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TL;DR : What did you feel the first time you saw or you knew that the woman you love fucked another guy ?
ALSO I WILL POST TO TELL YOU HOW IT WENT WEDNESDAY NIGHT, TELLING YOU GUYS IF WE LIKED IT, AND PROBABLY WITH PICS OF HER GETTING READY
Why a post this long ? Well we really would like someone who was or is in a similar situation to share their experience with us or at least for somebody who really understand the situation we are in.
So first a little background :
We are both in our mid twenties and we have been together for 8 years. We are not married but it would not change a thing if we were. I was her first, she was my first. We are very much in love of each other and we both feel like that the bond uniting us is stronger than ever.
I have three main fantasies : her picking up a guy in a nightclub and fucking his brains out, me selecting guys for her on the internet and her "having" to fuck them and her being in a gangbang. For the three fantasies I would like to be present while she is getting fucked or at least to be able to hear or see what they are doing (via a webcam or something). All these fantasies have something in common : I want her to become a slut, to know as many men as possible ( to this day I am still her first and only man).
I confessed to her about my fantasies about cuckolding soon after we started dating (like 9 months later) and most of the time she wouldn't be turned on by it, even though sometimes for a certain period of time, like two weeks, she would be really into it : for two weeks we would talk dirty about gangbangs or guys doing her and treating her like a whore and things like that while making love. Until suddenly she wouldn't be excited by it anymore and I would have then to stop speaking about it. But there was always one thing not changing : she always told me in a very assertive way that this kind of fantasies with other men couldn't and would never come true.
But one week ago I wrote her a letter (well a mail) in which I tried to make her understand that this fantasies are not just fantasies, the letter said in substance that she is the love of my life and that we will probably spend the rest of our days together and that it is the very reamister I couldn't picture spending my life with her without her becoming a hotwife. I mean really , if I want to spend my life with her she has to do it. I am not saying that if she doesn't do it I will end up cheating on her or leave her but I can't picture spending my entire life being so unsatisfied with my sex life. I tried to get rid of this fantasy, I really tried but as soon as I am a bit turned on I end up thinking about it, and making love to her pretending it is not the case has been very frustrating for me and has genuinely made me miserable on occasion.
Now the thing is the letter is being a game-changer. I don't really know or understand why (she said it reassured her) but now she wants to do it. Like really want. After reading it she admitted being ok with doing it, telling me that amusingly enough she could do it next Wednesday and that by pure coincidence she had planned a night with her co-workers in a nightclub (and she is not lying, she had the thing planned for like two weeks) and that she would be more than ok to try to fuck a guy. This almost looks like fate - she doesn't go out that often, the nightclub is known for being selective and has a very strict dress code so she will have to wear a sexy dress - just like in my fantasie, and her co-workers are people who don't know she has a boyfriend and she probably won't see anymore those who know anyway. It feels like a one time opportunity, because as I said, she doesn't go out that often, and going out with her actual friends to fuck a guy would be to weird as they all know she has been in a relation for the past 8 years.
Since this letter we are spending our time fucking, talking about the guy she is going to fuck Wednesday night. She is really into it like she has never been. She is even ok for me to find her guys online she can fuck, she too, wants to know as many men as possible and has even admitted to being ok doing a gangbang later with guys we would trust from the online thing. From what I have read this lifestyle can really unite and bond some couples, and this is also something that made me want to do it. And yeah, just talking about has really brought out back together just as if we were a young couple, we never have been this intimate and the sex is absolutely wonderful. I really think she is going to do it as tomorrow she has planned to shave her legs and pussy, we have planned to buy her an anklet for her to wear on her right ankle (she knows what it means) and some condoms for her to carry in her purse.
But, yes, I am very much excited by all of it but also a bit lost. She is probably going to get fucked by a stranger Wednesday night (she has a sexy body and a pretty cute face.) But I am not too sure how I really feel about it or if I will be able to serenely cope with it. You guys know what the idea of your wife being fucked does to you : it is exciting yet painful. I have never been that excited but never has it been that painful either. This fantasy has always turned me on because the excitement of it all had always been stronger than the pain. But now I am not too sure about what I really want as the pain is quite strong. She clearly has changed, and it is a bit unsettling. Last night while we were making love (well fucking technically) she said something like -I am afraid of doing something stupid Wednesday night- I said -what ?-; She replied -I am afraid I will ask the guy to fuck me without a condom to cum inside me- It was so hot but I was shocked ! Where was my girlfriend ? She seems so hot and horny I am not even sure she would respect the limits we have set up for us (no fucking without me knowing. I have to be implied one way or another by being there or by being able to see what is going on)
I am afraid that if a guy she fucked gave her his number and if she asked me if she could do him once again and I said no she would do it anyway behind my back.
Plus the fact that I won't have any control or any way of knowing what is happening is that nightclub really makes me really "sick" to my stomach (you know what I mean ...)
Plus I am not into the offense thing AT ALL but this is not only about getting pleasure via watching my girl with other men, it is about her getting her needs satisfied via other men.
I have read that you know you are ready when you are still turned on by the idea of her fucking another guy when you just cumed. There was a time when not excited the very idea of another man touching her was too painful to bear. Now I wouldn't say I am still that turned on, but I still want her to do, because in fact I feel like I don't have any other choice. It has been a real pain and *** wanting her to fuck other guys and her not wanting to. And now that she is finally about to do it feel stupid not to do it, to come back to the pain of her not doing it.
But now I am afraid that the pain of knowing her with another man would be even stronger than the pain of her not doing it. When I'm not that excited it really hurts, like a punch to the stomach, I am all shacking in angst and all, but I still want her to di it.
I am sorry if this was a long post but I really feel it is necessary for you to understand the situation we are in if you want to chat with us and help us (I am writing but she is reading and sometimes telling me what to write).
Feel free to contact us via pm, I will give you our skype and our mail.
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