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Part 9
I'm at work, getting my morning coffee, reflecting on the past few weeks. It seems a bit foggy how I ended up in this situation. Every night I thought I had lived through the worst possible embarrassment, only to be proved wrong the next. But I really think I found the bottom last night.
My best friend Paul's cock was on my face while I jerked off in front of my mom. His balls rested on my mouth. His shaft was so big. I still can't believe it. I don't know what this means between me and Paul. Things will be awkward for now on. I saw my mom stroke his cock. And tell me how big it is compared to my own.
And he heard me admit it to my mom that I agreed. He just smiled and said he was here to help. That he heard I was having marital problems and just wanted to be a there for me. Paul is a good friend, I know he was manipulated by mom into doing it, and he really did think he was helping.
Then I practically begged Paul to fuck my wife. That's what my mom wanted me to do. That was the only way I could convince her I was ready to see Suzy again. She had me kiss Paul's ball-sack to show I was serious. I gave it a quick peck. Nothing gay, just an act to show how much I was willing to do to get Suzy. I am excited to see her again. I think it might be for real this time. I haven't been able to cum in a while. Maybe she will let me inside her again.
But that is wishful thinking. I'd be happy just to cum with her permission, without getting into anymore trouble. And to be able to go back to my own home. But I do love her ass, and her tits. I wish I could see them again. And her lips. I want to feel her kiss with those luscious lips.
I have an image of her lips around a big hard dick. One like Paul's. I remember one of the pictures my mom showed me reminded me of her. I keep that imagine in mind while I ***** my coffee. Time to get the day started. How can I do any work with this on my mind? I keep thinking about that big hard cock, and my wife's juicy lips kissing the tip of it. Then I imagine her sucking Paul's balls and licking the shaft. Wait, am I thinking of my wife sucking Paul's dick? The brain is weird, I don't know how I should feel about that.
I have come to appreciate a big dick. I have been jacking off to pictures of big dicks recently. Not allowed to cum, but just allowed to tease myself until I get close, then made to stop. I guess I have penis envy. I imagine what it would be like to have one of those nice big cocks that girls want to play with. I even felt one on my face, and was excited to feel how big and powerful it was. I don't think I'm gay. I just appreciate nice big dicks.
I'm starting to get hard. This isn't good. I'm at my work desk, so I'm safe for now. But I'm pitching a tent and it's hard for me to get Paul's big dick off my mind with my wife's lips around it. And I am a bit surprised I am hard, but I haven't cum in a while so it doesn't take much. I think it is just all of those magazines my mom had me reading. Lots of big dicks getting sucked on by pretty mouths. What the fuck has happened to me?
Mike comes by to tell me I need to go to a meeting last minute. Mike and I use to be friends. He is a little younger than me, and I was kind of his mentor when he first started. Mike has been promoted as my manager. He is kind of an asshole now. To be honest I am pretty pissed he was promoted over me. And why didn't he tell me about this god damn meeting sooner. Now I have to get rid of this hard on fast.
He tells me to hurry up. He is waiting. I don't know what to do, so I stand up. He starts to laugh. It's pretty noticeable that I have wood. I try to hide it with my laptop, but he tells Jack to come over, and have me move it. They both start laughing. I can't believe this ****. Mike tells me never mind about the meeting, he doesn't want me embarrassing him in front of his superiors.
What a fucking day. Time to go home. I am not sure what is in store for me, but I hope I get to see my wife. I see Cerie the hot secretary in the elevator on the way out. She smiles at me and tries to hide a giggle. What is so funny? Did Mike tell her about my incident earlier? They are always flirting with each other. She is really hot and young, and she is in a little mini skirt today. God I want to fuck her so bad. She makes my dick so hard. I bet Mike has fucked her. I bet Mike has a big dick.
I wonder if Mike could tell how small I am through my pants earlier today. I wonder if that is what she is laughing at. Or maybe she is laughing just because I am loser. I am starting to get red with embarrassment.
"Good night little man" she says playfully as we exit the elevator. Little man? What?! Mike did tell her about my small dick. She notices my stunned reaction, and says "Oh it must be true!" and starts laughing. "Aw I'm sorry, I hope I didn't hurt your feelings."
"Haha, no no it's okay" I didn't know what to say. So I pretended to be cool with the 'joke'. "Yup I got a pretty small dick." She starts laughing at me again.
