Hi,
I haven't really written anything here, mainly because of the vast amount of stories and pics and caps and topics to explore. Now I think I'm ready to give something back and tell a little about myself and my gf and our relationship. She doesn't know about this forum or that I'm going to write here. Maybe not the best thing, but I consider this to be a little like confessing things to your best friend.
I noticed my submissive side a long time ago, when I was very young and started to watch porn. Of course it was all about titties and such, but I really enjoyed scenes where the women were dominant. It was years later, I was probably 21 or 22 when I encountered my first cuckold scene. It wasn't love at first sight, but I'm quite sure it planted a seed which is now in it's full blossom. Back then I was with my first girlfriend. I was a virgin and she was the first girl I ever had any kind of physical encounters, except kissing. We didn't have very good relationship. I was really pussywhipped and really wasn't ready for it. Sex was great when it lasted more than 30 seconds. Looking back now I think she would have been a god candidate for cuckolding me. Always horny, laughing at my premature cummings and my smallish cock. But my ego was always on the way.
Now with my present girlfriend, my spouse, the love of my life, who I'm living with and still spending the best time of my life after four and a half years, I have become the biggest 'wannabe' cuckold ever. Shes very mellow and easy going as myself, but she's not as horny as me and is always happy with 'normal' sex. So I've been for two years kept all my fantasies in my head and they have been driving me crazy. Instead of talking about taking other people into our sex life, I've been introducing her to orgasm control and chastity. So I've been under her control now for almost a year. We don't have very strict rules about chastity, but there are no un-allowed orgasms on her watch. It's been somewhat, actually really, pleasing and wonderful to see her take a little more dominant role in our relationship, be it baby steps.
But no, that's not enough for the dirty mind of mine. I need to see her get fucked as the dirty slut she really is. And I want her to really rub it in my face, humiliate me as the low worthy cuckold I am, and take the seed of other men as often as possible. And so on.
So, few weeks ago she started to caress my cock while we watched TV and I said yet again "How sexy it would be if you would do this to another man" and she said "No, I couldn't do that" once again. But I insisted on going on. I just asked if she had fantasized about other men, perhaps some good looking guy in a bar or in a coffee shop. So she told she hasn't done it in a long time and told me that she could try doing it again. She had been very comfortable just being with me and couldn't get passed the thought that it would hurt me and she couldn't be mean to me. I noticed me time had come so I really encouraged her to try again, just to fantasize about former lover or any attractive guy or guys.
We have also started a Mistress/Slave relationship/game. I don't know the real terms. But we bought a riding crop for her and a penis collar for me. She is becoming a bit more dominant day by day, tying my balls tight and whipping them and my cock. She is not used to being cruel to me, but now she is really crushing my male ego with these small comments about my cock size and my premature cummings, which have been troubling for the last year. Be it from us having less sex or orgasm control, but now it's really getting in my head and I'm really thinking that I really can't please her, though we have had at least three years of wonderful sex. Or was it really that good. It's fantastic how she is messing with me. Although it doesn't come naturally from her but she's getting there.
Oh, I forgot to mention that we bought the aneros mgx and started prostate milking. Next step is to buy a strapon for both of us. We have been looking for perfect dildo to substitute my cock and a strapon harness that I could wear when in chastity. That would mean no pussy for me anymore, only handjobs and blowjobs on special occasions. Of course I get my ass fucked whenever she want's to do it.
So I'm quite happy right now and becoming more an more submissive and more and more humiliated. These things change us and our relationship so I think in the long run taking small steps is better for us to adjust into new situations and roles. Who knows, maybe I'm the one who would get cold feet when facing the real deal. And I really don't want to mess our relationship and lose the respect of my spouse. So I'm really looking forward what the future will bring for us. I do really hope she gets excited about other men again and would finally cuckold me.
I've been really enjoying reading various topics and comments. It really has made me think more about cuckolding and prepare me for things that we possible will face. One day I will show this forum to my gf and I hope she will enjoy it as much as I have and will. Hope I will get to know some of you here and hopefully share experiences some day.
BR,
smalldick84
