The beginning of a cuckold relationship

I’m a male who has always had submissive desires and fantasies towards women and I’m heading into what I think is going to be a cuckold relationship and love it. The girl is someone who has been a friend of mine for about three years and about six months ago we dated a few times. She knows I totally adore her and she has made some comments in the past that I am someone she would want to settle down with to myself and other people.

She has a reputation as being a slut and someone who plays men off each other and at times takes advantage of people. As long as I’ve known her she has never been monogamous with anyone. She is 30 and has lived with two men and cheated on them both, living with both for several years. Before that when she was real young she worked as a stripper for a year.

I know her so well though that know what she is really into is having power and control over men.

So her and the guy she was living with for past four years - their relationship really ended two years ago - split and she moved out and is going to stay with her mom for three months while she gets herself financially straight.

Once they broke up I contacted and started to date her and made clear that what I hope to have with her is a real relationship.

We started to hang out and have done so for past three weeks. Have not had sex.

She told me about some past men. One night one of them became a facebook friend. Two days later she came to my house around noon to do some stuff on my computer and she smelled of so much perfume she smelled like a stripper. I didn’t say anything but wondered if she hadn’t just had sex with this guy and then stopped over.

While using the computer she made the comment that she only has real relationships with guys that have no kids - because that way their is no drama from other mams and the men will be totally devoted to her. I have none and the guy I suspect she had been with has them.

When she leaves I tell her she was incredibly sexy.

Of course I had an erection and then I realized that I like this and want to be a cuckold to her. The way I feel is she is testing me to see if I react to her smell as I’ve been around her 100 times and never smelled her like that or is prepping me for what is to come.

I knew something would happen like this if we started to see each other and is probably one of the reamisters I am so attracted to her other than I like her permisterality a lot and get along with her and she is hot. But this is the first time I feel directly the desire to be her cuckold even though in the back of my mind I knew that is how a relationship between us would eventually turn into.

She knows I’m going out of town on the weekend, but we go out to dinner one night beforehand. I ask her what she is going to do this weekend and she doesn’t give me an answer and I assume she is going to be mess with this guy probably. But I’m ok with that, I don’t really care and don’t feel jealous or threatened by it. I don’t make anything of it.

On way home though I tell her a story about another friend of mine whose girlfriend cheated on him and he came to me for advice and I told him to just forget about it and get over it and figure out what he really wants with her. I’m giving her permission.

I talk more about this friend and some of the hangups I think he has and tell her that everyone has their ways about them its not a big deal.

I feel closer to her than before on way home and when we pull in have our first kiss. She drops me off and leaves.

I go out of town Friday. Saturday morning find on her facebook that she has a status where she was at this guy I was suspecting’s house at 1:30 in the morning. They have flirting messages going back and forth.

I know she is testing me, but I didn’t see any of this in the evening. She sends me a phone text telling me that she just put this status up their to make her old boyfriend stop bothering her. Of course I don’t believe this, but am glad she is contacting me I see it that she doesn’t want to lose me and is testing me. She wants to see how I’ll react to this and is also taking sexual control of the relationship.

I want to just play it off as much as I can so I reply to her text telling her thanks for letting me know and I thought she had been bad and I’d have to come home and spank her.

I get home late that night and Saturday night she is again posting stuff on facebook playing a video game with this guy.

Sunday morning I send her a simple message telling her if she is trying to get into a relationship with him just let me know and be know hard feelings otherwise she needs to come over and we’ll talk about what we are doing. I end by telling her I am not trying to be the only man in her life but the most important.

She replies and tells me she isn’t trying to get with him like that at all and is just looking to hang out with friends and do stuff and she’ll be over to see me in next few days.

I believe she set all of this up in advance and I’m heading straight into a cuckold relationship with her and my desire for her has never been greater. I want her so bad. But I need to control myself. I don’t want her to know how much power she has over me right now and exactly all I feel. I want to meet her and just tell her I want to keep seeing her life we have been and that everything is cool. I don’t want her to know how out of control and attracted to her I feel right now. I want to stay calm and collected with her...but I feel I’m heading straight into a cuckold relationship which may be something she never had - where the man totally accepts the way she does and actually likes it - and I have never had either, but I can see how it would take care of many desires I have to be submissive to a woman. Right now I feel like she taken total control of this relationship and practically owns me and I love it. I just need to handle it right and want it to work for the long-term.

