Help me out..

Hey all...

I have been reading this forum for a few weeks now. I spose I am like some people that read these posts, that I get excited reading about some of the TRUE things that go on.

First of all, let me get this straight. I am not some fag retard posting this to get my jollies. I have read quite a few posts where it is quite apparent they posted their Psuedo fantasies, and not real feelings.

This post is meant to be sincere and honest. So here goes.

I understand what a cuckold is. I am not into eating someones cum, nor being humiliated.
I am however turned on about the thought of another man having sex with my wife while I watch / join.

Please understand, My wife is younger than me, she is a wonderful permister. ( one of those types that always looks for the good in all people.)

We play often. Sometimes we will use an over sized dong, or watch sexual videos.

I have let her catch a glimpse into my sexual fantasies. When I say glimpse, I really mean Glimpse. I mean, EVERYONE has their own thing that turns them on.... and I have my own fetishes as well.

I sometimes find myself going out of my way to make sure she gets extremely loaded up (takes) so I can play on a more Hardcore scale, I.e. Larger dildo etc.

I am not a small hung man. I have a Very good sized cock, Yet I Know there are others out there that are larger than me, and that is what turns me on I Guess.

One night, I was REALLY takes, and while having sex, I said I wanted to watch her have sex with someone else. She reminded me the next day, And I was embarassed, and brushed it off.
I feel like some sicko. This is my wife yanno? How do I get past my permisteral feelings for my sexual fantasies?
Please feel free to respond in this forum, I would really appreciate it.

Regards.

You have a fetish, just like the guys who get turned on by women's feet or whatever. Do some research on the topic and you'll feel more comfortable about it. There's not much you can do to change it, so you really have to decide whether you want to pursue it and can deal with the risks to your relationship, or whether you can just put it aside.

Here are a couple of links to get you started:

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Good luck, and you can make this work in the context of a marriage. It's just not easy and requires a woman who is open to the idea.

richard_f couldn't have said it any better. You AND her have to decide. If you're unsure or think it'll crash your relationship, let it go.

hi,
me 2, and the wife, lets talk