real situation... advices ???

So, this is the story. After a lot of fantasy and role play on the bed about more than an year ago, we finally decided to go for a real experience. She was very into black guys (she has a pale white skin, no pubic hair, a juicy pink pussy..), so we met a black guy with a lot of experience with cuckolding..lots of years on swing and as bull... so we met on a bar, and after her approval, we went to a motel, and he fucked her alll night... she behaved in a way she never did before with me, I mean like a real slut... he got her all night, I stayed just beside of the bed, watching and masturbating... well, it was very exciting, but after that, we decided to take a break and do not keep this going, you know a lot of emotions and all.
SO, now, after almost one year without mentioning the experience (but still remembering and getting excited) I decided to take a look on her computer, looking at the history on her browser...guess what ? I discovered she was looking at some serious interracial cuckolding theme movies and sites, and on top of that, looking a lot at the profile of the black guy from one year ago first experience... so she is definetively thinking about that, but she is keeping it to herself. And I don´t know what to do, because at the same time I get very excited about it, right after I cum it looks like a very disgusting think to do... and after 30-40 minutes after, I start to think again it´s a good idea ... and than, I regret..so, has anybody here have been in a situation like this ? Any advice ?

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Cobra, I want it but sometimes I don´t.. it´s a weird feeling...hard to understand...yet, I get very excited just to think about it, but if I jerk off, right after I cum it looks like a very stupid idea you know ?

You don't have to say you want her to do it. Start the conversation slower. "Confess" to her that you mastrubate constantly to the thought. Open the door, let her step through and lead the conversation deeper. It may take a few sessions like that to get to talking about doing, but a slow start might give her the room she needs or for her to tell you what she is doing or wants.

Anemona666, I know EXACTLY what you mean. I also know what can help. You and your wife are repressing your feelings, and, you (not sure about the wife), are going thru some "social guilt". Fact- you have already done this- a year later, without talking, and you are still together- that means the stress didn't destroy your relationship. She is looking for the cuckolds brownie online- it is STILL something that she wants! YOU still get hard from it, and get off quickly, but, later- you feel like cuckolds brownie. What you are both feeling is desire/need/want. What you are feeling later is insecurity, and guilt. "Why should we do this? Isn't this wrong? Am I good enough for her?" All this runs thru your head, and more, right? I've been there, done that.
Listen- you two NEED to talk- NOW. Let her know you found the browser history- might be a good idea to let this be an "accident" (If you "investigated" her- you lose all trust, and she'll hate you for it- even if you did do this- keep that to yourself, and go deeper into the life to re-build the trust.) Talk to to her- tell her you get that she has urges, too, and so do you. What you need from her- is re-enpowerment! She NEEDS to come home to you, bring you pics, and tell you EVERYTHING- she shouldn't hide anything. This builds trust, and her coming back to you, will make you more secure, and you will top having those bad thoughts after you blow your load (You really should blow your load on her- even if it's just on her tits, to "re-claim" what is yours).
I had these feelings with my -ex (she's an -ex because of the wars in the desert- NOT the lifestyle), and, I'm going thru them now, with my new wife.
You gotta stop feeling down- you ain't a loser- or she would have run off with someone by now- she is with you- you have her loyalty, because you deserve it. (How do you think she would feel if she saw the women you look at online, when she isn't around?)
Start TALKING right now!- it will not only keep you together- it will make cuckolds brownie hotter than you have ever had it.
I'm no fantasy writer- I know this, because I lived it. Contact me, if you need help man. I'll do what I can.
(welcome to the life!)

I know what u mean brother. I have the same thing... after jerking off all those cuckold thoughts are just going away. no more desire for creampie eating, watching your women with black cock between her legs and so on.... the whole idea seams to be a mistake ....
it has something to do with testosterone....anyway... I learned how to controll those thoughts. Right after just start thinking of something else, dont judge yourself, dont thing about it, just change the subject.
Or....you would have to buy CB and lock your cock inside. that means no more cumming for a longer period of time but constant arousal and dirty thoughts. im considering one for myself

Seems she is excited by it, you are excited about it but neither wants to mention it... MENTION IT!!

About the post orgasm dip - I fall off a cliff sometimes. Right after, I could become a monk. I wear a cage most of the time. My peak horny time is 5-10 days after being locked... I hardly ever come when we are playing or she is cuckolding me because I just lose it!

Anyway, as mentioned above... cuckolding is about love and communication. Talk to her....

mr two

Couldn't agree more with what Mr. Two said. I think my wife might have given more serious consideration to this lifestyle sooner had I told her outright about what I wanted versus trying to be subtle about it.

Jerk off about three times in a row, and then ask the real you if this course of action is wise. Not only emotionally, but all of the biological concerns as well: Herpes, HPV, AIDS etc. It's just stupid. Let your big head rule over your little one for once. That being said, the whole thing is hot as hell. Everytime I think about making it real, I just jerk off. Problem solved. I'm not going to live with the reality of my wife having Herpes II or HPV (which condoms won't protect against) because of a fantasy that I'm occupied with 10% of the time. Okay...30% .... maybe 50% . Plus, let's face, it's unlikely she's going to find anyone that can out fuck me. I already fuck her to five or six orgasms when we have sex. Sigh... kinda depressing.