My concern is for her to respect me and not to just be totally beta in this relationship, because she would then simply take advantage of me. I want to be positioned right and the way I see it that is as a strong male tougher than her other men who couldn’t handle her and simply would get jeolous, but adores her and is totally devoted to her that I will be a cuck for her.

How have others handled this type of thing?

Sounds like you have what many here would love to have. You have a big head start on this...and it could lead to a wonderful sexual relationship. However, it may also be a relationship where you get your heart tore out.

You need to get in stone, what you are looking for with her. You need to get from her what she is looking for. When you understand where she stands, tell her exactly what you want from her in a relationship. Your/her communication to each other is the most important thing. She needs to know where you draw the line and vise versa. You can still be a strong man to her, you just need to know how and when to be cucky boy and man of the house.

Be honest with her and be up front. If she is as open as you might think...she should take this kind of thing pretty good. Good luck and please keep us posted as to how things go.

Its great advice. When I got back from the trip I was not jealous but horny for her and suffering from some cucky angst I wanted to have sex with her bad and at same time wanted to have the cuckold talk with her like you are saying to help get rid of some of the angst and uncertainty... Before the relationship even started I knew that this would happen at some point - but I did not think it would happen this quickly. But a day has gone by and I've got my brains back, we're just going to hang out tomorrow and I'm going to tell her I want things to keep going on like they have been happy with that.

I do not think she is ready for that type of talk about drawing lines and where everyone stands, but instead I think we just need to continue to hang out for awhile and we can hint at things more as we have already done and I should just sit back and let her have her fun when she wants too and not say much about it all, the less the better. That way she knows even more that I'm good with it, that she can trust me, then we can have that big talk at some point, it may be several weeks I don't know and also in a week I'll be able to determine if this was all a game on her part, which i doubt, but you never know. But if the talk happens I think it will be a wonderful moment for us both, I truly believe that this is the type of relationship that would suit her needs and doubt anyone has offered it to her and I believe it is ideal for me too with her. I adore her and at same time truly believe that no one man would ever satisfy her -so a cuckold is what she needs and as a sexually submissive male it suits me to be devoted to her like this - but the thing is to draw lines and so forth would be to set rules on her and control what she is doing and I don't think she is ready for that yet. That step should come when it comes time to really define the relationship and we are not there yet. But essentially it is a cuckold relationship in all but name.

Hey markymark...just thought i would comment. Be careful. I know you see a potential pot of gold at the end of the rainbow with this woman and I get it...I really do. I often wonder if this woman you are persuing (the promiscuous type) is the right type for the relationship you (all of us) are seeking or is it better to find a more sexually conservative type woman and try to open her up? From everything I've read, it seems to me that the latter is the type more likely to continue to respect her committed partner while exploring a sexual relationship with another man or men. But that's the paradox isn't it? A more sexually conservative woman (for lack of a better term) is less likely to ever even seriously consider this type of relationship, so I see what you see...an opening. Having said that, you are trying to start a relationship with a liar and a cheater. My guess is you believe that if you handle her differently i.e. allow her to cuckold you openly that she will have no reamister to lie or cheat on you and therefore you could be the perfect partner for her. Logically, it makes sense. Unfortunately, this character flaw usually runs deeper in people than just the sex department and over the long term, I wouldn't bet on it. Also, it depends on how involved or informed you want to be about her sexual activity with others. Just some thoughts...best of luck to you.

geecrizz

I know what you are saying. I think it comes down to this at some point you have to set some guidelines and rules about how the cuckold relationship would work. If she then breaks them then you know that she is not respecting you and/or the whole thing would never work and you would have to end it. If she does then it would fine. I think that is the ultimate sign of whether it will work or not. I'm not threatened by her now romantically getting involved with someone and leaving for that. I have known her for three years and know of how many of the things she has done works and she does it for sex and feeling of power over men and not for deep romantic relationships. She has daddy issues too where she wants one man taking care of her but does not want to be controlled or dependent on them but instead wants to control them so it is a strategy she uses for that too. I do not know if I'd really be interested at this point in a straight lace conservative lady and trying to change her. If this relationship doesn't work I'm not necessarily looking for another cuckold relationship, but am interested in sexually dominant women and want a relationship with one. With this girl also the cuckolding and all of this would also lead to deep conversations about why she does what she does and me too at some point. If there is not trust and honesty like you said it won't work.

It is all about setting rules and those rules would have to change in regards to where the relationship is going... from just dating to wherever. So I have to think about how to set some simple rules just to start and see how that goes fairly quickly..... at the start I'm really the one that would be making the commitment to her - to be the faithful cuck and would have to give her some simple rules for her to use that would help me be comfortable in that role and really wouldn't be constraining for her - then if she did not obey them would know this would not work... and as things get more serious between us then rules would be more strict.

