tiny tom:
Very nice, houseslvsissy. Great to be reading your stuff again.
Can't help but wonder about your apparent increased submissiveness. Did some event precipitate this or is it just part of your evolution toward being an ever better little sissy girl? In any event, you inspire me.
tiny tom, i am approaching 250 days locked in my chastity cage and when one is locked that long it has all sorts of psychological and biological effects. Each day that passes makes you just a little bit more crazy, more submissive. It is the longest I have ever been denied without relief. Of course there is some reliefe that happens biologically. IN spite of the fact that my steel cage is only 1.5 inches long, and actual erection is impossible, eventually the dripping starts. In fact, whenever I start thinking about sex - which is all the time......or on weekends like right now when her Man is here, I am confronted with the sounds and sights of it, and it drives me crazy with desire, but oddly this just feeds the submissive side of it. Nocturnal emissions happen frequently, and although they aren't the same as orgasms (more like a pressure valve letting off just enough steam) and they HURT, (did I mention the cage is 1.5" long?) they - well, you get the picture.
Last weekend when he was here, they actually discussed whether to give me a "day out." They discussed this right in front of me. The lengthy chastity has influence on them as well as me, I think. Each day that passes, I feel more and more OWNED, and I think they feel more and more like OWNERS. It is not overt on their part, until they start having discussions like this. Whether to let me out or not. My wife thought maybe it was time to cut me some slack. Her Man - I will call him "Alex" said he felt like I was so close to a year (about 4 months to go) that he really didn't think the topic was even worthy of consideration. She mentioned health and prostate issues, and he observed that I already drip all over so things are "moving along", and besides, didn't she use the dildo on me sometimes?
That is how the conversation went. Then he reminded her of what a "jerk" I became when I hung loose. That did it, sealed the deal. They decided to revisit the topic "sometime this summer." And I actually THANKED THEM.
That's what I mean about how it effects you. At least me. It makes me so subby, I thank them for MORE.
I know this sounds quite unbelievable to some, but it is not. We are in an extraordinary, once in a lifetime relationship that has endured for years now. They both know my continued willing presentation is the key to it working - for all 3 of us. Alex would happily continue without me. He would marry her if she would let him, but she won't.
And sometimes I hate it, hate myself. But usually, I thank my lucky cucky stars. When she withdraws from me, and I think I am really going to lose her, I hate myself for ever getting into this. When I feel loved and secure, I wouldn['t trade it for the world.
