My Beginning

[i][/i]Hi I have been asked by a few here to give a history of my infidelities..My history as a cuckoldress so to speak..
I was married to my high school sweet heart at 18..We had 3 kids over 5 years.Sa the years progressed he found out I had had sex with a black football player when I was 17It It worked on his mind,he had a good job in the mills,but he became morose ,sullen then started beating me,which I accepted ( i thought I deserved it.We were engaged not married when it happened).When he started in on my kids,I had enough and fled to California..Tough times till I met Billy,my current husband.I worked for him at his beer bar..We lived together for over a year then got married. Neither of us loved each other but were great friends..It was great for awhile,kids love him but except for him performing oral on me in the bedroom was a flop.He just was to small and anxious for me.A minute man..We went on like this for a few years,kids football,school,basketball,you know..I had settled down to never having adequate sex..Billy worked in printing ,worked evening shift..Then they let him try at sales,he did pretty good..He moved to another place made a lot more money but was gone a lot,To places Like Detroit,New York and Chigago.One time close to christmas. I went to a party with my G/F got a little ***** had a good time.One of Billy's friends was there,we ended up talking ,flirting having a good time,My G/F stopped by and said lets go,the friend asked "hey if you dont want to leave I will take you home" My G/F said ok,Linda you OK?..So he and I (tom is his name) stayed around, I said I got to go the sitter will need to go home.We left went home let the sitter go.I checked on the kids.We started ******** and telling off color jokes and stories,we danced a bit then started making out.Tom left after a bit,no sex.Called me next day asked if I wanted to go to lunch.I said ok then said look kids will be home soon why dont you pick up some burgers and we will eat her.He did and we were eating and talking about what happened..He said if you want to continue what was started he would come back after the kids went to bed.If I didnt want to go further I should call him and say so.All day I thought about it.What the hell just some making out a little feel here and there.I was married BUT SO HORNY.Well he came over and the kissing progressed to sex in my and Billy's bed.Three times OMG it was so great he left at 5am.No ***** for either of us,I had so many climaxes IO couldnt believe it, lot of pillow biting..I liked it so much we had the affair for a few years till he moved away..[imgs=https://www.cuckoldplace.com/img/!pix.gif][/imgs]

7 months later I met Michael,for those following me,he was the ****** of my 10 year old who has repeatedly taken me to court repeatedly and recently tried to intimidate me phisically..But at the time it wasnt like that.He was a serious masculine black man, a thorasic surgeon..Met him at a real estate office,I worked part time there as a photographer..He was selling his condo..I took pics of it and a video,he took me to lunch.We started dating after a week or so,he was married.When I was next to him his cologne was so so so elusive so masculine.When he touched me it felt so thrilling so exciting..When we made love I came all most immediatly and didnt stop till he withdrew..I sometimes flopped around like a fish out of ********* I was in love..I needed him and still do in the recesses of my mind..He took me to xrated theaters and had me do terrible things,I couldnt say no.It was his idea to treat Billy like I did,Billy wasnt a man but a toy a tool..We were together all most every weekend for about 4 years,I got pregnant for him had a little boy,his wife couldnt conceive..When I had the baby he wanted custody,didnt want a woman like me to raise his **** couldnt give the baby up.so there it is..most of my story..

Me at 38

Michael

Billy and G/F

I've been waiting for this for a long time Linda! You at age 38 is about as Hot as it could ever get! When you compare what Billy has to offer against Michael's 'man sized' portion, it's small wonder that you chose to help yourself to a big portion of Michael's meat! Good girl!
Can't wait to hear some more. xx

Kenny,it wasnt just Michaels size which was nice,it was he was so confident so masculine.Loved touching,kissing him, it was likle I was in a sex trance..Any thing I mean anything he wanted I delivered,shared me,took me to glory holes,took Billy to them too.We went to a xrated theater all 3 of us..When a woman goes to those places all those perverts sit near you..He announced to them Billy was my husband but I was his woman..Billy is a big cuckold,look at that to this day I cant call him a man..DAMN. I thought Michael was going to leave his wife and we would be together forever..I was a fool..
I am not that big anymore worked at getting my weight down,most guys lioke bigger Linda,but not me size 3 now..

Life is so confusing during the days of our youth. I understand the marriage of convenience and the lack of great sex it produced. I guess not being in love made it easier for Billy to accept your infidelities. I still find it unusual that he wanted you to have sex with others and not wanting sex himself.

Sounds like Destiny did its finest work....you needed billy to relieve you of the ******** first marriage. Michael needed you to be his breeder. You needed Michael to fulfill you inner slut and make you the best ****** you could be!
Thanks for sharing the adventure!
Win some...
Lose some...
Few are rained out

i1212 Dont think I said Billy didnt want sex,It just not happening,he does preform oral on me,Its just that he isnt good at any thing but oral,what I feel for Billy now is a need for him to be with me,at one time I wanted to leave him,now cant imagine life without him..I guess its love,after all I have done to him.I am so ashamed..

Its never black or white issue,I didnt cut him off at once,After Michael came into my life,It became more and more apparent that Billy just couldnt compete.Michael didnt want me screwing Billy,didnt want Billy seeing me naked or touching me..It finally ended up Billy and I setting down and discussing our sex life.I told him that it was really a bit of a waste of time us screwing as he wasnt good at it and was really small.but that if he wanted too he could eat me if he wanted too..Now that he excells at..I saw that I really hurt him with that statement..I felt so bad about it but as time passed I was so into Michael I put into practise all his suggestions,Billy never screwed me,never saw me naked never touched me except when performing oral and then just my hips..

Do you people mind my venting in this manner,? I have a lot to get off my mind..try not to bore..

Tell us about how you came to castrate Billy?

No Linda we or at least I'm courious how people have gotten to where they are at in life. If you know and understand the past it makes the future more predictable and understandable.

Please continue Linda, we would love to be your sounding board.
I always love hearing about you and your fascinating life.......
Cuck who loves a creampie.

Do continue!

The x-rated theaters ah yes,have you guys been to any,Oh my they are filthy,but there use to be a big one not in pasadena but a city a few miles away.By this time Michael was the sole thing in my life ,I thought I was in love (maybe I was ) he was so dominant I did every thing I was told no questions asked.We went to this theater,Michael ,myself and Billy..He sat on the isle I was next to him and Billy was behind him,the seat behind Michael.I wore a black dress with spegette straps..No panties no bra.That was Michaels rule.Allmost guys sat around us.Micheal started playing with my boobs,I was really blushing but a bit turned on..He pulled my dress down telling everyone "like her Tits?"I was nuzzeling his neck.He then told the guys see this wimp behind me,he is her husband..He then pushed me down on that filthy floor,pulled his dick out and had me suck him.I guess a guy next to Billy was masterbating,Michael ordered Billy to suck him off..1st time in my life Billy sounded like he was whinning,couldnt really see or hear him as I was between Michaels thighs do my best to suck him off.This all took some time maybe 90 min then we left and went home..We got home and Michael took me into the bedroom.Billy followed.We got into it then,Michael had me as he directed Billy to put it in me..Must have gone at it for 30 or 40 min,I came allmost at once and a host of times later..Billy was pumping away at his tiny dick..All in all while ashamed as I was it turned me on..Any of you experienced similar things?

Linda, at that point Michael owned you, you were his married, white, fuck slut. Billy was already becoming the full on cuck he now is. I can understand how excited you must have been after you little show and suck in the theatre. Tell me about Michael making you fuck his friends etc.

Chris, about castrating Billy,you do know that is the single dumbest thing I ever did right,I hate my self for agreeing to do that..At this point in time my life is awesome I have a husband who adores me,a lover who addresses my sexual needs completly..
I was in a weird place at the time,I mean I was really getting into humiliating Billy,putting him down,its like you start out just a little and its funny no not that its a slippery slope we hear about,till its what you do.Michael started it off,ordering Billy,making fun of him belittling him..His idea to cage him, (the 6000 device).He started in on how castrating Billy would be better for him cutting down his angst about sex,relieving him of that emotional baggage,Billy's ****** and unkle had testicular cancer,so in a way doing him a favor..(Michael is a surgeon) I went along with it because I adored Michael..I was thinking of Billy like you would a family pet,so we did it..Now Billy wasnt aware what was about to happen,I had briefly talked to him about it in a vague way..We set about a date for the surgery,it was at night in Michael office,Billy believed it was a minor thing like a vascetomy,he had one years earlier but he was led to believe it was to correct some leakage..We did it.
Damn now that I look at this,now that I read what I just wrote,DAMN I cant believe what I did,fuck what a arrogant heartless bitch I am..

How has Billy reacted to his castration? Did it make him more docile for you or did it ruin his affection for you?

Billy has adapted,he didnt know at first,we had told him it a discovery mission,you know just looking around in there..After I told him,(didnt say it was a whim,but we found something) he was depressed.But shortly he recovered,which is amazing,if had my boobs removed ,oh lord I might **** myself..He gets a occasional erection,they were rare to begin with as he is a diabetic.He says it feels like a orgasm but no fluid or cum shoots out ..He is taking a steroid so theres that ,he works out..You know he is a really big man,6ft5 and 235 or so..Had a lot of guys be intimidated by him till they realize he is such a pussycat..Years ago when my ex husband came out to California to take me home and the kids, Billy convinced him to leave..Mt ex hubby never forgot that meeting,when I go home he allways asks is Billy here?

As to Kenny's question,It was in our second year together that Michael started exerting his control of me,Look I was really in love with him needed him got wet thinking of him and I being together..Couldnt wait till fridays till we went out .He by this time spent weekends with us,he kept a wardrobe in my room..
Billy watched and his little dick appeared to be as hard as I ever saw it,so I imagine he liked it..Micchael one friday called me told me to expect him about 7pm.When he arrived he said we were going to a party that I should wear something sexy and revealing.He took a shower and shaved.I dressed in a mini a latticed blouse and heels.no bra no panties (Michaels rule),We went to west LA for the party it was a mixed group of whites and Blacks.Mostly health care workers,it was thrown by his brother and a male cousin,we danced chatted and I got really high and kept touching Michael in a intimate manner,he was a little dismissive of me,pushing away my jestures of intimacies..He kept chatting with his brother and cousin,I was a bit frustrated wanted to go and make love..He said several times "relax baby we have time".The party broke up about 1 am,Michael took me to a back bedroom and we kissed he was very passionate.I was naked and he was still dressed,I said "come on Michael lets make love" he said "Linda I want you to do me a favor please" my brother and cousin are hot for you,will you do this favor for me?"What I said.."I want you to fuck my brother and cousin" he said..I said "what" "dont you want me"? He said "oh Yes baby,but just this once help me out PLEASE".Then his brother and cousin came in..The three of us made sweet sex till 9 the next morning and Michael watched...When we went home he tolded Billy what happened in great detail I might say.Billy was shocked I couldnt look at him.We,Michael and I went to bed and he had me in a extremly rough fashion and I loved it..

i would have loved to have met you years ago!

Maybe some Ladies here can back me up,There is something about a man the makes you cum over and over everytime he has you..Not sure now if it was love but at the time O.M.G. I thought so,waiting to here from him killed me,Waiting to be with him to feel him was ******* ,I would have done any thing he asked and he knew it..

I know that feeling Linda.
Loving Wife, Mother, and Bryan's Slut

Linda38DD and donna4blackuse, now there's a pair of Hot girls that would fulfil any real man's dream!

Works for me!

Might be fun,but now a days really pressed for time Kenny,soccer,basketball,baseball and football..Lil Mikey is into all that.Billy is coaching him except for soccer and baseball..The baby is motoring around and chasing the cat so he has to be watched. lever little guy figured how to open the gates on the second floor.I am gone most of the weekend with the B/F so its Billy doing most of the parenting,thank God for him..

Linda my friend, from the start, i always believed you loved Billy, have said so in im's and posts...good for you ... he is a good man.

Cuck 2 Not sure I know what love is,thought I loved Michael he rejected me,raped me caused a lot of pain..Of coarse he made love to me like no other man has then or now.Billy in bed flames out except for oral..But every thing else he excells at,protection,support and adoration.I am made to think I will allways want him around..

Linda, Billy is an excellent partner for you in every way except when it comes to fucking - he's bottom of the class at that, excepting for his oral skills! But his strength is in his ability to manage you fucking your studs and being happy with it. He know's you need something he can't supply and doesn't stand in your way when you go out and get it. Sounds to me like an ideal partnership, you get the best of both worlds!

Yes I know Kenny,I realize all of that.He is a dear and I am glad I have him..

I need Billy I know that now,been disappointed in some way by all the men in my life,(except my sons) but Billys failures are that he is a lousy lay and thats not his fault,I suppose its genetics. But he loves me..

You sound down, darling - wanna talk? You know where I am and you've got my email. xx