Remembering My Life As A Cuck

I've been posting in the sissy forum where I have talked about acting out my fantasies. I 've already talked about how I used to think I was well hung and could satisfy women, but have now realized what a small useless dick I have. I've talked about how my wife quit having sex with me 2 years ago and now I am lucky if I get a handjob once a month.

I'd like to write about some of my other past cuck experiences. I was too naive to realize what a turn on it was when I was younger. I never thought to encourage the behavior or make it a part of our sex play.

My first girlfriend was very adventurous and sexual. It was first love for both of us. A had bright red hair, and a big smile and the cutest little tits. We did "everything but" for a long time until we finally started trying brief penetration, then pulling out before coming. Wonderful ***.

A never cucked me, but we came close. This was the late 60s early 70s and free love was in the air. One time we met an older guy who wanted to photograph her. She spent a day with him and he took some topless, and maybe nude (I can't remember) pics. She told me they shared some great pot and he wanted to have sex with her, but she just let him make out and feel her up before she made him stop. She asked me if I was jealous. I don't know why but I wasn't, I was turned on. I just recently found some old letters from her and found a letter she wrote me when I was on family vacation. She had gotten stoned with my best friend and she was really horny. She said she wanted to do him and kissed him, but he chickened out. I foolishly left her for another girl.

B was very long and thin, smaller tits than A. B's were more like mounds with nipples. B was not as adventurous as A. A would suck me off and swallow. I came in B's mouth once, and she never wanted to blow me again. But she was on the pill so I got to really fuck for the first time.

This is where I should have realized what a useless small dick I have. I was way to conceited for that. B wanted me to fuck her fast and hard. But when I tried that my dick would always pop out. It wasn't long enough for full fast strokes. So I fucked slowly and came quickly. She would ask me "is it in?" and "are you finished, already?" As I was just learning I didn't know that this was not normal. She would play with her clit while I was fucking her. I thought this was sexy. It was also her way of saying I wasn't doing it for her. But I was blind at the time.

We had a long on and off relationship. Sometimes she would say she wanted to be celibate for a while. So we were still together, but didn't have sex. Then she told me she had slept with one of our friends. I was jealous, but I loved her and I believed in free love, nobody owns another permister. We went on a camping trip with a bunch of friends and stayed in a cabin. People were starting to go to bed, there was a big room with three beds and a fireplace and a kitchen. I claimed the double bed and got in thinking B would soon follow. She got in bed with my friend, only he got in first and she second. This was not a king or queen bed, it was a double. I was pressed against the cold wall and they started kissing and fondling. I tried to reach over my buddy and cop a feel of my girlfriend but she shrank from my touch. I turned my back to them and faced the wall and whimpered while they fucked as the rest of my friends listened.

We never talked about that night. We stayed together and he got an other girlfriend. We were on and off for years with more adventures. I don't have time now, but hope to continue if people are interested.

love to hear more!
joguy

B looked a lot like this:
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We continued on and off for years. We wanted to move to the country and homestead. Total back to the garden thing. We arranged a 3 week trip visiting communal farms. This is still the early 70s. Things were going good and I was looking forward to traveling around and spending every night sharing a relaxing bag.

Right before we left she announced that she wanted to be celibate for a while. In other words we would share the relaxing bag but no sex. I remember having constant blueballs. I don't remember sneaking behind a tree to jerk off, but I probably did. Every night, and every morning I tried to change her mind, but she kept her legs closed My throbbing problem did not concern her in the least. One night in the middle of the trip she rolled over mounted me, we fucked, then she went back to her closed legs.

I do remember one night I couldn't stand it any more and when I thought she was arelax I started beating off as quietly as possible. She seemed to stay arelax and I reached over and felt a nipple. She did not wake up as blew a massive built up load. At least she pretended to be arelax, I don't she how she could have been.

Amazingly we stayed together despite setting off for different colleges and towns. When we were apart we wrote constantly declaring our everlasting love. When we were together she would quickly lose interest in sex. At least in sex with me and my small cock. She would tell me about her other lovers, but she never told me what I now know to be true. I have a small cock, and could not satisfy her.

We finally moved to the same town as her and we started to live together. She had asked me to move in but when I got there she told me she had another lover in the next town she would be staying with on the weekends. She quickly stopped having sex with me, saving her self for him. I spent the weekends sniffing her dirty panties and jerking off, dreaming of the spunky panties I would get on monday.

After a while I moved out and got a new girlfriend. C looked a lot like this lady:
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Sorry about the links, only way I can do the pics.

