complicated
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So I thought I'd post what is going on and see if anyone has an opinion....
I was married to a 30 yr old woman (see:Is she Black Cock worthy in forum for pic). She was 25 when we married I was 37. I'm fit, good looking and have an average cock, I can also say that I never was interested in "cleaning up or blowing a black guy" but that I have always fantasized about my partner getting balled by a thick black rod and having a mouthful of cum dribble around her lips and chin. I wanted them to be satisfied more than me in lovemaking.
We had an okay sex life, I say okay because she wasn't really good at sex, but she tried and I enjoyed making her cum. Think a toothy blowjob or bad rythym...hey it happens. She is from the South and slightly conservative in bed but also once you got her going she could be obligate into trying a few pumps this way or that.
During lovemaking I would fantasize about her taking a black cock in place of mine or even wearing a black condom to get better visual. We never talked about her actually taking on a black man let alone two. We just didn't have that kind of relationship.
Sex became boring pretty quickly and she gained a little weight (I like them thin and small breasted) but I got her a vibrator and then a pocket rocket and would make her use it on her clit when we fucked or when I fucked her ass which was probably 3 times total. Though now that I think of it she did say "cum in my ass" that first time. Not sure if she was trying to please me (it did!) or if she was finally being uninhibited.
Anyway, marriage can be a drain and our sex life suffered but I tried to spice it up by buying lingerie and an 8" black cock from the net. I told her the BBC came as a free gift and we should just try it. I didn't power it but I was very excited to see her in high heels, stockings, a black blindfold and that black cock in her even if it was rubber.
She played along, not totally into it and when I brought out the BBC she let me slide it in her wet often creamy pussy while I would lick her clit. I'm guessing she took maybe 3" tops and it didn't do much for her. This is probably the only way I'd get close to a real black cock....sucking clit or eating ass while he pounds away.
In the end, she gained more weight 5'5 135-140#, I became less interested and just joined sites like this or another online sex video game site where you can make models and build scenarios.
Well, we're getting divorced due to lack of intimacy among a bunch of other stuff but I don't want to make the same mistake in my next relationship.
I'll always wonder if I should have just come clean and said I want to see you have sex with 1 or 2 black men at once while I kissed her or spread her ass etc. I live in the East Bay of SF and there are thugs all over the place that I bet would have stretched her ass the way I thought it should have been.
Again she was very sensitive and conservative in lots of ways but sexual too even if, as I said she wasn't too good at it.
My question to you all very experienced cuckold-ers is how to get my feelings out in the open early on in my next relationship without scaring off the lady? I'm not going to change what I like but I will bury it for the sake of being with another woman. One bonus is our community is very open minded and race isn't such a big deal here so the white chicks might now object as much as in other parts of the country, especially the South.
Thanks for reading if you got this far and I appreciate your advice.
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Allen
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I have seen posts from others here where the ex wife now knowing that her then husband wanted her to cuckold him, she now has a bf or is remarried and sometimes indulges her ex with a post marriage cuckolding.
If she does come around to you again...great. If not, maybe that post marriage cuckolding?
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