We just play

Things have been interesting in the bedroom. Some of the things that have came out of her mouth are some themes that really make me think there is an inner slut inside of her just waiting to be unleashed.
I need to be able to provide her with whatever her biological need is. Because when a woman says "I only fuck fuck big cocks. Big and hard cocks"
Meanwhile I'm fucking her and she'll subtlety drop "and I fuck you too"
I was so turned on and perhaps my cock must have twitched and she felt it get harder at her attempt at sph. "And I only suck on big cocks. That's why you don't get yours sucked" was her most direct with the look and roll of her eyes as she delivered that humiliating message right to my face. And no I don't receive proper blowjobs. She'll sometimes be so horny that she probably does it as a conscious thing to lube up what's about to go inside her.
Other times she will complement me. Although I much prefer her dirty talk and ***********.

The other day we fucked during lunch hour. She stepped out of the office while I was off on that day and stayed home. We had been bickering for a few days and hadn't fucked, so she was ready to go. I ripped her clothes off and dove right into her pussy. The passion was there and I was able to get her off. In the middle she said "my boss is probably wondering where I am. I should dial him and leave the phone so he could listen"
The devious look on her face told me she enjoyed that. It made me wonder what it would be like to be on the end of a call from her some late night.
Ronald Curry

We have elevated to "you can live any fantasy you want"
She's been much more receptive to me playing with her feet. Which is a dangerous game.

But perhaps the most symbolic development were the roll of magnum condoms she had in her sex bag. We fucked and she pulled out a bag that during her move, must have been set and have a proper place. Anyway she took out lube and we fucked. While away in the bathroom I just stuck my hand in this bag and there were multiple rubbers and a roll with maybe 4-6.
When she came back to the bed she quickly took the bag and tossed it aside. At first I asked "anything interesting?"
She said No. I waited a few minutes and addressed the condoms, to which she said they're old. She made it a point to clear that up.
I just found it was strange.
Sex has been pretty kinky and fun. We are repairing our relationship and seem to be in the right direction.

I am concerned she is hiding something, so I took one more stab at it. I've always been able to play the "I wanna see with another girl" angle fairly well. But this time, as we were making up from another break, we've gone weeks without one another, so plenty of doors are open for anyone to pretty much fuck her. She is a sexual woman.

Anyway I asked if she were true, she is yes yes yes, while my cock is inside her. I just say "you're just a slut, you wouldn't tell me anyway"
To which her reply "oh I would tell you.."
I came moments later
Ronald Curry

The angst is as real as it gets. It's 1:52 am on a Friday. This woman and I had a rift this morning and tonight was an occasion night for her gfs birthday. She invited me out to meet them.
However, today I confronted her about a text she received from a male at 130am. And what seem like late night inquiries when we are in bed on our nights together.
The insecurity I showed is uncool and I know this, but it's part of the plot, today she is wide open.
And by the fact the last time I looked in her sex bag there was a roll of magnums. So likely the magnums were brought over and unused.
There is without a doubt, my woman is spreading her legs for others.
Ronald Curry

An incredible weekend of make up sex and getting our relationship on the right track.
She really won't fess up about the 1am text from another man. She just refuses to address it, she had been more secretive with her phone , which i have not been a sneak about or really care.
Quite frankly, I'm cultivating her inner size queen. She gets a huge grin whenever I ask her if she prefers bigger.
We had a sexy session recently where her ass was plugged with a toy. While we fucked I begged for her ass and she says I wasn't big enough. Small penis *********** has really been a thing now and she won't bluntly ever say it but if I play along and encourage, she gets pretty fun and can be cruel.
I'm going to encourage her.
Lately She's been getting off on fantasizing about her with another female while I watch, I even went on to suggest she enjoy herself however she felt and that I would get off watching her.
Ronald Curry

This thread fascinates me Ronald and I'm so glad you update us from time to time. Thank you for posting.
Peter C

Thanks Peter
Sometimes I wonder if there is still activity on this forum.
And glad to see someone is enjoying the documentation of what is transpiring in real life.

Work, kids and responsibilities have made the last few days hard to have any fun. But our relationship is on the right track and we have gotten better at communicating. This is a huge part of it all that I've studied and hopefully our commitment improves. It's been turbulent.

I imagine, she played with another man, maybe more than one. Either she was rejected or vice versa and wants me. There had been ample opportunities for her to have fun these last few months.
The car in the driveway of her apartment, the texts from men, her behavior online, etc
All illicit smoke and potential fire.

