We just play

Girlfriend and I have recently started with toys in the bedroom. Anal needs and plugs for her, and a couple dildos.

What's new is her rejection of my cock. Which ultimately gets pleasure and is required to fuck and frustratingly attempt to make her cum, is subject to slight ***********.
She has never ever commented about lack of size or ex lovers. We have straight vanilla sex that is now reaching some kinky play as we are familiar and exclusive, we're engaged.

Anyway I was seeking some ideas
Specific things, ultimately I'll admit this cuckold fetish of mine and I think she'll be receptive but at this stage that would take some balls

We're about to play in a few hours
Ronald Curry

For example, the last time, while I was on top missionary, her legs spread, she inserted her fingers inside her wet cunt while my dick was inside and gave me this devilish sexy look. I asked how she liked being
Stretched out, to which she moaned and her eyes told me
It was craved.

We had a great session that night.

She enjoys watching me jerk off while she plays
Having her throat fucked while laying on edge of bed
Ronald Curry

Want a stallion she has become

The closest I got the other day was while she had me
Masturbate against her pussy, she proceeds to squirt uncontrollably, slippery wet, her hole makes my
Cock extra hard and as I fuck her I straight up ask "you won't tell me anything what you were thinking to get yourself to cum like that?"
To which she moaned and said "some day"

Toys almost every night

She also loves control of my orgasms, get furious if I ever admit to masturbating

She has so much potential to offer me the dream
Ronald Curry

Or nightmare
Ronald Curry

We have our first breathrough, well, second but we'll go to that one shortly.

As mentioned before, she has really taken an interest in her ass played with. I've fucked her ass more in the last 3 months then I have the last year and a half we've been together.
We started with a simple plug, which she enjoyed right away and wanted to experience the next thing. Beeds. Which she really enjoyed but we left behind at a hotel we were staying. She was disappointed she's lost them
And immediately went to the sex toy store and had them replaced with new, longer and bigger ones.

So on to the breakthrough. While in fore play she suggested a toy for her ass, I said would you like the plug, which she shook off and commented "it's too small to satisfy me" as she looked me dead in the eyes as she said it. I was rock hard. She reached over and got her new beeds to which I was able to playfully help to her satisfaction. The "too small" taunts were too much for me to not go along with.
"So it's too small to satisfy my woman's ass?" I asked
She was happy to play along "yeah I'll let it run my Pussy but it's too small to keep me satisfied. Which was repeated a few more times in the exciting session.
Ronald Curry

Ronald Curry

Hello Ron. In my experience people who like to have their ass penetrated generally have submissive fantasies. So my guess is that "someday" reveal that she has promised will involve her being tied up and used or some variation.

In your shoes, I would try a little verbal exploration of a fantasy or two where she has no choice but to submit to the fucking.

Give it a try and let us know.

MD

Thanks MD
Was beginning to think this forum is void

Your assessment is correct
Her preference is much more leaning to submissive

Getting her to fore play in a dominant nature is unnatural. She much prefers I be rough with her and have her in submissive positions. She loves doggy and if I am on top, she'll beg to be chocked. Does not like being hit or bit, hair pulled or things like that. But she has a lot of potential with a very high sex drive. As of late it's been hard keeping up with her demands but I'm still hanging. Wouldn't mind someday just having her enjoy herself with another
Ronald Curry

Recommend that you try the very old but quite classy movie Emmanuel. It is all about a woman exploring her submissive side. Maybe buy your wife a slave collar. Explore, explore, explore.

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This is very hot, and reminds me much of how my wife and I started out. It certainly sounds as if your fiancee is having the fantasies. It's just a matter of reluctance of voicing it as once it is out it can't be taken back.

I agree that you should push the fantasy a bit to let her know it's ok for her to voice her desires with you. Maybe, while you are jerking yourself off to her while she is playing with one of her toys imply that it is another guy sliding inside of her while you watch. You might be very pleasantly surprised to her reaction.

