raster312004
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Hi,
I have been a long-time lurker on this site but never posted. Then I realized that if everyone did that, there would be nothing to read. So, in an altruistic moment, I thought I should post my experiences.
My post relates to me thinking back and how I got into this lifestyle. Meaning...are you born into it, or can you develop a fetish for it?
About me: WASPy, early forties, in good shape (5'10, 180lbs, all my own non-gray hair), and (have been told) am good looking. Married for 5 years to V who is 9 years younger than me. We live in New England and have no youngren or plans for any. I consider myself a stereotype cuck as in I am into small penis offense (my penis is quite thin and about 5in on a REALLY, REALLY good erection day) and I also like a bit of CFNM.
So....when I think back about this lifestyle I can clearly recall 3 situations that definitely shaped my enjoyment. The 1st encounter was my first real physical relationship with a girl, situation 2 was meeting my wife to be and what happened on our first date and (even more so) the first time we slept together and the 3rd occasion is when my wife and I went on a vacation. I will present them chronologically and see how far i get with the 1st experience, maybe 2nd, call it a day and see if people want me to continue.
My 1st encounter with cuckolding/small penis offense was with my 1st real girlfriend - Jill. We were both in the same year in high school and had been dating for a couple of weeks. We were both 15. 1 evening Jill was babysitting for a neighbor and I was with her. We were making out on the sofa and she had let me (for the very 1st time in our relationship...and for my very first time for me with any girl) undo her jeans and my hand was wandering into her panties. I recall as if it were yesterday how hairy Jill's bush was and I was so turned on with my hands rummaging around inside her panties (not really knowing what I should be doing). Then Jill starting undoing my jeans and I remember panicking. I was a really late developer who (although I didn't know it at this time) had a small penis. At 15 I had no, zero, nada, pubic hair around my genitals and here was a girl about to find out. I had that bitter sweet feeling that I (now) enjoy so much. Anyhow, Jill unbuttoned my jeans to reveal a small erection in my tightey,whitey briefs (no boxers in those days). At this point she didn't say anything cos I guess the game wasn't given away thanks to my briefs hiding my little secret. We continued kissing while I was fondling her and her hands (after a bit of rub outside my briefs) began to wander inside the waistband. I remember the amazing feeling of somebody elses hand in that area, but I can also remember Jills (closed kissing) eyes opening with alarm when she could only feel baby bum smooth skin around my dick. Her eyes looked confused and not able to work out why there was no hair down there (as if not having grown any yet was not even in the equation). So, she pulled her face away and looked down at where her hand was. My briefs were still up (it was just her hand inside them) so she pulled them outwards away from my body to take a look inside. All this time I was looking at her face. She looked back at me and said "what happened?" as if there was some accident down there or something. I nervously said "nothing". She said, "I wanna take a look" so she shuffled her way down my body as we're laying on the sofa and pulled my briefs down. With this, my little (at this time of my life must've been) 4 inch bald erection popped out. Jill let out a giggly shriek and, with her head about 1 foot away, was looking over my area with great interest. Then came the *******er blow: "It looks like a baby one". I tried to convince Jill that it was normal for a 15yo but I know that Jill had had a few other boyfriends. She told me that her last bf had (what she called) a real one that was also hairy. When Jill said this, something stirred within me (my first awakening to cuck/sph) and my dick twitched. Jill noticed this. Aww...it's twitching. She then put her thumb and forefinger around it and started slowly jerking me. As she was jerking me, she was saying "come on...get it bigger...I like them when I can put my hand around them". Unfortunately, that was enough to push me over the edge and I shot a load right on my stomach. Jill was laughing and carried on jerking me with thumb and forefinger right through my orgasm right until my dick had shrunk to a size where she could no longer jerk it. Then she looked at me and said "well...that was....different". After this experience we carried on dating for a few weeks, however, we never had the opportunity to be able to get each other undressed again (or Jill didn't want it). Then eventually Jill broke up with me. While she never directly humiliated me or cucked me (too young for cucking at 15) the memory of the accidedntal offense of my inadequacies in my small, hairless penis awoke something in me that, i believe, set me on the path of this lifestyle.
Fast Forward 15 years and various casual and some lengthy relationships (with minimal and insignificant cuck/sph experiences) later. I am 30 and I meet a beautiful Polish girl - V - who is 21 and a senior in a local college. V came to the US with her family 7 years earlier when she was 14. She was/is a drop dead stunner. Amazing body, amazing face/looks. For our first date I took V for dinner. I was/am doing OK in my career and V being a student was impressed I could afford a nice restaurant. The conversation (bizarrely for a 1st date) came around to previous partners and even sexual partners etc. Being 9 years her senior I had more to offer the converstation, but tried to keep deflecting it on to her. Turns out V had had only 2 sexual partners. her first was a high school buddy at 16 and it was the generic fumble in the dark 2 virgin scene with pretty unmemorable results. Then V went to college and didn't have another partner until her Junior year when she went out partying to celebrate her 21st. She said (somewhat embarrasingly...but still confidently) that she got blind takes and ended up going home with a guy she met in a bar (Eric). She dated Eric for 9 months and had only broken up with him a few weeks ago. V said that Eric was attractive because he was very confident, but also she had a secret fantasy about black men. She explained that growing up in rural Poland she had never seen a black man (except in TV) until she came to the US. V told me that she totally discovered herself sexually with Eric and that (and don't forget this is 1st date) Eric was amazing in bed. OK....I'll post this much and if I get any responses...I'll continue with the story...