Having recently dealt a tragic personal blow via death, I am on a mission to enjoy the NOW and present ever much more.
Including our sex, I will get her to open up like she craves and encourage it as it would excite me to see her ravaged.
Ronald Curry

I'll update with more details but this past weekend was one for the ages in terms of where our dirty talk has gone.
Things have been rocky but our love remains deep, we definitely will move on with our relationship. But during these times, it remains a mystery of what and whom she was with on those nights we were apart.

And to be fucking your woman and her say "can't you feel I've been stretched out" is only something that has been a fantasy, until now.
I've had dirty talk before, but never like this. And since I was feeling the high off our love and the lust was so strong. I admitted it would be hot to watch her fuck. Before it was just "yeah babe I wanna see you with another girl" now I'm admitted to suck her toes while she was being fucked. And her hearing this and moaning a response "yeah baby like a slave "
It blew my mind and my load. I'm thrilled we have gone this far and I have straight up told her to just be up front and that I'm not jealous, to which she was stone cold silent.

I'd put the odds of her having affairs as certain. How it ended or whatever happened had her running back into my arms. This time with a little more details than I have been accustomed to.
Ronald Curry

Always pleased to see a new post from you Ronald and I look forward to your next update. This thread emphasises how slow the process can be, encouraging and persuading your wife that's it's okay to look elsewhere for some cock. Fantasising and role-playing in the bedroom is one thing, but family stuff and real-life have a habit of slowing down the process of taking things to the next level. Even my experienced and somewhat slutty wife took over 2 years to finally take the plunge and date and s1eep with another man, a lad 12 younger than her, a customer at the shop she was assistant manageress in. Quite often these things can't be rushed but are well worth the wait.
Peter C

Back to the reality of daily routine of life, we did have some nice family time but with work schedules this time of year and with the kids in school, it really takes coordinating. And here is where it gets interesting, since we live in two separate homes less than a mile apart, she'll elect to ***** alone than have me over for sex the nights she isn't lusting.

What could that mean?
Well for starters, she admits her masturbation is plenty for her sex drive. I call bullshit. Like any woman, she craves attention. Especially her. She was knocked up by the time she was 20.
So it's not as if she's a good girl.

Now onto strategy
Ronald Curry

The next time we fuck. I'll
Be expected to take on an alpha role and fuck her to the best of my abilities.
Now here is something I have always been perplexed about.....
When a woman knows and Indulges me by granting me access to her feet
It has been my experience that with most woman, when you cross this route, you are in dangerous territory of no longer being the type of lover who she would select in her most primal desires. And that it often repulses the women to seek adventure elsewhere
That's my take and if anyone has some specific situation with that, I'd love to hear it.

So anyway
We're going to get into our regular routine..I'll Refrain from beta sexual rituals
No foot worship, ass licking , small penis ***********..
Fuck her to my best ability
If she mentions cuckolding of any kind, do I press her or brush it off and just fuck like an alpha.
This could be an interesting relationship as we have now crossed boundaries,
An opportunity cannot be lost
Ronald Curry

We're about to have a session and I'm pretty high in anticipation. Not going to press on anything with the cuck theme but I'll be seeing if SHE is the one who starts the talking.
She's about to arrive
Keep you posted
Ronald Curry

Yes, it can be difficult not to concentrate on that each and every time you make love, but I found it was important to mix it up a bit so I wasn't forever badgering my wife to have sex with other men. Guys were quite capable of seeing she was there for the taking anyway and it was always her telling me that would initiate a new encounter.
Peter C

So here is the bad time.
We had our session and it was fantastic. The passion was there but something was lacking, and it was her love. She left immediately after as we had obligations. We made plans to meet up later in the evening, but about an hour before, she had cancelled. Now there were signals something was wrong all week. And if I had not mentioned, we have been rocky this past year but somehow stuck through it all, which I thought bonded us.
However, as i write this, we are no longer a couple. She said something changed in the last break we had and she doesn't know how she feels. Which to me is blah blah blah...
I just went with it and accept it. It bums me out right now because part of the reason I wanted to continue is because I had realized that with this woman, I have an opportunity to live out this fantasy. And now, we're as far apart as before we met. I'm quite confused, but again, I accept my role and doing in this, I had broken up with her before and maybe this was her ego playing her.