C was very sexual. The opposite of B. She also had other boyfriends. 2 others. She had us all on a schedule. She loved for me to eat her pussy for hours, and I loved eating her snatch. Sometimes she would stop at my place and say I only have a few minutes. We would do a quick fuck and she would be gone. My favorite memories is of this one night she ***d me in the most delightful way. I had teased her clit to a gushing orgasm. She got on top and started riding me until she came again. She stopped moving and asked me if I had cum? No. She said oh, rolled off of me and went to relax leaving me with a raging hardon.

Of course B got jealous and we got back together again. I moved away and a few months later she followed me to the new town. Some of my best cuck memories are from those days.

thank you for sharing your lovely memories....you are a lucky man....

i've shared one of my recent experiences...i'm not a cuck...or at least i don't think so...probably not, knowing my wife...although one of my most exquisite moments came a couple of years ago...my wife was uncharacteristically letting me be sexual with her...she had just come home from work...she's a bitchy very pretty nyc attorney....she was sitting on top of me, kind of dry humping me with her black pantyhose on...no panties underneath....although i'd managed to undo her little bra, she held her arms over them to keep me from seeing them....(she's got tiny exquisite little breasts i crave each and every moment of my life)....i was so hot for her...and she was so hot that moment, i couldn't help but blurt out: tell me...tell me please...who are you fucking? who do you let fuck you?....she smirked at me and said, "I'll never tell"....i came instantly all over myself and her pantyhose....she acted disgusted with me...and slapped me and then got off me....i love that memory....and it does kind of summarize how she is with me, oh, every six months or so, when she lets me be sexual with her....she hasn't let me make love to her for real in ages....at least a couple of years....but i love her and crave her...probably all the more because of it....

here's another, odd thing that happened to me recently, if you're interested...

https://www.cuckoldplace.com/12_18659_0.html

Great job acting out and humiliating yourself.

These stories here, I have had a lot of these soft cuck experiences, are building for this story I have already posted.

https://www.cuckoldplace.com/28_18274_0.html

Like you I have found the need to share my frustration and be publicly humiliated.

thank you for this...i responded to your other post....thank you....

that is an interesting post would love to chat sometime

mwm...which one?....not that it matters...of course i would chat with [email protected]

u have mail

not sure what you mean...

guess that means i don't?

i sent u my yahoo id

I hope some people are enjoying these because I have a few more stories.

A few years and half a dozen girl friends later I met D. It was at a music camp. We had both stayed up late listening to the last jam sessions. We had barely talked, but as people were packing up and getting ready for bed we looked at each other and started kissing. We moved quickly outside into the shadows.

She had a fantastic body with large breasts and wide hips. A lot like the women in this link:
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I did not have long to admire her body. Soon I was laying on the ground, D on top of riding my tiny cock. I took one of her nipples in my mouth and shot my load inside her. She did not seem disappointed, and I was convinced I was a big stud.

Camp was over the next day. We lived about 3 hours apart. We exchanged address and promises to keep in touch. A few weeks later she came up to visit me for a weekend. We had lots of sex, but it was clear she was not achieving orgasms. I spent lots of town eating her pussy, but I was not finding the spot. Still it was a fun weekend, especially for me, since I had no trouble filling her cunt with spunk between muff diving sessions.

We made plans for me, and my friend Joe, to come down a few week later to go hear some music and stay with her. Joe would bring his relaxing bag and relax on the couch. The first night was kind of weird. I was expecting a night filled with sex as we had not seen each other for weeks. We got in bed naked and started to make out. I was sucking on her tits and trying to get my hand between her legs and humping her thigh with my little boner. She said she was ready to go relax. Damn! She was talking about the importance of being able to be friends that sometimes slept together with out sex. I couldn't get anything started in the morning either.

At breakfast she informed us that she could not join us at the concert, she had a dinner meeting. She went to work, Joe and I went sightseeing, and then the concert.

When we got back from the concert we were standing inside the apartment door. The sitting room and kitchen were dark so I opened the bedroom door, which was right in front of us. There was D on her back with some guy pounding her pussy. Joe and I stood there in shock, the guy looked over his shoulder at us. D calmly said "didn't you read the note on the door?" I closed the door, Joe and I read the note "I put a relaxing bag on the sitting room floor for you to relax in tonight".

Joe slept on the couch, I slept on the floor, and we listened to D achieve those orgasms I was unable to give her. The four of us shared a civil breakfast the next morning. She was radiantly flushed from her morning fuck, sitting at the table in her gaping robe.