All, thanks a lot for all advices.. I can see you are for real on this, so I apreciate that.
I really didn´t make up my mind about a second real experience.. I spoke with the black guy that fucked her in the past, and he´s totally up for another round if we want..so if I offer her the opportunity, I´m sure whe will take it, but only if I guarantee I won´t freak out... right now, I can´t guarantee that.
The funny thing is that when I started to think about this I never though she would like, to think she would do it for real was absolutely out of the question, and for my surprise, the first time I mentioned, she found very hot, and she pushed hard for the first real experience (and it was fuckin hot), I think she wasn´t being able to hold her desire LOL.
The point is, she has this interracial thing very strong inside her, but she doesn´t want to do something that ruins our relationship, and I´m not as well... she has potential for a totally cuckold lifestile, but I don´t know if I want to.. Well, maybe is something like this...either I keep the jerk off only and move on and don´t take risks, or I take a shot for a second experience. One thing is that if we didn´t ruin the whole thing on the first real experience, it´s unlikely that the second would have a stronger effect than the first... right ?? Or this is just the small head speaking ?

**I** have found that the cuckold lifestyle, like the BDSM lifestyle, is progressive. What was HOT at one time, becomes "normal" later and then for more thrill you have to up the ante. Then no progress is ever made without risk.

Good luck in your deci
sions. Do start talking, or one of you may start doing, which may cause problems not only in communications. It is okay to discuss doubts.

Well... we started to talk about it, and guess what ? She asked me to let her meet a black bull again... she said she really wants it and now that I let her had a first real experience, she cannot simply ignore, she needs more. So, now if I let her do it again, I know it will probably be a more a permanent situation......
Worst, wen she start to talk about going out with a black bull, she changes her behavior, she start to call me "cucky" during sex, start to talk about going out alone and come back smelling other men cum.. she even asked me to go out alone so I could call her during sex, to hear her moaning over another mens cock...that´s really hot during sex, but after (or on the day after) it brings an awkward silence, at least for me.
She want´s to be a married slut, that´s for sure... I don´t know if I keep this as a fantasy or if this could ruin our marriage, because I´m not a wimp or submissive husband....fuck this thing is confusing as hell !!

Dear Anemona666

Well, seems like you have let the fox (your Wife) into the Cockshouse once, and now She recognizes this is what She wants and need.

If you love Her, and want to stay married to Her while keeping Her happy, I don't think you have got many other options than to learn to love it. I, and many other users would be happy to be in your shoes. You now have the chance to witness a beautiful woman whom you love blossom and realize Her full Sexual potential.

You claim not to be a submissive husband, but you can become more so if you elect to focus on pleasing your Wife and putting Her needs in front of your own. If you don't, there is probably a chance your wife will decide that She needs more sexual pleasure than you can give Her and will either cheath on you or leave you. I would allow Her to do as She pleases and seek to share Her experiences and enjoy them. It is still your choice.

Good luck
Sincerely
elina

pretty fukin hot anemona666 - for sure one cant unlike what they like so its where u wanted to get to eh?? i permisterally would like to see a pic of your woman - i love the stories where a wife is deadset against it and they slowly warm to the idea and finally go for it. i dig those chicks. my hot sexpot finally agreed to go the distance the other night and went out twice alone to bars to test the water. i also have those conflicting emotions but i learned a long time ago to choose one and stick with it.

To misquote - Act like you have courage and courage will be given to you.

You need to make a decision and then go with it. I don't think it is the actual happening that is *******ing you, it is the doubt.

Sounds a lot like what happened to my wife when she had her first black cock. She has always been a slut but when she had her first BBC, while we were together..it changed her. Your wife has Jungle Fever....as many like to call it. Also that saying "Once you go black you never go back" is true for my wife...and your I guess. Let her enjoy BBC. She will love you more for allowing her to satisfy her sexual needs that you can not do. And you being her husband and cuck is now your place...just enjoy the heck out of it

Just wait until the day she comes home with a black guys cum still leaking from her pussy and powers you to lick it out and clean her pussy with her tongue. When you taste that mix of her sex and his cum you will be addicted too

Anemona666- you say you aren't a wimp, or submissive husband. You realize that your wife thinks the same thing, right? She's been ASKING YOU to go out again!! If she thought you were a wimp, and didn't respect you, she wouldn't ASK- she'd just do it! She NEEDS your permission- that means, you are still in control. You still have the respect- that means the relationship can survive. Just gotta keep "controls" on the playing she does- nothing without you knowing in advance.

Well... I guess you all have good points of view here..I agree this lifestyle is progressive, I think if she starts to go out again with her black bull, after a while she will want to make with two or more at the same time, or to bring them to our house, I don´t know what can happen really.
And yes, she respect me so she ask me for permission, and this is so hot! She has fantasies about going to a gas station dressed like a slut, to come home smelling other mens cum, well you know how it works...
Anyway, we havent talked about it any more, so things got quiet for a while which is good, this way I can think.
I´ll check if I can post a pic of her so you can check her out.
Thanks for your feedback!

Mandy keeps me locked up in chastity. This keeps me horny all the time. If you go a week in chastity, you will want this more every day.

well...after a while...she has been watching some serious IR porn, so I will have to do something about it, I can see she just can´t hold it

She needs it. Don't stand in the way, be part of it. Enjoy the wonderful woman you have.