"Okay, see you tomorrow weirdo." She says as she walks away, still laughing. I can't believe it. I am so embarrassed, but it felt good saying it out-loud. And my mom has helped me come to accept it is true. I am still trying to figure out what that means and who I am. I always kind of thought I was average, maybe on the shorter side. But after seeing Paul's cock compared next to mine, it is obvious.
Maybe I should be mad at my mom for doing this to me. But telling the secretary just now about how small I am made me feel free. I know she was laughing at me, but that is okay, that is my place in this world. To be the punch line of a joke. I am still loved. Maybe not respected. But loved. And I should be thankful for that and do whatever it takes to make my wife happy in return. And I am glad my mom has helped me realize this before I lost Suzy for ever.
Back home. I show my mom my cock and balls as is our routine now. My balls are still full of cum. I pass the inspection, though not without getting hard. It happens sometimes just by having her look at it. It makes me feel pathetic. Still trying to process what happened today at work.
I thought about my wife sucking Paul's cock. I got hard. Mike noticed. Mike told Jack. Mike told Cerie. Cerie joked about me having a small dick. I told Cerie I have a small dick. Why did I do that? Fuck.
I am a good boy all evening. I clean the dishes and do all of the chores. Mom insisted on me wearing a french maid outfit while doing it. Where did it come from? Did she go buy it just for this?
She had me put on lipstick. She wanted me to do this to prove I was ready to see Suzy again. That I would do anything. Including dressing up in women's lingerie and wearing lipstick. It was bright red. I had on a puffy skirt, stockings and a red thong. I had trouble walking around in the high heels she made me wear.
I cleaned and scrubbed everything. I got on my hands and knees and scrubbed the floor making it look perfect for mom. Starting to put what happened at work behind me. After what is happening now I don't think that it matters anymore. I am getting excited to see Suzy. Mom says if I do a good job I get to see her.
I am cleaning the toilet wearing those gross yellow gloves. A car pulls up into the driveway. Mom has me come to the living room and sit on the floor. She has me take off my cleaning gloves and has me put on dainty white lace gloves.
She instructs me to not say anything for the rest of the night. That this is my final test. And if I pass I get to go home. If I fail, then I lose Suzy forever. I have to sit here on the floor. Even though I am excited to see Suzy again, I am not aloud to talk to her unless she talks to me first.
Mom says I need to just watch tonight and accept what is happening and reflect on my place in this world. What the fuck is going on? I am already wearing lipstick, so I must be okay with this. My little dick really wants attention. It is throbbing.
I must be excited. Or is it just because I haven't came in so long? I don't know why I am so hard. Is it because my mom has made me so pathetic? Or because I like being under her control. I feel vulnerable. I think I am excited because I have a small dick and my mom knows it because she has seen it and she thinks it's funny. I ask if I can rub myself just a little. Sometimes mom lets me.
Not tonight. I am to keep my hands where they can be seen at all times. No one including me should be interested in what is between my legs tonight.
Suzy walks in. She doesn't look at me. Instead she gives my mom a hug and thanks her for inviting her over. Suzy is wearing a sexy black dress. She looks like she has been at a nightclub. It is Friday, and it is pretty late. I didn't really think too much about what she has been doing all this time. She didn't use to dress like that.
I really want to go give her a hug. And tell her how much I love her and how I much I miss her. But I know that would make me fail the test, and I would lose her forever.
Paul walks in. I didn't know Paul was coming. What is he doing here? Fuck I don't want him to see me like this. I stare down at the floor intensely. I hope he doesn't recognize me. Maybe if I don't move he won't see me. Of course he sees me. Why am I so embarrassed, he has already had his cock on my face. There is so much to process right now.
No one acknowledges me. This gives me time to think. They make *****s. My wife glances over in my direction and I smile at her, trying to get her attention, but her gaze just passes me. I am sitting on my knees. My skirt is laying around me as it touches the ground. My cock is really hard. But no one can even tell do to how puffy the skirt is and how small my cock is.
They talk about their day. They talk about their weekend plans. Suzy is planning on going to the beach with Paul tomorrow. I wish I could talk to Suzy and tell her how much I missed her and how much I love her and want to please her. But I know I have to pass this test or I will lose her.