My wife and I had fantasized similarly with her and other guys a number of years back. One time, she let out as I was fucking her that she wanted me to sit in a corner and watch while stroking myself as another guy fucked her. Needlessly to say, I immediately came, and she began actively pursuing another guy just a few weeks later after seeing my response.

The events of the past 24 hours have been quite developmental.
Some progress was made with SPH being introduced, by her!
It was the most amazing experience I felt in a long time.
Gathering up my thoughts and what happened and how to share and hope to get some insight from fellow contributors.

This is not fantasy, this is 100% real and happening in real time.
Ronald Curry

The past week was hectic. Both of us finding ourselves busy with work and responsibilities. To be honest, things have been tense lately. I think all of us living during this "pandemic" can attest that stress levels are unusually higher, and so for whatever reasons he had some real dumb arguments we were able to easily overcome. The bond and friendship and similarities we have is scary sometimes. It's what also gives me the hope that if it's really something I want to do, to cross the threshold of fantasy and jerking off to the same old images and videos, to really feel that angst or suffer the *********** of someone else using your woman. That connection we share makes me confident that it's very possible. As much as she embraces the idea of traditional and "normal" sex.
Ronald Curry

Our routine is pretty straight forward. Sex is an abundance of pleasures we each share and pretty much get to enjoy with each session. As a reminder, toys have become fairly prominent. But we do it all. She will dress up sexy with a body stocking I rip off throughout our love making. She got off so hard last time as she let me have her feet.

For the record she made it clear our first time out that "I'm pretty much let you do whatever you want, just don't suck my toes or anything like that"
Which is a whole other topic. I have in my past, noticed a direct correlation of women being turned off by my attention to their feet. You go from being their alpha man to getting dumped cuz you like to kiss some feet. So, I have refrained from indulging in this fetish with her. She likes to have her arch bit and will occasionally let me play, but feet are off limits for the most part.

Anyway, our sex life is terrific. She's even made it a point to increase frequency. So that's what I attempted this weekend. What transpired was something I never expected.

She cums while on top or if I hit it hard from and position. Long hard thrusts, it's the only way, she may play with her clit if it's a missionary or variation of her spreading her legs in that way, or while on top she likes to be grabbed a certain way and ride to orgasm. It makes me feel good I can make her get there, although I feel I leave her frustrated at times and with my lack of endowment, her satisfaction.
Which gets us to Thursday night. We went out to a nice place with her family and friends. We had a couple ******, her a little more. We fucked pretty hard but it wasn't anything special. We still had a wonderful embrace and I remember how hot she enjoyed me going to town on her ass. She just kept encouraging me and really just having fun, she brought out the beads which she loves and stuck them up her ass. I didn't last long
Ronald Curry

The next day was just kind of miserable, I don't partake to *******, so a couple ****** and lack of ***** can do some damage.
We get through the day and have some sort of petty argument.
Saturday night we planned to go out. Took her to a cool spot and she just had a blast. We felt like a couple kids dating. Great vibes. Even got a late night slice of pizza.
This woman has been under a lot of stress with work so a night out with her man, she was pretty happy to please me in any way.
Ronald Curry

We get home and right to it, but at a loving and slow place.
I have always prided myself on oral skills but with this woman, I just can't crack the code. Feel we've been close and she definitely came before, but it's not easy.
She's interested in some cock. She pulls out her beads, and smiles devilishly towards me as she's twirls them around.

We play several games, including her asking me to shove them all in my mouth. She first gave her pussy to the beads, while sucking on my cock. I got to control them and fucked her, she was very wet and aroused. She wanted her ass taken now. But not my cock. We slowly fooled around while each bead went up her ass, the last few I offered my tongue which she went crazy for. I shoved these beads one by one into her willing ass and she was loving every moment. My cock was hard and she played with me and was ready to fuck.
I did not expect what happened next. Being so turned on and kissing her wet dick sucking lips with her ass stuffed I was really getting into her pussy and within moments she had cum.
I was just another piece to her orgasmic bliss. We switched positions, she loves doggy and for a bit there I had a good rythem, but eventually ran out of steam and my cock started to pop out, I could sense a little frustration as she said" how do you want me?"
I ask she lay on her back and let me keep drilling her that way.
This led to another 2-3 powerful orgasms, she was very wet. "How do you like my ass being stuffed, baby?"
I told her I loved the feeling and wish I could take it
What she said next changed the trajectory of the night.
"But I wanted something bigger in there tonight, I'm afraid you just can't have it tonight. But you can have my pussy. You have a nice cock baby? Tell me how good your cock is?"