Or perhaps, the theory is, that someone has seduced her. That 1am text was something she never wanted to address. And there were many smoke signals.
Guess it's wait and see
Ronald Curry

Sorry to read that Ronald and I hope you two can sort things out. Maybe her head has been turned by another man, just as my wife's was. That you were living apart may have left her wide open to the advances of someone new. maybe her realising that you wanted her to cuckold you has caused her to look elsewhere. Often the wife will think that you can't love her anymore if you're prepared to let them fuck someone else or think it's an excuse to start fucking other women. I had to negotiate both of those issues with my wife during the 2+ years it took me to persuade and encourage her to date and s1eep with other men.

We had 2 rules. One was that she wouldn't go with anyone I knew so I couldn't put a face to the name, and secondly, that she'd always use condoms. Not to avoid pregnancy as she'd been sterilised, but to avoid bringing home any STIs. I have since found out she broke both rules a few weeks before she went with the first guy she told me about. Later, she went with someone else I knew, again bareback, so it was already a case of "her pussy, her rules", but I was happy to let her have her fun.

During our last year or so together, we slowly drifted apart and we stopped having sex altogether. She was still getting cock when she needed it though and got increasingly secretive. I have found out quite a lot from friends and neighbours since we split up in 2012, things I would have loved to have known at the time but she chose to keep to herself. Maybe it was more enjoyable for her to cheat behind my back than to have to come home and give me a blow-by-blow account in bed as we made love or she fell for one of her lovers. The guy i suspect it was however, went off with someone else's wife and my wife is now with the ex-husband. Seriously. You couldn't make it up.
Peter C

Sounds like a woman who is moving on to me. Sorry, but that's just how it reads to me from what I know about women. You seem to be playing the role of the "fall back" option. Great if that's what you're into. Good luck though.

Message and ask if shes seeing someone

Although complicated at times, woman are pretty easy to read.
Of course she's ready to move on. Who wouldn't blame her. She hasn't received that ring,
It was nothing but a promise, and when we didn't move in together, that was pretty much the telltale.
And Peter, in my past, I had a long relationship with a woman, she's my baby mama, but in that experience, there too were things I wish I had known.
She let me enjoy the *********** before I moved out. She didn't care.
One night she waited for me to get home. It was a Monday. After dinner she acted exhausted and retired into the bedroom. Later, revealing she was going out. She didn't know when she would be back but that she would be home by the time she needed to take the kids to school.
I'll never forget how her pussy tasted that morning.
Ronald Curry

Hopefully you sort things out with her

Time is passing and this is not necessarily unchartered territory as we have had breaks before.

I can't help but think she is getting some good cock. One thing in the past was always her commitment to me that I was the one, and the only, to possess her body.

That's what it was
Just a play.

And until recently I never thought about the ways that she could have been getting fucked and whom. That text at 1am was merely a tease compared to what this woman is capable of.

Right now I must say, emotions are pretty raw. On a personal level, I'm able to rebound and have had no shortage of women. In fact, an old seed I planted has netted me a play partner. How lucky??

However, what should be happening are cream pies and the love of my life being sexually liberated to due as she pleases, while we grow our relationship.
Which is now deteriorated to the point that this Friday will mark 3 weeks since we last spoke.

In a way, this may just be a part of the process.
I have a theory that the reason she came back to my arms this last time is she was rejected. Perhaps that man had a change or maybe some other circumstances occurred with someone just seducing her to the point she quit with me. Either way, odds are
I'll find myself at the receiving end of a call for comfort, till then it's a tough pill to swallow.

On an entire other subject
Has anyone else ever experienced a situation where once a woman finds herself catering to your foot fetish, things change and you lose her??
Ronald Curry

It's been a while
But she says she's coming over, and it will be late...

We have separated and started to talk almost 7 days ago. SHE asked me when we can fuck and for some reason she selected Saturday, which I found to be strange.
If you miss someone, wouldn't you want to rekindle that sooner?
And she mentions "very late"
Which Again, is unlike her

So she must be out having fun

Now I don't know how tonight will go. Obviously well fuck and all that but I'm not sure I wanna grill her, if you know anything about women, they always keep options open and I'm sure someone has fucked her
But I won't press to much on anything like that. Just glad to have her in my arms tonight.
Ronald Curry

I hope your night went well. You're right not to start questioning her after you've made love. I'm sure she'll tell you in her own good time, maybe tonight whilst she's in your arms if she feels you're ready to hear what you suspect she has to tell you. Good luck my friend.
Peter C

The reconciliation hasn't been as smooth but several months later we are bonded and together in love.