It would be interesting if their were articles somewhere about what type of women are natural cuckoldresses and why do it as opposed to ones doing it for their men, but I haven't really seen any.

MarkyMark,

You know yourself very well. That is awesome. I do think the both of you are "courting" so to speak. Take your time so the both of you develop "feelings" for one another that are strong and enduring. Communication is the key to success in a cuckolding relationship.

A couple of warnings:

You say that you have not had sex with her. If true, you will have to deal with the fact that she apparently does not "lust" for you. She may love you. She may adore you and what you do for her. But, if she does not feel lust then you may find yourself sexually frustrated. I am in this situation with my wife. We got together as a cuckold couple a long time ago. She has had many lovers. And one special lover who has been with her (us) for many years. When she is with him she has great lust and they literally attack one another moments after he comes through the door. She has no interest in sex with me at all. She does indulge my submissive side as it works to her advantage. She loves it when I worship and massage her feet. She loves it when I worship her ass. Otherwise, she tosses me a pair of her panties for me to sniff at night in my bedroom.

If you are genuinely submissive. If your thoughts run to worshiping her, viewing her as a Goddess, feeling unworthy of sex with her, then any attempt you make to establish rules will fail. You cannot "control" another permister. Even in the best of marriages, if one spouse has extra marital affairs and develops "feelings" then the marriage is in for tough times and may ultimately fail. Whatever rules you establish, she will subtly have a battle of wills with you as your relationship develops. She will have her way. This is the way it works in a relationship between a hotwife and her submissive hubby.

A better approach for a submissive male is to provide her with true value. The kind of value that she would genuinely regret giving up if she ever thought about running away from you with her lover. You love her, worship her, make her feel your lust for her, compliment her, do chores willingly to make her life easier, support her financially, be dependable and completely faithful, let her make decisions about all kinds of things. Be everything a woman wants in a devoted husband with one exception, she has lovers to fulfill her sexual needs.

Good luck!

marcus

ps...I am not saying you need to be her doormat. Not at all. You need to establish a way of discussing sex with her openly and honestly. Make your feelings and needs known to her. Then discuss each others' needs. Some she may simply not be able to fulfill. At this point, you evaluate what is good and bad in the relationship. If the good outweighs the bad then you both continue. It is as simple as that.

Ladynsniffer

Thanks for the great post and I'm going to have some time to myself over the holidays and am going to print it out and think a lot about it. One thing taking immediately is the more time the better to let things develop. There is no reamister for me to be in a rush at all.

As for rules you are right. I already am thinking that the idea of any rules now at this point does not make much sense and when/if things get more serious it would be more about making clear what my needs are and what I can handle with her perhaps. There has to be some limits but they shouldn't be about controlling her but what I need from her. Just telling her what my needs are and if she doesn't care enough about them then it wouldn't make sense.

I do believe we are courting and that is one reamister we have not had sex. I think she does not want to have sex with me until I make some sort of devotion or tell her I love her or something. I see that as a way for her to control me and what she did this weekend by spending time with someone else was a way to assert sexual control of me and test me to see if I am truly relationship material for her before we go further and see what I would do - if I got all emotional or demanding I would have flunked the test.

I don't feel unworthy of having sex with her, but I do view her as a sex goddess that I want to worship and devote myself too, and you are right I do not feel I could possibly satisfy her sexually completely either. No single man ever has though. But I know that she would get more pleasure from other lovers than me and I have to think about what you are saying here. Perhaps it would be key whether or not she gets off in being in control of a submissive cucky male also instead of it simply being a manner of other benefits. I read in some article that the successful cuckold loves her woman like no other man can sexually too. But yes the true value thing you say is no problem. I feel confident I can fill all of those roles and that is one big reamister she is interested in me. I will have to think a lot about what you say about the simple fact that rules really won't work though and in the end she will have her way. She has all the power in the relationship at the moment but things ebb and flow...... If this continues and we get really involved with one another I see it being a wonderful thing but I won't know how well it will work or not until months into it. All I know now is I want to pursue this and have no interest now in any other woman. I have known her and wanted to be with her for a long time and have always felt like we would get involved with one another and that I'd end up as her cuckold but I don't want to be a doormat cuck but one that is more supportive of her, adores her totally, and she respects.

thanks for the feedback and comments, will update when something meaningful happens...