I told her that if i didn't have this cock I wouldn't deserve this pussy. That if my cock were small she wouldn't let me have her. I then asked her if that was true. She said I had a nice cock and that I was right. If I didn't have my cock she was tell me to "get the fuck out and go fuck yourself. That I'd be better off using my toys in my pussy"
This was a major turning point. I just had to keep it going, I asked how she would handle small cocks. She again went with the, "put it back in your pants, it's pathetic and get the fuck out"
This is the first time I ever heard her speak of small penis *********** . She really responded well, or could tell I was responding because during this exchange she had come another 1-2 times. We're at like 5 orgasms for her here.
I didn't think she could be more cruel, I allowed her to humiliate my cock, once again being compared to the beads dildo up her ass. "You do pretty good with your cock baby. You atleast know how to use it. Are you a grower or a shower baby? What are you?"
This felt like a psychological chess match. I am being turned on by my woman humiliating me, I've dreamt of this and now it's happening to me.
She's also to the point of exhaustion, we've been fucking for quite a while.

We go back with the small cocks are dismissed, I asked if she would laugh at a small cock. She said of course. I don't know what happened then and there but this woman began laughing. Really laughing, which feels pretty good when you're fucking, and meanwhile, telling me I have a small cock and how proud she is of my effort with what I got.
I asked if she felt frustrated and wished I could offer more.
She moaned and said Yes!! Of course, she reminded me why I wasn't in her ass. And that if I didn't cum I would suffer. Blue balls. So I was really ready to explode.

I tried one last ditch effort to try and atleast plant the idea of "you need bigger cocks"
What we got was a confirmation.
She said that she would kick and small cocked men out and much rather play with herself, I felt this was the opportunity to say "but it wouldn't feel the same"
She said no it wouldn't because "sex is a cock and pussy" it has to be a cock inside of pussy. But she wouldn't say she needed another cock. I exploded. We had already crossed so much threshold I was actually impressed I was able to last enough to endure ***********.
She during play said "I'll say anything to please you but you know how I feel" some sort of desperate attempt to probably protect my ego. But on this night I was told I have a small cock.
Despite whatever roll play or anything, my fiancé got off on humiliating me.
Something she didn't forget when we fucked this afternoon.
Ronald Curry

So that afternoon we had a fairly mild fun session but she got off on the idea of using a dildo "bigger than me" and making me watch her take it while I stroke off. And various scenarios like me in the corner, although she really likes to see me jerk off.

And we've had sex once since then without any SPH.

Then right now just happened.

We're both on lunch break and each had a reason to stop at home. We kiss and have a brief conversation of our day. As she leaves I am removing a glove off my hand and I grab the tip of a finger and squeeze it making a tiny balloon or what appears like a condom. She said "go put that on your small dick"
I was astonished. She didn't apologize and just gave me this devilish look as she came back into my arms she grabbed my cock and stroked it outside my pants for a moment before walking away. Now leaving me horny as fuck.

We have a masturbation agreement that's on honor system. There are suppose to be consequences if broken but she never really follows thru. I can't help myself at this moment but also just can't wrap my head around her new found kink of humiliating me. Is this a sign of things to come or is she seeing my reaction and being a considerate lover. All I know is at this moment the sex has been very hot and I should probably savor every episode before something happens.

Anyway I appreciate any thoughts and will keep this going to document what's been a fun journey with a good woman.
Ronald Curry

Been a couple boring weeks as things start getting normal again with this virus hoax.
As a couple we've actually had a few arguments and since, smoothed things over.
Last night was a very sensual love making session.

