Real time update - CuckoldPlace.com

As some of you know I was previously writing a semi true story in this forum entitled "Lawn Service for my Ex."
I have not continued with that story due to some true events taking place in my life right now.

If you were following the story then you know it involved my ex-girlfriend Tina who broke up with me about a month ago. Although Tina and I broke up we have remained friends and have managed to mostly be civil to each other.

In a twist of fate due to some unforeseen events Tina needed a place to stay. I invited her to move in with me and she excepted the offer on the condition we would only be friends. I agreed and promptly moved her in.

We never got back together but we did start talking quite a bit and I could tell that we were both hoping our relationship would evolve and we could reconnect. I think we were starting to head that direction until today when I screwed up and did some things to upset her.

Tina retreated quickly saying that she is truly done with the relationship and that she plans to go out tonight to move on with her life. Despite my begging for forgiveness Tina continued to insist that she was done.

I watched her as she prepared to go out. She wore some sexy, form fitting jeans and a low cut blouse that hugged her ample tits and really showed off her Cleavage. The detail about her wore-robe that hurt the most though was the necklace she chose to wear. I bought it for her a couple of years ago from Tiffany's. It's a pennant of a heart with a key lock in it and a key dangling next to it. The necklace hung down between her cleavage nicely and is sure to attract many eyes to her assets.

I asked her before she left if she knew where she was going. She said she didn't know it was up to destiny. She then told me she would be back in a few hours. Trying to be cool and supportive I told her to have fun. With that she said "OH I INTEND TO".

Now I'm setting here wondering where she is going and who she will be hanging out with? If she will invite some lucky guy to take her to a hotel or if she'll just dance and flirt with multiple men seeing how many she can attract?

As I write this my gut is wrenching, my anxiety is through the roof, and my heart feels like it is being stabbed over and over. I want so badly to hold her in my arms right now. To be the man she desires and deserves. I want to make love to her and worship every inch of her body. I want to hold her close to me and let her know that I will do everything I can to make things right between us.

This really does hurt me. Despite my past experiences as a cuckold this carries more sting then I expected. Still I want it to hurt. Even though it's *******ing me I still want her to hurt me even more when she comes home by telling me that she found a rebound who can fuck her like a real man.

I wonder what cutting words she will use to tell me? How sharp and condescending her tone will be? Will she tell me details or just *** me with the simple fact that she was just fucked by someone else? Will she even tell me at all or will she just go straight to bed when she comes home and refuse to talk to me?

How will she look? Will she be disheveled, hot and sweaty? Will she smell of holy water and the cologne of another man. Will she smell of cum? Who will she chose? Will she seek out a black stud to help her forget about her pathetic whiteboy back home? The black studs she use to date exclusively in her younger years and still fantasizes about when she masterbates?

Will she allow another man to cum inside her tonight in her search for a rebound? Or will she have him cum all over her? Will the necklace I bought her be covered in another man's jizz as he shoots his load all over her big, beautiful tits?

Will I be able to win her back or have I lost her for good? Will she move out leaving me alone in my sweet misery or will she continue to live her only as a friend? Will I have to watch her come and go on dates as she continues to keep us separated by her bedroom door? Will I ever have the opportunity to be inside her sweet pussy again? To have another chance to truly appreciate all that I took for granted? Or will she only give me her cold shoulder as she shares her body with someone else?

At this moment I am totally powerless. All I can do is sit in torment with these thoughts spinning through my my head. I know the anxiety and the ache in both my heart and testicles will only intensify as the night creeps by. There is nothing I can do that can distract me from this chilling reality.

This is driving me insane I want Tina back but I want her back freshly, fucked, and full of another mans cum. I want to win her heart as she spreads her legs for other men. I want to delve into her well used pussy and lick the sex out of her as I reclaim her for my own. Only knowing she will never truly be my own again.

The true bitter, sweet, agony of a cuckold is a two edged sword. Be careful with these fantasies because once they materialize they haunt you for the rest of your life. The rush of conflicting and confusing emotions are so overwhelming that you'll spend day after day both hoping and dreading for the moment when the woman you love makes you a cuckold.