Chastity Incentive

Saturday night I had "sex" with my wife for the 8th time since last Christmas.
I mean including last xmas.
By sex I mean "handjob".
By "handjob" I mean she rubs me hard, then tells me to finish myself while she watches.

Twice I have been allowed to lick her to orgasm.
Twice, including Saturday night, I have been allowed to finger her to orgasm.
The other times I was not allowed to touch her.

I love the idea of chastity and have accepted my role in our sex life.

But I am not chaste. I jerk off all the time.
Every weekday at least.
I have been trying to cut back and went 4 painful days last month.
I simply don't have the self control not to look at porn and rub myself; once I start I can't stop.

So after my "handjob" a decision was made.
I would reward myself for not cuming.
$5 the first day, $10 the second, $15 the third....
And punish myself for cuming. A $5 deduction.
The money will go into an entertainment fund for me.
When I have $200 I will be allowed to dress in bra, panties, pantyhose, and visit a sex shop with private shows.
There I will tell the dancer of my offense, my pathetic small clitty, and that I am not allowed to cum.
Any money left over will be for a shopping trip where I will buy more undies and be honest with the clerk about who they are for.

It has now been 36 hours.
I am going to go look at gay porn now in hopes that it will decrease my raging hardon.

I know that many of you are far advance from me and have gone months.

Any encouragement and suggestions are much appreciated.

The ultimate offense will be when you view the gay porn, you will cum!
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What was really hot for me was when my wife, having denied me penetration for years and oral for almost as long finally told me that she would never again give me a handjob or even touch my penis.As with the fucking and the oral, that went for others too. No one would ever touch my penis again but me. She meant it and stuck to it.
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

60 hours.
The gay porn got me very hot, and I stroked but managed not to come. In fact I think I spent more time yesterday looking at porn than on a normal day when I come after and hour or 2.
I also managed to relax, much to my surprise.
My wife has been much more huggy kissy and parading her body more.

I am dirty little boy and I always managed to stray from the gay and find some shots of women, but I power myself back to the gay stuff.

Good plan to stick to the gay stuff. Years of that made me the sissy fag I am today.
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

I made it about 84 hours then gave in.
In 4 decades this might be the longest I have ever gone with out jerking off.
Perhaps when I was in the hospitol after surgery was longer.

I looked at porn almost constantly those 84 hours.
I tried my best to stick to gay porn. I am even getting to where I can enjoy seeing guys kissing and graphic butt fucking.
I do have to admitt I would always find a way back to naked ladies.
But what put me over the top was nonsexual, or soft porn, pictures of women beating up men. Many of the photos were from marshall arts competetions. This has never been a fetish for me before, but in my demeaned and frustrated state they did the trick.
I tried to milk myself with a dildo up my ass, but couldn't keep my hands off my clitty.

I paid my fine and started counting again.

About noon today will be 5 days on my second try, 120 hours.
I am trying to spend much less time looking at porn this time.
My goal is to spend that time doing chores.

I hope to make it a full week, 168 hours.
Then longer.

Does it ever get easier?
Does the ache ever go away?

Thanks Tiny Tom.

I made 10 days. A while ago I was doubting that was possible.

My first few tries I was edging constantly, and well, accidents happen.
This time I still looked at porn and did some rubbing, but mostly I stopped when I started getting hard.
And my little thing seemed to want to get hard less and less.

Yesterday we went to public hot tubs. New age, non-sexual, co-ed. I was afraid I might get hard which would get me thrown out and cause untold embarresment.
The first test was the changing room. Crowded with mostly people leaving.
One after another these women were getting dressed, and each had sexier undies the next.
I ended up studying the floor as I could feel things moving.
After getting undressed I headed to the bathroom, to calm down.
Then I took a cold shower.
The next hour was problem free.
I love all types of women, old, young, large breast, small, perk, floppy, tall, short, shaved, hairy. And they were all there. But I consentrated on eye contacted, and my sexy wife.
Of course I noticed the men too. No one who was obviously long, but all their heads were twice the size on mine.

In the good old days if we went hot tubbing we would always have sex as soon as we got home. But my wife wasn't interested. I thought I was going to burst. When we got into bed I tried to get things started, but she just picked up her book and started reading. Finally, lights out, I spooned, and started rubbing her, she let me bring her off, and even let me feel her tits. I was rubbing my raging 5" hardon between her butt checks. After she got off she let me rub myself. When I was right their she took over. Her soft touch brought me off almost right away, she stopped rubbing before I was done shooting.

This morning I was horny as ever. I figured it was time for my reward. A shopping trip.
Usually I go to a Wal-Mart, Target type place for my bras and panties, but I thought I would try Marshalls and Ross this time, because the selection is so large there.
I wore a pink bra, with matching pink panties that said "touch me" in glitter. Plus a midriff shapper and cute hold up stockings.
Marshalls and Ross were terrible. Huge selection, but nothing that I wanted. This has never happened to me before.

I stopped at a strip club. I got an unbelievable lap dance from Shelly. She loved that I was wearing bra and panties. She checked out my bra, and rubbed my titties through it. She laughed when I described my panties and told her about my little problem.

I am starting again, but I am not sure I can make it through the day.

I can't look at gay porn as it makes me just as hard, well it would if I wasn't locked up. When I've been locked up for a couple of days, I tend to look at porn more, but I have to milk myself with a dildo.

It's a constant battle, but keep it up. I've started wearing bra and panties during the day to work in, keep myself shaved and my toenails are painted.

Soon, I hope to only be able to cum whilst being fucked by a dildo or a cock.

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I have now done 14 days.
I am going to try for 14 again, but I think that is my outside limit without a device.

I went to a place with private shows.
I showed her my bra, panties and stockings.
I wanted her to humilate at me, but she was too sweet.
"I think you look cute in your bra and panties", "Don't worry, size doesn't matter".
She teased me showing, and then covering her tits and pussy.
She kept telling me to stroke myself, and I eventually shot my load.