We didn't see much of each other over the weekend and I did notice lots of bruising, but on unusual spots. Perhaps something happened. I have some suspicions.
Ronald Curry

Having a little bit of angst and a funny feeling in the pit of my stomach, that my fiancé is out with an another man, perhaps even an ex-boyfriend.
It's very unusual of her to not text and just ghost herself for the evening.

Instead of being the whiney little man, I'm not reaching out to her, if indeed she went to these great lengths to create some odd diversions over the last few days, just again, something feels off.

Last night was a strange unexpected hint. We decided we would see each other after the kid is put to bed. However, it turned out that she went off and did her own thing after work.
Ronald Curry

This person is very much about staying in contact. Our entire relationship. And more so before we began arguing, which in part was her jealousy over a project I'm working on which I'm partnered with a female. Does time Ive seen that side of her.

So her disappearance and lack of follow up as to where she was, wasn't necessarily the issue. She declined sex as we were winding down our evening, rekindling and listening to music. It was a needed night as a couple

I ask myself. Perhaps she was out having sex with another man? And declined when it was my turn With her. She suggested that the following evening she would offer up her ass and her mouth. Those were her words. She claimed to be having an issue with her pussy, all could well be true. Maybe she got ripped by a monster cock. I've solely been her lover for quite some time, the odds of her straying were slim. This past month closed the gap and increased those opportunities.
So on a Friday night at 11pm and haven't heard from my woman since about lunch time, there is certainly some angst.
Ronald Curry

Great read so far, thanks for sharing your experience!

The question is, what will be your reaction if she is out with another man?

Does she know you want to be a cuckold?

Well, to answer the question, at this point in my life, and wanting to seize an opportunity of living out a fantasy, I would not show any signs of disrespect to her if she did admit anything. Now, it's quite a challenge to have this discussion with women.
On one hand, it is among the most proven turnoffs. Probing doesn't work.

In my current situation, We are having some major issues in our relationship. It has not been tested like this and right now, today, it's pretty bad.

So there really isn't anything I can say. It was actually her who accused me of fucking around. Which I thought was very strange. I made the mistake of suggesting if anyone in our relationship were to stray it would be her, to which she didn't say anything, that may have been over the phone, may even have hung out.
Just things aren't going so great.

She doesn't know of my cuckold kink. Maybe she's having some play on the side as we wrestle thru our issues, to which If she ever admitted. I would not hide the fact that her having fun turns me on. I would then ask what aspects she enjoys and go from there.
Hopefully some better days ahead.
Ronald Curry

I am following your post with interest. I was willingly cuckolded by my wife from 1999 to 2012, until she left me for a neighbor and we divorced 2 years later. Since then I have still enjoyed cuckold websites such as this and find myself fantasizing about my current girlfriend going with other men too, despite her being totally different to my ex-wife in that she is very "vanilla", quite shy and very inexperienced.

Like Ronald here, she is unaware of my cuckold tendencies and in the past she has taken my interest in one of her very few ex-boyfriends and men on her Facebook as signs of possessiveness and become very defensive in her replies.

However there have been signs recently of her growing interest in at least one guy on her Instagram account, a black DJ, and she has been quite open about them exchanging direct messages for several months now. I have found it hard to play it cool, trying to strike a balance to gently encourage her to continue without freaking her out by trying to up the ante and suggest she takes things further. Last weekend she told me that she'd now been messaged by a friend of the first guy and that her phone was constantly "ping ping pinging" on Saturday with notifications from these two black guys.

Like you Ronald, we have had a couple of sombre days since the weekend so I haven't inquired as to how things are going, but I'm sure she'll tell me in her own time. Both men live about 50 miles away and I can't imagine anything will come of it, but the idea that it could is very, very arousing. Even if this interest from black men merely boosts her ego and self-confidence then I'll be more than happy.
Peter C

Thank you for sharing your story. It's therapeutic to be able to get stuff off your chest and be able to connect on common opportunities.

