Begining a cuckold relationship with GF

I’m a male who has always had submissive desires and fantasies towards women and I’m heading into what I think is going to be a cuckold relationship and love it. The girl is someone who has been a friend of mine for about three years and about six months ago we dated a few times. She knows I totally adore her and she has made some comments in the past that I am someone she would want to settle down with to myself and other people.

She has a reputation as being a slut and someone who plays men off each other and at times takes advantage of people. As long as I’ve known her she has never been monogamous with anyone. She is 30 and has lived with two men and cheated on them both, living with both for several years. Before that when she was real young she worked as a stripper for a year.

I know her so well though that know what she is really into is having power and control over men.

So her and the guy she was living with for past four years - their relationship really ended two years ago - split and she moved out and is going to stay with her mom for three months while she gets herself financially straight.

Once they broke up I contacted and started to date her and made clear that what I hope to have with her is a real relationship.

We started to hang out and have done so for past three weeks. Have not had sex.

She told me about some past men. One night one of them became a facebook friend. Two days later she came to my house around noon to do some stuff on my computer and she smelled of so much perfume she smelled like a stripper. I didn’t say anything but wondered if she hadn’t just had sex with this guy and then stopped over.

While using the computer she made the comment that she only has real relationships with guys that have no kids - because that way their is no drama from other mams and the men will be totally devoted to her. I have none and the guy I suspect she had been with has them.

When she leaves I tell her she was incredibly sexy.

Of course I had an erection and then I realized that I like this and want to be a cuckold to her. The way I feel is she is testing me to see if I react to her smell as I’ve been around her 100 times and never smelled her like that or is prepping me for what is to come.

I knew something would happen like this if we started to see each other and is probably one of the reamisters I am so attracted to her other than I like her permisterality a lot and get along with her and she is hot. But this is the first time I feel directly the desire to be her cuckold even though in the back of my mind I knew that is how a relationship between us would eventually turn into.

She knows I’m going out of town on the weekend, but we go out to dinner one night beforehand. I ask her what she is going to do this weekend and she doesn’t give me an answer and I assume she is going to be mess with this guy probably. But I’m ok with that, I don’t really care and don’t feel jealous or threatened by it. I don’t make anything of it.

On way home though I tell her a story about another friend of mine whose girlfriend cheated on him and he came to me for advice and I told him to just forget about it and get over it and figure out what he really wants with her. I’m giving her permission.

I talk more about this friend and some of the hangups I think he has and tell her that everyone has their ways about them its not a big deal.

I feel closer to her than before on way home and when we pull in have our first kiss. She drops me off and leaves.

I go out of town Friday. Saturday morning find on her facebook that she has a status where she was at this guy I was suspecting’s house at 1:30 in the morning. They have flirting messages going back and forth.

I know she is testing me, but I didn’t see any of this in the evening. She sends me a phone text telling me that she just put this status up their to make her old boyfriend stop bothering her. Of course I don’t believe this, but am glad she is contacting me I see it that she doesn’t want to lose me and is testing me. She wants to see how I’ll react to this and is also taking sexual control of the relationship.

I want to just play it off as much as I can so I reply to her text telling her thanks for letting me know and I thought she had been bad and I’d have to come home and spank her.

I get home late that night and Saturday night she is again posting stuff on facebook playing a video game with this guy.

Sunday morning I send her a simple message telling her if she is trying to get into a relationship with him just let me know and be know hard feelings otherwise she needs to come over and we’ll talk about what we are doing. I end by telling her I am not trying to be the only man in her life but the most important.

She replies and tells me she isn’t trying to get with him like that at all and is just looking to hang out with friends and do stuff and she’ll be over to see me in next few days.

I believe she set all of this up in advance and I’m heading straight into a cuckold relationship with her and my desire for her has never been greater. I want her so bad. But I need to control myself. I don’t want her to know how much power she has over me right now and exactly all I feel. I want to meet her and just tell her I want to keep seeing her life we have been and that everything is cool. I don’t want her to know how out of control and attracted to her I feel right now. I want to stay calm and collected with her...but I feel I’m heading straight into a cuckold relationship which may be something she never had - where the man totally accepts the way she does and actually likes it - and I have never had either, but I can see how it would take care of many desires I have to be submissive to a woman. Right now I feel like she taken total control of this relationship and practically owns me and I love it. I just need to handle it right and want it to work for the long-term.

My concern is for her to respect me and not to just be totally beta in this relationship, because she would then simply take advantage of me. I want to be positioned right and the way I see it that is as a strong male tougher than her other men who couldn’t handle her and simply would get jeolous, but adores her and is totally devoted to her that I will be a cuck for her.

How have others handled this type of thing?