I am getting tired of just sitting here. I wish I could lay down. I don't know why no one is talking to me. Suzy hasn't seen me in so long. Doesn't she love me?
I am staring and trying to hear what is going on. Mom notices me and walks over. I look up at her with a pleading face. She snaps her fingers and points down. I know what she wants. I look down at the floor. I have to be good and follow all of her directions or I might fail the test.
I hear Paul and Suzy flirt. I wish Suzy would stop talking to him and come talk to her husband. I wish she would flirt with me like that. I wish I could look up and see Suzy's beautiful face. But I have to keep my head down.
Mom starts to talk to me. "When I was with your ******, I also trained him. You didn't get much from him, but you definitely got his small dick. I took it slow. I spent years turning him into my little bitch. But when it came down to it, he didn't have what it takes to make me happy so I kicked him out."
That's why I grow up without a ******? Because he couldn't take her training?
Mom continues. "I felt like I wasted years of my life training him. I don't want that to happen to you and Suzy. So tonight we are going to see if you have what it takes to make Suzy happy. Keep your head down until I say otherwise."
Mom is pacing in front of me, I see her feet in my peripheral vision. She is wearing red high heels. I think about her using them to step on my tiny dick. I would deserve it.
I hear kissing. Is Paul kissing my wife? That ****** fucker. I hear more kissing, but this time the sound of kisses on flesh. He must be kissing her neck. I hear the sounds of clothes coming off and hitting the floor. I hear the sound of his hand caressing her body. I hear Suzy moan. A sound I had forgotten.
What is happening? I should look up and see. Maybe just a quick glance. Paul is my best friend, he wouldn't do anything with Suzy. I must be making things up. I hear the jangle of a belt buckle being undone. I hear the sound of a zipper being pulled down. Oh my god!
I look up just for an instant. I see Suzy's lips wrapped around the tip of Paul's cock. Paul's cock is only halfway hard but is already bigger than me. I see Suzy's tongue swirl around it. She is also stroking his shaft. Paul has Suzy's hair in his hand, as he guides her head. I am stunned by what I am seeing. Suzy is being such a slut for him. She looks like she is enjoying it. She is getting slobber all of his cock. She licks it from the base to the tip of Paul's mushroom head. Paul has a nice big thick cock. It looks so good covered in Suzy's spit. Suzy starts to kiss the head and swirl her tongue again. She starts to kiss around the head, and stroke Paul nice and slowly. She looks up at Paul and smiles. She then puts Paul's balls into her mouth.
I feel a sharp slap across my face. I got careless and watched for too long! I fucked everything up!
Mom noticed I was looking up. She snaps her fingers again and points to the ground. I look down. I hope I didn't fuck everything up. She tells me this is my second warning and I don't want to find out what will happen if I disobey her again. She decides that to be safe I should put my nose to the ground and that it needs to be touching the ground at all times until she says otherwise.
I hear slurping sounds. I imagine Suzy is slobbering all over Paul's cock. I hear "oh yeah" come from Paul. "Suck that dick."
I hear Suzy say "Do you like that baby? Do you like it when I am a slut for you?"
What is happening?! Why am I not stopping this? Why do I just keep my nose on the ground like a fucking pussy while another man has his dick in my wife's mouth? Has Suzy done this before with him?
Paul says "Yeah suck that big dick you dirty slut. Put my balls in your mouth"
Paul does have a big dick. Maybe that is why I am haven't tried to stop this yet, because I know Suzy deserves it. But to hear her talk to him like that hurts. I am just having a hard time accepting that she doesn't want to do that kind of thing with me. And she is moaning while she is sucking him off. I bet that feels good. I haven't cum in so long. My penis is aching.
"You are so much bigger than my husband." Suzy says. "I love sucking on it, it makes me so wet."
She knows I am here! But she is talking about me like I am not.
"I bet I am at least twice the size of his little pecker" He says laughing, knowing full well that he is three times bigger than me, as mom had compared us before.
Suzy says "I bet you are right. Hunny, how big is your little dick?"
She is talking to me! I want to say so many things! But I know I better just answer the question. I say it out loud, and everyone starts to laugh. Including mom.
Slurping sounds again. Back to being ignored. I wish I could watch.
Mom starts to narrate what is happening. "Suzy is stroking Paul's dick. Paul has a big dick that can make Suzy happy. That is why she is sucking his dick and not yours. Suzy is licking Paul's balls. Suzy has never done that for you before has she?"