It sounds like your situation has the potential to blossom.
Now this is where you separate the game you play with yourself. We all have that voice that just kind of guides us. Depending on our personality type, we generally steer towards conservative norms. Thus, leaving opportunities wasted.

For instance in my case. I'm leaving a door open for her to explore. I'll evaluate further as more revelations come about.

If I'm coaching you, I'd ask you to be honest with yourself. Do you want to live out a fantasy. It could be a one time thing that may harm your relationship, or give you a lifetime of memories.
Think about answering what you want in the context of your death bed. You're in it, and you're reflecting on life. Do you look back at say, I'm glad I just kept it to myself, instead of getting hard one last time thinking about how humiliating it was to hear her cum with another man penetrating her and you there helpless with your cock unattended to. Or whatever your kink is .....

So specifically, maybe get her a little tipsy. Maybe make her feel good in some way. Suprise her. Whatever works on your woman.

And when you have that next sexual encounter. Casually ask she be honest with you. As you're fucking her. She will be puzzled and intrigued. And ask her "be honest with me, I love you, do you have dirty fantasies you think about and don't want to tell me..."

I have tried this exact tactic and it worked on a previous girlfriend and even my fiancé now....

Well I look forward to hearing how your situation unfolds. I'm not a jealous guy by nature, a little sensitive maybe, but right now knowing she is very likely flirting and open, it's causing some angst, in a good way. In answers to me that I would allow the fantasy to be reality.
Ronald Curry

A lot has happened. My previous entry was deleted, and since then I think things are developing towards an uncertain future as a couple.
Things have been rocky, to say the least. And I'd be happy to elaborate with anyone sincerely interested. With that said.
We fucked the other night, first time in maybe 2 weeks. I can't say I knocked her socks off but we had what seemed like a loving session. And a fun night as a couple, again.
I reiterate, again?
This woman is all over the place.
Today she ghosted me. The same as yesterday. The days before our encounter, she texted asking for closure. I sit here now deep in thought, and wonder that perhaps our time as a couple is going thru a real test. There are now unknown whereabouts. It was discovered in our night together that she disappeared to another state. One morning, she invited me over to have a kiss and I believe was grabbing something. She showed me her nipple which had a pasty on it. She mentioned having her friend over last night and that she's still laying in her bed. How am I not suppose to follow up?!?
Without being a snoopy fuck.

So this is where I could use a coach. We're on rocky terms, but it has been mentioned several times how we would like to be friends. I look at this as a tremendous opportunity. There's a lot of emotions right now. My woman would not confirm with me that I owned that pussy, something she has always done. There is definitely somethings going on.
Ronald Curry

Hello Ron,

More than 30 years ago, I just flat out decided that I am a freak. I want to be married to a whore, not a wholesome girl. In fact the very word, promiscuous, can get me hard. So, I ended up divorcing my very good wife (who I remain good friends with). My mistress at the time was a married mo ther who caught her husband cheating on her and so felt no obligation to faithfulness herself. We fucked before our first date in the empty office at work. By the end of the week I was sharing her with my friends and enjoyed a double vaginal penetration. In any case, with my mistress being such a hot slut, I married her (of course).

Now here is the kicker. Her husband never knew what a hot slut he had on his hands. He never knew because he was her husband. You see, most women act one way in front of their fuck buddy and another in front of their husband. A lifetime of training has taught them how to behave in the office (ie: how to behave in a marriage) and when you can let down your guard (ie: on the deserted island captured by pirates).

Now most men are quite different. Opposite in fact. For most men who want to play slutty, doing with the girl you love makes it better than paying for it with a stranger. So there is the conundrum. Your girlfriend has certain expectations of you as her boyfriend, and certain expectations of herself as a "girlfriend".

That is a tough one to break through. In all honesty I recommend that you both get away to a Jamaican resort where no one knows your name and where there is a 24 hour open bar.

