Hello,
I want to preface this by stating that I am fairly high right now, so I am more willing to open up and be honest. I have been lerking on these forums for years, ever since the girl I lost my virginity too started flirting with another guy, and when I called he out on it, she broke up with me, blaming me for being jealous and stating that I acted like a little girl, kind of like when she first started dating. This and other instances with her is mostly how I attribute becoming interested in the cuckold community. This happened towards the end of freshman year while I was at my University. That was Fall of 2006. 10 years later and I am wearing panties while typing this story, and me girlfriend is a***** on the couch in our little apartment in Seattle.
Let's call her V (no relation to her real name). Princess V does not know necessarily that I am in panties right now typing this up. However she is aware of my fetishes, though I have not done the best job of respecting her boundaries towards it. (I can go more into this later).
She has recently brought up that she wants to see/date other men, mostly because she misses flirting. This has made me aroused beyond belief the past few days. The discussions have been around what she wants instead of around my fantasy or what I want. This is exactly how I should have brought it up before, and wish I could kick myself for not attempting to talk about it in this perspective before.
At any rate, the reality is not 100% in-line with fantasy, but I will take what I can get
She actually wants to try with a guy that might have a smaller penis then me, because she wants to see if it is more enjoyable. She also isn't apposed to ******** with someone slightly bigger, it just depends on the random draw of the population. I wish she would ***** with a guy that is at least 7 inches (i'm 5.5 myself). We have been talking about her setting up an on-line dating profile (I actually have permission to do the same). However she would feel more comfortable meeting a guy in person to see how they click.
Tonight we planned on trying to have her sit at a bar with me there watching in the distance. We didn't get there, but it was fun talking and planning about it. I could use advice here on how best to move forward, I don't want to pressure her into anything she doesn't want. I have made it clear that this has been making me aroused.
I will be jerking off tonight on a web cam to a women that I will pay to make fun of my cock, while she is a***** on the couch in the same room. Here is a picture of me in my panties:
