my ex cuckoldress...a question

I have wondered some time about asking this quesion and now getting to it. My Ex wife, I've realized had me cuckolded in various ways and I've now come to realize much of the strange intimacy. She wanted me to accept her younger bf by telling me and showing me her passion for the cock. I'm fine with it all now, but wasn't at the time. It started out as a friendly relation that developed into a passionate loveship that she hasn't been able to break. He younger and much larger than me in many ways had his way with her. He even in his young cocky way knew how to keep her from returning to any sex desire with me, he indulged her fantasies, kept her equiped with dildos and sex toys, and made the fantasy real. does anyone have similar stories?

Another question: Should I let her know after we've been divorced and separated a while about the way she cuckolded me for many years. For instance, and I just thought about this the other day, we were out in a club one night and she's playing around with a younger black guy who showed mild interest. She says to me as we're leaving the club, "we should take him back to our room". At the time I get a bit pissed, but now realize it could have been a major turn on. What do you think?

Let me ask you a question. Are you trying to start something back up with your ex? I would think if an ex of mine were to come back to me talking about how I cucked him, and our divorce was bad, I may not be willing or open to hearing from him. If your divorce wasn't that bad, or if you all are still friends afterwards, you never know what could happen. It sounds like she was probably trying to be more sexual for you and when you didn't return that she decided to look for someone new. I'm not judging or trying to be a bitch, so don't take it that way. It's just the way I see it from my own eyes.

Thank you for the question and reply. I am not trying to start something back up. Would I like to fuck fantasy her? Yes, and sometimes I do the fantasy part, but only in my mind and from the memories of recounting instances where unconciously she actually was cucking me and I had invited that in, unconciously. It doesn't matter whether we knew it or not, it happened. You are right about my not returning for her, and yes she probably did turn to her bf, and make it more relationship than she originally envisioned. No judgment or bitchy attitude taken, you see it pretty head on. Well so it is. She continues with the bf and it is now more of a curious turn on for me than what it used to be: an ugly rejection that I didn't understand.

Stepping forward, I have a beautiful gf that I really enjoy and cherish. I'm open with her and have even gone as far as to let her know that her having sex with other men is a turn on. It's just the evolution of events and me. I appreciate your insight and comment. Thanks for that.