Honestly relationships aren't just switches, it isn't fear on my part just not the right time. Things will evolve naturally and I have no need to rush either.

And yes she is 30, divorced, waitress with 3 kids and I have a lot of money - lol. Just a few years older. Guess if it don't work with her can find another girl in a similar situation.

Update - we talked on phone past few days as both are busy due to holidays and family and will met up soon, but set up what we are doing. You date someone for two weeks and get to the point where you have that conversation of what we are doing and each permister wants.

So we both agree we could be heading for a serious relationship in a few months where she would ultimately move in with me, but It is best to not jump straight into that but keep seeing each other reguraly and let things grow. She just got out of living with someone for 4 years which is over for good.

She wants to date other people at the same time --- with her though dating really means relaxing around she isn't really going out places or anything with them. Way I see it she is going to be screwing other men and courting me.

I believe we are building the foundation and training each other for a loving cuckold relationship...

Or maybe you think I am already a cuck for her?

I told her that is fine with me. She can date who she wants, but I have no interest in other women and only am going to keep seeing her. Told her that to keep me happy for now she just needs to keep coming over and us going out together twice a week or so.

I really do not see a reamister to have deep conversations with her about cuckolding and so forth until things get more serious which would be at least 2-3 months out. Basically things are just moving naturally way I always thought they would between thhe two of us. I would never agree to such an arrangement and tell a girl they can see others and I would stay devoted to them but with her I know her so well that it just feels right and I am not threatened by other men with her.

So have I been cucked by my gf?

<< Or maybe you think I am already a cuck for her? >>

You are.

<< I really do not see a reamister to have deep conversations with her about cuckolding and so forth until things get more serious which would be at least 2-3 months out. >>

I think it would be a good idea to start gradually discussing these issues with her. She could be one of those people who believe everything is okay until you're married, then cuts it all out.

Better to get the issues out in the open first, before you get more serious about the relationship with her.

xoxoxo

Well it has been six weeks since we started dating. I see her one or two times a week hang out at home or go out to eat. She has one lover she basically screws, she goes over his house and spends the night but they don't go out or anything. I'm her relationship material cuckold guy and he is her toy. I've never done anything like this and am surprised at some of the feelings from it. LAst saturday she was with her lover and I went to bed then woke up in the middle of the night with an erection that wouldn't go away thinking about it. My attraction for her on a sexual level is so powerful and emotionally what has surprised me is I don't feel jeolous most of the time, but what I feel is totally devoted to her. I have lost any interest in any other women. I've been in love with other women and I feel differently - it is not the same type of feeling, but I feel utterly devoted and more sexually attracted to her and stimulated by her than women in the past. It's like being a teenager again.

I knew at the start that she likes to control men and I can tell she feels more comfortable with me as her cuck and we get along great so far, she likes having power over me like this. What I suspect is that as a cuckoldress she gets off on being on a cuckoldress just likes cucks do not just emotionally but a sexual charge..... if true than the cuckolding will define our sexuality together for as long as we are together as you don't go back or can start over and it creates more pleasurable sex for both almost like an addiction. One thing I like though is she is not bossy or demanding, she isn't a bossy women which I can't stand, but is completely controlling when it comes to sex with me which I like. What has surprised me the most is how devoted I feel towards her by going through with this and putting up with it. I was not expecting that. You have doubts when your gf is screwing someone else and then you just realize you are devoted.

Markymark...

Thanks for continuing to share your new relationship with us.

Every relationship is unique to the people involved. We all lead similar lives, but only the couple knows what goes on behind closed doors. What I mean is that your relationship may be similar but will also be different than anyone else's. Therefore, our advice is just that, advice. It may or may not help your situation. The one thing that will help any couple is communication.

If she is having sex with someone else but is not having sex with you (She's just hanging out with you), then I think you may be "fantasizing" too much about her. Your sex life with her is all in your mind. You need to communicate to her your feelings about her. She needs to know that you are considering a relationship with her. And you need to know that she is considering a relationship with you.

If the both of you agree that you want to develop a relationship, then you two have a shared goal which will make dating each other a lot easier (no hidden agendas).

marcus

Yeah, my question would be, do you want to fuck her and will that be an....ongoing need that's important to you? Because based on your story I don't see that as a guarantee. It would be a need for me, but...

well I kinda broke down and told her at this point I need more. We are going to get a hotel room over the weekend, go out to dinner, spend the night together. She said she was waiting for this, but she demanded for me to realize that she is still going to be free to do and see anyone she wants to and I agreed to be loyal to her and not see anyone else myself. I fear once we have sex I'll be completely addicted and in need of it from her from then on and she'll have huge control over me, it scares me and turns me on, and deep down is what I want too. Who knows where this will go and lead to but its all I want now.

marky, I agree that it's likely you will be completely devoted to her after she *allows* you to have sex with her. I also like that she insisted on her having her sexual freedom. It certainly appears that your desires are aligned with hers.