Our sex life is certainly on the more active side. However, as stated, it hasn't been a smooth ride to get to where we were at.
Even though we got together that night, we took our most extended break as a couple. Surely a highly sexual person such as her would not be expected to sit on the sidelines.
I haven't really probed her much. And she is very witty with her remarks back to psychological inquiries.
For instance while on top of her in a hot sexual session. I told her I love how dirty she is, suggesting there are things I probably don't want to know about..
Her devilish smile and comment of "you don't wanna know..."
Pretty much had my dick exploding

She had about 6 -7 weeks of pure freedom to get cock so yeah, maybe I don't want to know

Yeah right!!! Of course I want to know
I want to know why in her bag of toys was a 6 pack of big condoms. Which while ahe carelessly let slip out; she tried to grab them very quickly so I don't see
That was one of those ones that I wish she would just fess up to
Clearly there was sex, and perhaps the condoms produced, they elected not to use them

She's been generous with the blowjobs and we fuck alot

I whispered to her that I don't care that she is a slut and she is allowed to play with girls and with my consent
Again her devilish smile gave away quite a few details

Thats really about all I've got at the moment. I'm happy that we continue on a journey together, I was deeply torn...
On one end I was enjoying the attention from meeting women, on the other I missed her like crazy and worse, the once in a lifetime chance of being able to live out the kinks found on forums like these dedicated to this fetish. She is born for this and I hope to experience something special with her
Ronald Curry

How did it get to this...

As I sit back and wait for my darling to return from her ladies night out, i must chronicle what occurred last night.

Started out with us heading out to a locals places for a few ******. She was happy to get out and we ran into some friends, it was a very nice evening. She went straight for the bedroom and before you knew it she was riding me.
It was great to get her back!

Yet last night, there was a turn in her demeanor towards me. She initiated small penis *********** into her talk and would not let up. If got deep and she wanted me to know..

As I was fucking her I blurted out how much I loved her pussy and she said how lucky I should feel and how she cums on much bigger cocks, this was a theme all night long for her and it started here. "I cum on much bigger cocks" and she emphasized "much bigger" several more times.

Later as my cock needed attention and it was in her mouth, she informed me of how lucky I am that she is blowing me, and that blow jobs are reserved for big cocks only. This *********** just kept getting deeper.
What kind of message was she trying to send and why . Is she *****?
Whatever got into her, maybe it's the frustration and boredom of our sex life.
I am not making her orgasmn as much as before. I told her that I don't get jealous at her fucking around, she said that I should be jealous, I couldn't quite follow up exactly what was said but she was in a mean mood. I decided now or never and I doubled down.
"Would you let me watch you get fucked?"
She said No but she would send me pictures.
I blew 3 loads last light. She definitely was alerted of my arousal And I eagerly wait to see if she continues ..
Ronald Curry

Thanks for the up-date Ronald. I follow your posts with great interest.
Peter C

I'm pretty *****

That's the text I just received on a Saturday night. It's kind of her out night as she's been focused on her career and of course her kid.
I have also took the path of focusing on my business.
We had a good run until things just got busy and we got into a argument that really could have been prevented. We met up this week and had an incredible session. She just wanted me to use her body to which I treated like a temple.
Since it had been a couple weeks, and given that she's likely entertaining someone else in her off time, I am starting to think that it is possible that we can reconcile and since this relationship has been on the ropes, come out of it with the openness of our sexuality. Can I finally tell her that I want her with other guys, when she is out and fucking anyway.

What I have realized is that the urges and fantasies I seek on sites like these, just doesn't translate into the realms of preference.
A woman does not seek someone to suck her feet while she gets plowed by thunder cock. She won't get off on you waiting outside the door wearing chastity. She just witnessed you eat her studs asshole while he fucked her, and losing respect for you to even allow clean up.

These images and urges just are hard to replicate. So instead I sit here with the upmost angst wondering where this night will go.

I went ahead and responded so we'll see
She's definitely someone that I'm not looking to use, I care about her and see her as part of my clan
Even though I have these kinks, when I look in the mirror it's an alpha looking back and women don't mind sharing men like me
how can i now proceed
Ronald Curry