Took plunge!!! Angst is killing me! Advice please

Your story sounds a lot like what I'm going through. My wife's high school boyfriend shows up in our life last year and he reclaimed her as his. She's very taken with this guy. Even to the point that she felt like being in the same house as me felt like she was cheating on him. She's my wife for God sakes..I moved out the week before Christmas and it has been hard. I think about her all the time. She has shared a few things about their relationship but not much. I talked to a few of her friends and they told me to forget trying to get her back. She was crazy about him in school and they didn't think she'd ever gotten over him.

Ronald Curry This has definitely evolved away from a cuckold scenario, and has become more of a relationship issue. I'm not a psychologist or psychiatrist, but to me it seems like she is very confused about who or what she wants. She's giving you mixed signals that constantly change, and her responsiveness to you appears to be directly proportional to her fear of losing you to other women. The more signs of other women she sees in your life the more she contacts you. It's difficult to tell if she's genuinely interested in the cuck play she throws in the mix, or if she's doing that just because she knows you had an interest in cuckold stuff toward the end of your relationship, and she's using cuck stuff to keep you interested. I don't know man... this woman has things going on in her head that I can't figure out. A counselor or therapy is probably in order. I need to back out of this conversation... LOL
cuckold - Pronunciation - kuk-uhld - noun 1) The husband of an unfaithful wife. 2) A husband whose wife has sex with others. NOTE - It does NOT say: Sexually confused, submissive, humiliated, sissified, crossdresser, cocksucker, or piss drinker

Today she is going to go nuts. I blew her off last Monday and said ill take her out tonight. But I don't want to. If rather be with Ally, the other woman. I don't care about the cuck play with the ex because like you said, it's her almost playing a game. There is no way we are able to make a relationship work, she's still an *********, and at the end of the day, when I ask myself do I love her, the answer does not pop up yes, I have to think about it and it usually points to no.
Ronald Curry

Sorry to hear of your tough spot Jim.
Our situations were very similar. My wife moved on so quickly and was smitten with this new guy.
I don't have much advice for you or if you can get her back. I'd focus on taking the time to your self and find out what it is you want. It's difficult being the one that's dumped, but at the end of the day, life is too short to sit there all depressed.
Ronald Curry

My wife was seeing this guy for around 8 months before I found out about it. I was devastated when I heard but I'd had suspicions for a while. I was told about them from the woman he was living with of all people. She showed me texts they had sent each other and let me hear a couple of voicemails from my wife. They both got really mad that she told me about them. You see he doesn't work and I was their financial support. In one of the texts he had told her to promise not to allow me to touch her or to not allow me to see her naked anymore. That was a promise she kept. I slept on the couch from June until December when I moved out. Seeing the text was humiliating and exciting at the s a me time. The other girl even asked did she do what he asked. I answered meekly yes. She had a smirk on her face. And told me she understands. She SId he's a powerfully cocky arrogant *** of a bitch and left it at that. He's sent a few texts to me letting me know she's his now too. I posted pictures of her getting ready to spend the night with him in another section of the forum. I had no clue about them at the time I took the pics but she didn't come home that night and I later found out why.

It was another interesting ride. The more time I spent with this woman the more I realized how far apart we've grown. Now in the bedroom she was saying and doing all the things i dreamed of for years. But when we were in normal settings and she was trying to lure me back, like everything all of a sudden should be normal again, the more I realized how screwed up she was and how I didn't want to confuse the kids, especially when we got the family together for an outing and just how wrong it seemed after all she had done.
See after kicking me out and basically having me replaced, she created a Brady bunch situation with this guy. Apparently things soured but now are back to normal. Quite frankly she's toxic.
Meanwhile, I'm enjoying what I have and don't want to waste any more time with this woman.
She really put my heart through the gauntlet. It could have gone in much better ways had we communicated better. But we didn't and at this time we both realized how it just won't work.
She's started to pull away more and her emotions are getting back in check. It was a fun couple weeks but honestly can say I'd rather move on then keep revisiting this toxic situation.
Ronald Curry

Ronald Curry
I'm glad you have realized the true conditions of your relationship and made a logical choice. Adultery by convent is fun but being a doormat is wrong. Good for you , move on but fuck her every chance you get!

Hahahahaha
She pretty much offered herself last night to me. Girls night out she asked to be picked up. I passed.
Instead I fucked the babysitter whom she despises. If she ever found out she would probably lose it. So hoping the other party can keep a secret.

Who knows I may end up on a lonely night fucking her but presently she is not desirable to me. There are way too many women out there and I wasted many of my prime years being a faithful husband and not taking advantage. So I don't want to fall into her traps and keep fucking her because then ill become complacent.
It also has to drive her crazy being rejected. But I dot even give a fuck to play games I just want to live and enjoy my life.
Ronald Curry

Haha. I fucked and ex girlfriend that my wife hates and she found out about. She called me and went ballistic. I told her. Fuck you I'll put my Dick in whomever I choose.

It always helped me to eat her pussy and clean her out good! That way I got his cum as she did, nice and warm. Tasted great too!
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