You should probably decide what your limits are, when you are by yourself in a calm (not aroused) state of mine.

xoxoxo... and let us know how it goes!

If you ask me, she is screwing you!

we had fun over the weekend. she is basically a dominatrix. She says she answers to no men and her other guy is her "stud" who has a big cock and I'm her slave who can still please her by working hard and do things for her to make her happy. Says she only has relationships with someone who is a slave to her and just uses studs for sex. She insists that I'm to stay totally loyal to her and that if I see anyone else she'll cut me off as it would mean that I'm not loyal enough to be her slave but as long as I stay loyal she'll allow me to have sex with her and do things for her. She started talking differently to me now when we go out saying when we arrange things she is "letting" me take her out to dinner or "letting" me take her out for takes. Funny someone used that phrase a few message ago on here. She never used word cuckolding and I never have with her that is what it is though and it is her way of controlling men. Way I see it she has more than one man so no man can tell her what to do and she is the one in charge and in control so when I go along with her and obey her it puts her in a dominatrix position over me and I do it because I am getting off on it and is like a fantasy come true for me.

mmm, she sounds very nice for you.

I would love to hear about the fun you had over the weekend. Well, also about the sex she has with her "studs."

What kind(s) of sex does she like to have with her slaves? And are you the only one, or are there others also? If not, is she looking for other slaves?

Also some other things to think about... Exactly a month ago, you said:
My concern is for her to respect me and not to just be totally beta in this relationship, because she would then simply take advantage of me. I want to be positioned right and the way I see it that is as a strong male tougher than her other men who couldn’t handle her and simply would get jeolous, but adores her and is totally devoted to her that I will be a cuck for her.

Based on that, I would say that she has taken control of you. Not that you mind, I know. Just something to think about, and to also think about how far you're willing to go in that regard.

I don't mean she is a dominatrix like using whips and spanking and dressing up but she controls men and makes them her slave by cuckolding them. When it comes to sex she is in total control and I have none really. I do what she wants and let her do what she wants and she makes clear I have no choice at all in the matter. I haven't asked and don't want to now what she does with her studs. I know she has two of them and I am her slave. I'm the only one that takes her out on dates she just hooks up with them for sex and they probably see other people too. What she made me do first time is she played with me, told me my cock wasn't as big as her other guy but would still be good enough but I had to make sure I did a good job with it... she had me eat her out first for a long time then allowed me to fuck her... then did more... The crazy thing is I want her to fuck other men even more now because I like being controlled by her like this and giving her all of this sex power over me.

Very exciting tread. I'm really curious what more she allowed you to do with her during sex on the weekend.

LAst night I only slept a few hours. Was at home and my girlfriend/mistress was out and I didn't know who she was out with. So I had trouble relaxing. So many thoughts go in your head. I realize I have put myself in a position where she has total power in the relationship and I really don't have much say about things. I'm so devoted to her but she isn't too me or is she in her own way? I don't know. Maybe I'm just being used. Time will tell. But it feels so good when I'm with her, but alone you suffer. If this ends badly I don't know if I'd be able to immeidately get into a "normal" relationship. I'd probably seek out an older domme that would be interested in taking control of me sexually and nurturing or mentoring me for while. Someone 50 or so interested in having a "boy". That is one thing I thought about last night. You just feel so uncertain. But I'm devoted to my cuckoldress once you become a cuckold to someone that defines the whole relationship and as long as you are in it that is what you are and you love it and her and just have to go with it. Suffering at times and being uncertain is the drawback you have to deal with and live with and it isn't easy. If you go down this road you think about that. The rewards are huge it makes you feel like you are a horny teenager again you and obsess about your cuckoldress and get so much pleasure from her but you have to suffer at times to get the rewards. I believe that is one reamister my girl is a cuckoldress she wants her men she is in a relationship with to prove they are totally devoted to her and to control them and this is how she does it. Like she said i'm her slave. I'm devoted to her because no one can make me feel the way she does. I'm more attracted to her than ever and am willing to suffer my cucky angst to see where this all goes.

