehow i was just used for Their pleasure and thrown away. The pleasure of being made to suffer offense at the hands of a beautiful Domme Mistress would not occur till i was almost 40, something i'd always sought and craved, but the right situation never evolved.
Not having alot of direction in my life, i became collared by a Dom/Domme married couple who expanded my horizons and prepared me for my eventual fate. After confessing one day to them after one of their many interrogations, they seemed receptive to the idea of including teasing taunts about how they were training me to become a black own slut and how they would prepare me for a giant black horsecock someday. My Mistress and Master would spend hours preparing and stretching my asspussy using plugs of increasing sizes all the while taunting me how much of a slut i'd become, including being barebacked by Master, before Mistress would strap on her huge black dildo to teach me how to properly take a black cock. Sometimes i'd be bound spreadeagled facedown or face up and others i'd be hogtied but i always first would bend over of my own free will to receive my first bareback fucking and cocktail.
Before any session would began, i was required to have at least three enemas until i was totally clean. My body had to be completely free of hair from my eyebrows down and my hair and makeup as perfect as possible. Mistress always enjoyed teasing and commenting on my
choice of nail polish for my toes and always required open or peep toe heels so her pictures would "show what a total sissy you are with that cock in your mouth"!
They not only know that we crave to worship and serve Their great man-meat but they also know that once we have weakly kneeled in anticipation of our first taste of a truly masterful BBC that we will forever be crawling back and begging for more and more and more. For once inflamed with the lust for Black Cock even once timid white women and white sissies such as myself, become so addicted to feeling the power of massive Black Cock inch by inch as it totally overwhelms our bodies with blissful total presentation to bring out the true slut hidden within, sometimes deeply, that only a powerful Black Man can conjure up the real nature of our feminine lustful charms.
Whether by using His touch, His words, a searing or caring glance, He will cause a true and total sissy to not just be humred by His overpowering presence but to submit and obey to His every whim and desire, just for the yearning need to worship His Black Cock. Add one more ingredient to this erotic and sensous relationship, a hotwife, or i should say, an adoring cuckoldress and the chemistry changes immensely. The cycle becomes complete by the humiliating teases and taunts, as she coerces her s*******fully trained femme sissy slut to fluff her Black Bull, who in turn becomes even more empowered to give her total sissy the degradation only a true sissy deserves. A sissy now chastized by wearing a chastity device on it's sissy clit, much like my own CB-2000, with either the cuckoldress or the wife's Black Bull, as it's keyholder, is ever enthralled with passion to perform and be groomed to appeal to her Bull's senses, for the hope of being granted even a notion of approval or gratitude from the cuckoldress goddess. A true sissy may only be granted a sense of sexual gratification by learning to s*******fully deepthroat a massive Black Cock and have it's ass pussy powerfully pounded by either her Black Bull or her massive strap-on cock and know that this is how a true sissy learns to orgasm if ever again, until it's weak caged clit, unable to become erect, and balls are milked dry by oozing the pitiful excuse for cum. Cum is the nector of sissies!
Real man juice is what a true sissy craves, whether straight from the source, a real Black Cock, from expertly learning to clean her cuckoldress' fresh creampie, or from her own accidental oozing. Always to the satisifation of both the cuckoldress and her Bull for verbal offense is now ingrained in the sissy's mind by the desire for gratification and the gracious approval the sissy seeks.
If i have attracted Your attention thus far, i now can introduce myself as a sissy seeking to become the true sissy much like i've described above. From a very young age, i've always known i was a sissy, but somehow never had the correct guidance that only a Black Man can give me. Later in my teen years, i started learning to wear feminine clothes in hope of attracting the attention of men who would have me submit to them. Having gone through all the first time hangups, wearing makeup to learning to wear it smartly, styling wigs, shaving legs, to eventually all body hair removal even slightly tweezing the brows to a higher arch, somewhere in the middle of those years of learning, i learned to suck cock and take cock. After what i thought would be a final purge, i was married and now in the situation you've found myself, having a loving wife with virtually no sex drive that i've confessed all my past to, and even described the benefits of cuckoldry to her, but she has a great contempt for sex outside our marriage with no hope of a swinging lifestyle. She even threatened divorce should i ever stray but being unfullfilled left me no other choice but to seek my true inner self and find love within myself i only just dreamed and fantasized before. Emotions and denial caused many purges before i was finally guided by a true and experienced Dom/Domme white married couple to explore and expand not only my mind but my body as well. The thought of having beautiful big tits had not been much in my thought process until i found the pleasure even my small A-cup titties received at the hands of my Mistress and Master. Their prying questions of how would i someday like to be big titted and really get to enjoy the full benefit of the feel of strong nipple clamps being removed and having my breast squeezed and nipples sucked finally hit home. The more my lil titties were toyed with, the bigger i wanted them to become. I'd only considered breast implants in the past as not being an option considering my circumstance, but the thought of seeking hormone treatment suddenly didn't seem out of the question. Not having a plan or mentor to guide me, i sought out a pyschologist that helped diagnose me as , duh, being gender dysphoric, but that i already knew. Born a sissy and always will be a sissy, there is no cure for it, nor do i need one. But the thought of taking hormones finally got the best of me to try them, and sure enough, the T-blockers really do work. Testes really start drying up and swrink in size and over time the male libedo is lost. Perfect for a sissy, right? Well after a couple months, i stopped taking them because my titties were not starting to develop and my pathetic lil clit drawed up so much it would slip out above the CB-2000 ball ring and out of it's cage. Still i massage my tittes and wear my training bra and hope to eventually go shopping for a B-Cup, but i still wanted to be a sissy and become a slut but i missed the constant oozing pre-cum and spotting my panties would receive when i would look and read about other sissies and yearn to become more like them someday, a full 24/7 sissy slut. My true desire. Dressed to please, fully waxed, shaven and thinly tweezed, madeup, painted and coiffured (HairClub for Women is definitely in my future there) , tightly corsetted and hosed in 15 denier RHT nylons and perched on rockin stilettoes to wiggle and shake my lil ass as i sash-shay my lil butt for my lost Black Daddy to find me and make me His loving and caring collared slut! Yes, if you thought it, i could be high maintenance, but i will and do alway try to appear glamorous, if only in bra, panties, nylons and heels. My dancing practice would hopefully someday payoff big dividends when i start my private (or semi-private maybe), lapdances and table dance for my Daddy as He relaxes and contemplates how bad He wants to use me as i keep refreshing His takes until He's ready for relief and needs to seed His sissybitch. While collared to my white Master and Mistress, i became quite adept at sucking cock again but have now become so addicted to cum, i have an insatiable appetite for hot cum and need it more and more. What's a sissy like me to do? If your around Tennessee and considering a LTR, lets chat and see what happens or others,....prospective cuckoldress' seeking a total sissy maid, please contact and i will beg, crawl, or roll your way for the honor of serving you and worshipping a fine Black Cock! **curtsey**
