Cuckold tendencies in school days.

I have always been submissive since I can remember. Being treated as a sissy has always been a major turn on. I've always been the weakling and the last to be looked at by girls in high school and college. Also never really had sexual confidence because of my smaller size and performance issues. Has anyone had a trigger from their younger days that set off the cuckolding attraction? My trigger would be my being rejected by girls and women in my school days.