crystalbentover:
Later on I was thinking about what a gay sissy slut I had become and felt kind of humiliated but then that just made me hotter.
I have found this to be, for me, the hottest thing about being a sub. Every step, as it becomes more real - as I began to loose my sexual privileges, my reputation, my identity, I would find that once the libido waned and the fire dimmed I was flooded with shame, fear, and regret. But then that shame, fear and regret just began the cycle again as I became turned on thinking about how far I'd already fallen, what might happen next, and how I had let it happen. Pretty soon that mix turbo charged me again and I was enthusiastically scheming to create even more irreversible humiliating outcomes. With every bridge burned, I found my hard little clit leading me to another Rubicon.
My advice: Celebrate and wallow in your losses of your married sex life and your masculinity and use the excitement it generates to push yourself and your relationship further down the road of permanent cuckolding, sissydom, and gay servitude. I found the ride a thrill beyond belief and the memories remain potent long after.
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.