<< my girlfriend/mistress was out and I didn't know who she was out with. So I had trouble relaxing. So many thoughts go in your head. >>

That would be a normal thing for the situation you've gotten into.

<< I'm so devoted to her but she isn't too me or is she in her own way? I don't know. >>

Why do you say that? I haven't seen any indication that she is.

<< Maybe I'm just being used. Time will tell. >>

Yes, it will. And you might want to keep your mind open for that possibility as things develop. Yes, I know it feels good. Try to figure out how it might end, so that you can find a way to be okay with that when the time comes.

<< But it feels so good when I'm with her, but alone you suffer. >>

It sounds to me like part of you wants that aspect of the relationship and part of you doesn't. It's part of the roller coaster ride, if you know what I mean.

If you want her to relax with guys, you may have to accept that she will do it without you there. That's her choice, the way I see it.

xoxo

Yep, you are right. It's a cuckold relationship and I just have to go with it. Like any relationship you don't know where it is really going when it starts. I just have to accept that and the ups and downs of being a devoted submissive cuck. I was just suffering from cucky angst which is a part of this when wrote that last post.

Sounds like you're in an interesting relationship.....I hope all works out well for you and this turns into a fulltime status with her being your cuckoldress.

Look forward to hearing more!
Cuck who loves a creampie.

update once cucked always cucked... my girl stopped seeing the other guy a few weeks ago because he started to get too needy and wanting more so we ended up hanging out a lot with each other since then and I started to get even more attached to her I didn't ask anything about other men or what she wants in that stuff or anything just normal dating like a normal couple. Then I see some dude hitting on her on facebook. He's 22 and she is 30. I ask about it and she tells me she had sex with him a year ago and is now going to start to see him because he "has a big dick and is good at pounding." She tells me I better not have a problem with it and I have no choice but not to because I'm so whipped. I'm cucked again. Next thing I know I'm on my knees eating her out telling her I'll do anything she wants and she is calling me her sweet heart. She says she is going to turn this dude into her "boy toy." I get hard thinking about it. She has so much control over me.

Thank you for the update. It sounds like things have settled down a bit, and that she is clear that she's not going to fall madly in love with one of the men she has sex with.

no I'm not worried about him stealing her away truth is I want her to hook up with him. He has a bigger dick than I do, younger, and stronger... He can do a good job screwing her and I won't be threatened by it. I rather have her with him than someone else. It makes me feel secure in our relationship for her to be picking men like that to have sex with and I'm hoping he becomes a regular partner for her. It's funny because I think back to first time she blantantly had sex with someone and made sure I knew about it and she knew she was taking a chance but if it worked for her she'd end up in control of me and than get the emotional security of being in charge and now I'm thinking the cuckolding is going to give me the same thing with this new dude. Cuckolding can bring people closer together and I think that it is starting to do that for us.

Maybe its time for her to visit you after her date and feed you a nice fresh creampie?
Cuck who loves a creampie.

update looking at the thread and early messages its funny. we're still together and look back here at how it started and I said she took control and charge of me by cuckolding me. Right when we first started going out she told me what she wanted and gave me a role, to become her boyfriend and serious partner I would have to devote myself to her and accept the fact that she would take on other lovers. I was full of angst and aroused and so quickly agreed to it. We then dated for two months and never had sex while she slept around then finally I begged for it and got it.

I have come to not only accept all of this but now I'm addicted to her and being her cuck and as a result you can take the control I thought she had a back then and magnify it by twelve. I have had chances to have sex with other women but passed them up because I now only think about my girlfried/mistress/cuckoldress and have lost all interest in other women, she has become the only permister that arouses me it is just everything combined the sex with her and being cucked. I have always had deep submissive desires and now she has created a role for me where they are being fulfilled. I think cuckolding becomes a sexual addiction almost because you get aroused so often and differently than a normal relationship it never gets boring but then that cuckoldress becomes the source of everything you need and want it would be difficult to lose it all and that is why I feel she is in total control now.

For her cuckolding me gives her security and allows her to feel in control. I have come to see that she needs this bad in a relationship with a man, she doesn't need that with sex playmates, but needs this for a serious relationship. Shes leans on me a lot. She doesn't ever say anything bad or belittle me or anything like that, no offense talk, she needs to know that I'm devoted and she is in control when it comes to sex and putting me in this role does that for her and as I've grown into it it has become something I don't want to lose .

Thank you so much for the update! I'm really happy that the relationship is going in a direction that you are enjoying.