Help This sissy

I am a single sissy, having recently lost my wife. I now want to completely deprive myself of ever having any ideas of not being the sissy I truly am. I now dress 24/7, even while out in public by wearing feminine tops that show my ba, having my legs shaved and toenails painted in full view of others. I am for real. I now want to deny myself future erections and the ability to cum...forever...anyone know what I need to do, or take to make this happen??? Maybe there s a woman who has done it to Her husband????PLEASE!!!!

If you want more than virtual, you should let the bidders here know where you are.

I am in Westchester, NY. Not sure why that matters though.

Reality means someone has to be local. Virtual ... well it is virtual and words are cheap.