Strange dissapointment with great sex

I have been cuckolded for many years and my incredibly beautiful and sexy wife sees a couple of guys once or twice a month.
For approx 5 years I have been forbidden ANY blow jobs, and for approx 1.1/2 to 2 years I have been forbidden intercourse with my wife.
All I have been allowed to do is wank myself over her feet and then lick it up. Sometimes she would wank me while wearing rubber gloves and using stinging nettles, other times she would pour her lovers saved cum into my mouth as i wanked myself. There have been many different ways for me to be allowed release...but never by using her body in any way other than her hand.

The past few months has been quite slow in the way of cuckolding as my wife has been unable to meet her "usual guys" due to kids, work, etc..

The other evening we were in bed together and we kissed passionately and as usual I got excited and hard...but instead of only being allowed to touch myself etc.... THIS night she gave me a blow job !!!! ( she gives the worlds best blow jobs too !!!! ) not only that but she lay down and allowed me to slide inside of her and fuck her !!!!!

Ok, now heres the thing..........
Although it WAS wonderful and felt terrific.........I was very disappointed that I had been "allowed" and that she had broken her rule and allowed me all of these things.
I felt like it had "spoilt" what we had built up......................how crazy is that !!!! The thing that I had desired, and the thing that she gives to other men and teases me with...was eventually MINE.........but it felt wrong, and so although I did orgasm inside of her I had feelings of dissapointment the whole time.

Has anyone else experienced this ?

Have you shared your feelings about this with her? If not, I wouldn't. To me this shows how much she really loves you. She came back to you, her love, her husband. I would take this as a sign that she is rewarding her loving cuckold and that no matter who her bf is, she married you, her cuckold, and yes her man. While you relish is being denied, don't forget about what she might be feeling and that she will at some point need to feel her husband. Also don't forget that this was her choice, and as her cuckold you should feel rewarded.

Sounds like you have a great wife, and thanks for sharing your story.

Hi Allen & thanx for your reply !
I appreciate your opinion, and you are probably right. I should probably keep quiet about how I felt so that I dont hurt her feelings. Plus, it wasnt that I didnt enjoy it either, I did! .....but the "cuckolding rules" had been broken and that just felt dissapointing. I love my wife incredibly and wouldnt want to hurt her.

I know what you mean, all that time denied, and now you have to start over again.
When you don't have something, you crave it, when you do have something you're not that bothered about it.
Wifey denies me for weeks on end and I crave her just holding and touching my cock, when she decides to give me a handjob, I feel disappointed too.

Really? She was obviously using you for Her amusement and pleasure. She makes the "cuckold rules" for you, not for Her. She broke no rules. She can do as She pleases regardless of your warped idea of "the rules". Remember who has the Pussy!

A very interesting thread.I can fully understand how cuckoldedsissywimp feels disappointed by this turn of events and sympathise with him.However sexually pleasant it might have been,it's still a shock to suddenly have to perform acts previously denied him.
Having said that,cuckbob makes a good point.She probably just wanted a bit of sex and you were near to hand.

Im pleased you understand "starflyer", it is exactly as you say..it feels like you are starting from the beginning again and that everything that you have done so far has been a waste of time.