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we are a married couple with 2 kids. she is 31 and me29. this happened a year ago. we were married already 5 years. and i was not always faithfuls to her. i was cheating a lot. one time she almost caught me.she knew that i did it but couldn't prove. to make a long story short she told me that she gonna divorce me and i started to tell her that nothing had happened. at the end when i couldn't convince her i changed my story telling her that it was a one time thing and just sex, nothing emotional.but no positive result. that same day we were invited to our friends party in a near bye city. i managed at least to convince her to go there, so pour friends don't get suspicious about what had happened. and we were supposed to solve our problems later. so went there trying to smile all the time, we got really takes there both of us, so our friends took us to a hotel, cause we couldn't drive. we started to continue arguing in the hotel room again. but since i was takes i was also trying to seduce her for sex while arguing. thinking that that might help me to convince her not to divorce me, she was wearing a black dress (fancy and sexy, very short and with buttons from front). i managed to take her all her underwear but at the last moment she escaped from me and the room. she headed to the parking lot where our friends had left the car. she was trying to go home. i followed her all the way to the parking lot. it was 3am in the morning begging her to stay. we were talking, she was in the car and i was next to the door not letting her to close, when u guy from the lobby who saw us passing bye came out. he was heading to his car which was parked close to ours. he said hi we both replied the same. i don't know what was going on my mind or what was wrong with me but asked him if he likes my girlfriend (i was takes but still kind of ashamed to tell him that she was my wife and lady of my kids). he replied yes. my next question was if would like to suck her pussy. he said sure.
my wife was shocked, but didn't say a word. when he came closer (his name was Steve) wife told me that i am crazy, but nothing else. so when he was near me i grabbed her left leg and pulled of the car, the way that only her ass and upper part of body was inside. and told steve to start sucking it. he asked me once if she is ok with it.
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after getting a positive response from me and not even a word from her he started to suck her pussy. in a minute she was all wet and very horny. at some point i got in the car from the other side and put my dick in her mouth. but very soon she stopped sucking my dick and told me to let her alone to enjoy Steves sucking. so i went back to the other side and started to give instructions to Steve. i asked him to put his finger in her ass, to suck her asshole etc. which he was doing. then asked my wife to be dominant and tell steve what she wants.she came like 4 times
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during the oral sex i asked her if she wants to fuck him, even told her that i am ok with it. but she said no.
after the 4th time i asked Steve to show her his hard cock, which he did. but even after that she said no, his dick was decent one, big and thick like mine. then i told him to put it back in pants and leave. he said thx, gave me his number and left. after that we went back to the room. i fucked her once and went to relax. next day went back to our house without talking a word about it. but she was acting normal as if nothing had happened including my cheating.
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so we are still married , we roleplay sometimes during sex. but never did it again.
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tell me what you think of us. am i a cuckold?
ill be honest with you that it makes me horny, especially when i am imagining someone sucking her pussy, but i am also very jealous, would never let anyone fuck her or any dick near face
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John,
You are 31, act like you're 21 and write like you're 11, but you are not a cuckold. You are not even a very inventive cheater really.

You did ask ..

hehe that was funny

what a disaster.

Sounds like you're just trying to make up for cheating.

Not even close to being a cuckold......and it sounds like you never will be to that mental state that can make this unique lifestyle a fun adventure for either you or your wife.

Best wishes to you with the direction and path that your actions have taken you.
Cuck who loves a creampie.