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wulfenus
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ok if it's me that you like to continue, here's one of the 'almosts':
Sandi shared a dorm room with her hi school friend Barb in a coed dorm. two black girls lived in the next room. late one week night there was a knock on the half open door. in the dorms people usually had their doors partially open unless they wanted absolute privacy as people would drop in. three black jocks were looking for the girls next door who weren't there and wanted to use the phone. Barb let them in. my girl was about ready for bed and only had on a short top, no bra, and boxer type shorts.
the three men started chatting them up and one started smoking a joint and trying to share it with the girls. Barb was having a good time talking away. Sandi was feeling a little more self conscious as one guy sat right next to her on the bed. it was fashionable in the dorms to take your bed apart and just have the matress on the floor. he was checking her out big time in her half dressed attire and so was the other guy who came over and sat next to her also. Barb said she was going down the hall to study with Kelly and Sandi had to try to get her attention without embarrassing the guys. Barb wasn't thinking she would be leaving her alone with three black guys they didn't even know. she did get her attention and after awhile the guys left. she was a little nervous about it then,
but later she told me it could have been exciting.
well one of those guys came back a couple weeks later as he knew Kelly, our friend who lived down the hall. it was a friday night i couldn't make it to town but was going to come on saturday, so Sandi went out with Kelly & this guy partying. they ended up in a dorm party across campus with several black guys. they were takeing and having
fun when the black guys wanted Kelly & my girl to help them with an 'initiation'.
they put Sandi in a dorm room blindfolded with one
other guy. she is to play the wife and the guy the
husband. they told her to imagine herself in this
situation 'your husband has been in a jail for months awaiting trial in solitary, and you get to have a private visit to do what you want, what's the FIRST thing you take off?'
in this setting, takeing, horny people, everyone is
thinking about sex, well she took off her shoes, and then he says no that's not right and asks what's the next thing? so she took off little stuff like watch and socks to put off taking off the more revealing items. she unbuttoned her blouse all they way but then hesitated stripping in front of this guy that she couldn't see because of her blindfold. he told her not to worry but that she still hasn't taken off the right item. she still felt nervous. he told her if she took her blouse off then she could pretend the rest of the way and besides she had her bra on. so standing there in her bra and jeans he asked her what would you take
off next? she pretended to take off her jeans, then
panties and bra. when all done he asked her one more time, what would you take off next? well the FIRST thing you would take off is the blindfold! (this joke really works, she tried it on me before hearing this and i fell for it, but she didn't tell me the rest of the
story till a few months later).
later on she told me more about that night:
he took her blouse and shoes before she could say anything and told her to wait there, part two of the initiation was next. a few minutes later they led one of their friends back in the room with a blindfold on. she said he was slender and a little shorter than me. they told her his name was Jim and to complete the initiation she was to ask the same questions of him and gave them both a take for good luck and left them alone. she asked him the questions and he hesitated a bit at first also, but he would take off his clothes. she was really nervous when he was just down to his
pants and she started trying to give him clues, like
'think about the first thing' and told him he could
pretend to take off his clothes. he said he didn't
think his buddies would let him pass the initiation if he didn't do it the right way. when he took off his
pants she said he had boxer shorts that really stood out as they were the only white thing on him.
she hesitated before asking again and he just took his shorts off before she could say anything. out of
shyness she looked away at first, but since he was
blindfolded it made it a less tense situation and she couldn't help but look at his crotch. she'd never seen a black guy naked before and said his cock was about half hard and getting harder. he said wouldn't the man & wife have sex then? she started saying she didn't know what they'd do and he said she wouldn't be a tease. she was sitting on the bed and he was close by anyway but he moved toward her voice till he was right in front of her.
she reached up and held his cock. he groaned that
feels good and she started stroking it. he got really
hard. she knew she shouldn't screw him because she was going with me, but she thought this was something he would like and not being unfaithful. he still had the blindfold on and that made it easier for her. she was staring at his cock right in front of her, she said it was thick and her hand didn't fit around it and that seeing her hand on a black cock was such a turn on.
she jacked him off for several minutes before he took the blindfold. he was looking at her and her half exposed tits when he shot a big load across the bed.
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