"No ma'am" I reply.
"Boy, you need to realize that this is your life now. Men like Paul are going to use your wife to cum. They are going to do it right in front of you. And you are going to watch, if Suzy wants. Or she might just make you listen to her get fucked while you are sent to your corner. Do you understand your place?"
I hesitate. "Yes ma'am". That seems like the response she wants to hear from me. I just don't want to get in anymore trouble.
"I don't think you know just yet. Stand up. Keep your eyes closed."
I do what I am told. I stand up. I wobble a little as I am still in high heels.
"Walk."
I start to walk forward.
"Stop. Just stand right there for a while"
I don't really know what is going on. I hear the sounds of Suzy moaning. It is much harder to stand then to sit, especially in high heels. I wish I could sit down again. My legs are getting tired. I am so pathetic.
"Paul is fucking Suzy right now." Mom continues to narrate. "Suzy is on her hands and knees. Paul has her hair in his hand. He is pounding her hard. Suzy really likes it. She likes being fucked by a man. Now get on your hands and knees."
I do as I am told. "Crawl towards the sound of your wife getting fucked."
I start crawling in the direction I think they are in, until Mom tells me to stop.
The pounding is getting faster and faster. "Suzy is cumming on Paul's dick. Paul is holding her down by her waist because she likes the way it makes her feel like a slut. Your wife just came on a real man's dick. Have you ever made her do that?"
"No ma'am"
"Open your mouth."
I get hesitant with this last command. Open my mouth? This can't end well for me. But I have come this far, so I do it.
"Good." Mom says. "Now Suzy is going to put Paul's cock in your mouth, and you are going to suck it."
What the fuck?
"This is it honey, this is the last test" Suzy says to me. "Do this and you get to come home. Show me how much you love me. I love you but I need you to know your place in my life. You belong to me. You are my bitch now. That is the way it has to be. Once home you will continue this role. When you are at home you where this outfit. When you are at work, you still wear panties, but you can hide your shame in your pretend man clothes. You will not get to cum unless I say so. This is the most important rule. Because you are not going to get to cum tonight. But Paul is.
You won't get to cum tomorrow either. But Paul will. In fact I am going to blow him tomorrow at the beach and swallow all of his cum, and you are going to be at home cleaning, wearing your outfit. Are you ready for your new life sweety?"
"Yes ma'am" I didn't have to think about it. This is the most Suzy has said to me in a while. I am so happy to have her talk to me. And I am excited to be able to go back home.
I feel Paul's cock head on my tongue. I still have my eyes closed. This is it. I'm going to suck my best friend's cock so that I can get my life back. I close my mouth around his dick. I feel his dick touching my lips and inside my mouth. I pull back until my mouth is just around the very tip. I give it a kiss. I have already kissed his balls, so why not his dick? I swirl my tongue around his head, like I saw Suzy do earlier. I kiss it again.
I can't believe I am doing this. "That's a good boy" mom says. "Great job sweetie" says Suzy. I take more of him in my mouth. And then back out. I feel his shaft slide along my tongue. I go back down again, a little further. I feel Paul's strong hands on the back of my head.
Paul's cock smells like sweat. It must have Suzy's juices all over it. I imagine that this is what Suzy's pussy tastes like. I continue to suck his dick. Taking it in my mouth as much as I can, and then back out. I try to use my tongue as much as possible.
Mom places my left hand on Paul's shaft. "Get into it. Make him cum."
"Yeah sweetheart, make Paul cum. Let him cum in your mouth and all over your face. Your doing so good!"
I like making Suzy happy. So I use my left hand and stroke Paul. I push Paul's cock as far in my mouth as I can, and then meet it with my hand. I start to suck and stroke in sync.
"That's a good cocksucker. You are a natural" Mom says.
I am just doing it like all of the times I have seen it done in porn. Or how I wish Suzy would do it to me. I kiss Paul's balls while stroking it. I bury my face in his balls, and lick them all over. I want to impress Suzy and Mom. I want to make Suzy happy and to take me home.
Paul takes his cock from me. Mom says to open my eyes. I do. I see Paul standing over me stroking his cock inches from my face. I see Suzy hanging around his arm kissing his neck and encouraging him to cum.
"That's it baby, cum all over my husband's face. Show him his place."