I need help convincing my wife to have a bull.we are 1hr albany NY

I know that I am lacking a alpha male prowess and the hardware that comes with it. She is devoted to our marriage and will not entertain even the suggestion that she have sex with another man. I know that she is not satisfied with our love making and she pretends to have massive orgasms to protect me from feeling inadequate and self conscious.
I truly love her for that dedication to our marriage and our love.
But it pains me to see her try to not enjoy the feeling of the massive inflatable black dildo when we play with it. Her mouth and heart tell me one thing but her body craves every quivering thrust of that huge black phallus.
I need some suggestion of how I can get this to happen!!!!
Someone here who lives in the area could offer some advice.
Thank you in advance:shame: