Pegramguy
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First really revealing post by me. I have come and gone here several times over the years due to insecurities then a divorce. I was married when I first came to this site, now I am divorced.
Here is how I started and what lead me here.
I am 34 white male, somewhat good looking and average sized penis. I am attracted to hot women with high sexual energy. Unfortunately, these don't always make for the most loyal and stable relationships. Because the women I date would be considered out of my league, I am always concerned they will stray. I like women that other men are always after and I pride myself in landing those women. Also, unfortunately, those types of women usually have a history of straying sexually simply because they are hot and have a wide selection of better looking hung males always after them.
I know that now, I didn't when I was younger. I have unknowingly been cuckold many times in previous relationships.
The first instance that sticks in my mind was my buddy dated a smoking hot model type in high school. Unknown to him and us, she wasn't a one woman girl. Leading him to insane jealousy and stalking. She ended up having a fetish for bbc and fucked one of our close black friends. I got to witness him fucking her in his living room one day by peaking around the corner. I saw the whole thing. She rode his dick like a champ. It made a huge impression on me. He fucked her several times when I was around. She just liked to get fucked by hung black males behind her bf's back. Eventually that ended but my black friend went on to fuck several good looking white girls in our high school.
Flash forward to college when I met and dated a few girls that cheated on me several times. Not because I couldnt please them, but because they just like to get fucked by many strange hung guys. It made me crazy jealous but I would forgive them and move on.
Finally, as an adult, I began using cocaine irregularly and only socially. It really opened my up socially to dealing with my insecurities and talking about my sexual desires. It also lead to cuckolding as we would get super horney and I couldn't please her. I would work her up to almost fuck her then tell her I can't please her but I know another way (by bringing over other studds). I finally met a very horney and sexual woman with a history of cheating. We fell in love, she stayed true and monogamous to me and we married. Later in the marriage, things got rocky and during that time, we would do blow and just talk. It really opened her up and lowered her inhibitions. I began to realize she wanted other cock to please her secretly and had a history of cheating with previous men because she never realized why. I helped her realize and she helped me deal with that fact that she was very pretty, horney, had good pussy, and good looking men she would be fucking if she weren't married otherwise.
At first I couldn't deal with this and tried to set her up with women to fill her cup but that didn't work out and I realized she just needed dick. I would get behind her and dry hump her while grabbing her tits when she would be in the kitchen dressed in her pj's on blow asking her if she wanted a hung male's dick. She would say you know I do.
Finally, I met a couple on yahoo. The husband shared his wife regularly and showed me pics. I realized this was our ticket. I rented some mfm video's and began showing them to her and talking to her. She didn't want black but was open to simply trying hung white males. Eventually we met a guy that I shared some pics of her too. She looks like the chick from weeds. I began collecting pics from sites and saving them as a reference for her. We mirrored those pics and I dressed her in nice lingerie and found a guy. It worked out great. Over the course of our shortlived 5 year marriage we found her several guys but she had a problem of attachment to them, which is why I think she wanted white hung studds. I realized she wanted several regular guys to fuck her that she could trust and eventually move in or stay long term. When I realized she was open to getting pregnant by them things changed. She couldn't keep her emotions and feelings under control, not just because of that but also because of problems in the real world.
Her plan was to have a studds baby she was very attracted to and for that to be the trojan horse for a life long relationship, possibly poly. At the time I wasn't ready for it because of other issues in life. Though I would eventually accept this at the time I couldn't.
The marriage fell apart and we divorced. Now I seek out pretty attractive white women that are down with being shared with hung black males, which is what I originally wanted. I seek and am attracted to women who feel an urge or duty to take their tops off and kneel down to service hung black males and share their body.
Hopefully I will find that girl and post her pics here. I have always felt it is a white woman's duty and natural desire to service hung black males.
JB
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