MD

Angst is killing me
Drive past her place on the way home
There is with out a doubt someone at her place. And it's late late night. They must have went right at it. She is pretty keen on cutting her porch light off, it's on.
Well I'm a cuckold.
Ronald Curry

Just wanted to document what's happening. It's Saturday night, and I haven't heard from her since this morning. Just to be up to date, things haven't been exactly been great. We have been on a break, I guess the only way you can put it.
And the only reason is that we have fucked, but as far as where we are as a couple, we've regressed.
Our last session, on Thursday night, was our first in quite some time and it was a very lustful affair. We went right at it. She even ducked my cock pretty well which is something she claims she doesn't enjoy which is total bullshit. The first night we ever fucked, she wanted her throat fucked as she laid on her back and her mouth was perfectly positioned at end of bed and she wanted it rough.
The sex on this night was a true make up session. There were a couple of interesting points. Although she did compliment my cock, there was certainly no mention of her monogamy. Usually she'll say " this is your pussy"
Now there was love exchanged, she certainly did not confirm for me her not straying. I think she knows I know and it would now be about as best a time in my life to seize the moment.
Swallow the pride and accept the *********** and all the emotions that might come with.
She's already declared that she's single. That's a fact.
Even though she has retracted and has shown me love and an intent on seeking to get through this as a couple, she's also a I woman who now has new interests.
She's left the state now twice, I thought this was odd because just 3 months ago she cancelled our trip out of town because we were going through issues then.

And now we have reopened dialogue and share intentions to fix this. However, the question of her being with another man has to be answered
It just seems very complex. How do you ask. In what setting? Can I ask in the middle of sex? And how honest can I truly be
I'm going thru a lot right now. Obviously there is an emotional toll from the turbulence in our relationship, but here we are still
Ronald Curry

Quick update
The last few months have been a challenge to our relationship. With periods of time where we have been separated. This of course can lead to all sorts of scenarios.
None more developing than what was discovered just days ago.
Several days after we reconciled, I discovered her on the same dating app we met. Seeing her profile made me feel things I've never quite experienced. I'm at a loss for words just trying to comprehend.
How long has she been on here? Who has she met? What the fuck!?!?!?
The next morning we had arranged for a smooch before heading off to work. I cornered her, directly asking that I need something of her , and told her she must delete the app right now. She did as instructed. Saying she liked my direct approach.
Anyway, I've got some fantasies now going thru my mind of what's happening behind the scenes in her world. So having all that out there is already pretty hot.
She had asked me to be direct about my sexual activity as well, to which I denied anything of course.

Now this is where things get complicated. Anytime in our history, that we may have fought or gone a few days without speaking or thought we were ending it or whatever it is couples do that's stupid, anytime we reconcile, she looks deep into eyes and professes that I am the only one.
She makes a point of it each time, "no one had this pussy" or "this pussy is yours"

None of that this time.

I even made the mistake of probing her. Let's just say her facial reactions revealed she has something to hide. Now I'm not supposed to continue this probe. As a matter of fact, I've done it twice.

That's where we are at. We had sex last night and she was pretty hot and into it. This weekend we plan on spending together and have booked a get away for a couple nights. I'm kind of hoping to have a heart to heart and if we're able to have the discussion, I think at this point, now or never, would be ideal to just come out and say it. In a way that suggests I'm okay with her being free.
Ronald Curry

1:30am she's on the way
My angst is thru the roof
The next moments of my life I will savor with the senses
Ronald Curry

How did it go Ronald?

She climbed into bed and immediately embraced me, she smelled good. Her kisses tasted different, she's not a smoker but it had that subtle flavor. When she stripped, her immediate demand was to eat her out. The room was dark, and she wasn't wearing any panties, just a comfy top and her workout tight shorts. I can't say there was anything different about the taste of her pussy, but having not had it in almost 2 weeks, i was a mad man. I licked, sucked and tongued her. I savored it all. We fucked for quite a while, and she let me enjoy all of her.
We haven't discussed much in terms of what is happening in our lives and our relationship. There is without a doubt, a door open for her to explore. On this night she chose me, Im still rock hard thinking about how much I enjoyed her body and what it would mean when things can be clear and she knows it's okay.
Ronald Curry