Training Myself With Porn

I too have those very same feelings. Life is full of regrets and my biggest one, without a doubt, is the time it took for me to accept and love that I am a sissy. But I can't do anything about it either. Maybe if the internet had been invented when I was still in high school. Maybe if homosexuality was as accepted then as it is today. Maybe is a tough word. I do honestly believe if I had the access to the equipment and information there is today I would most certainly have become a sissy much sooner. Just looking at my own experiences and how hard I searched for, and craved for anything remotely kinky, I know I would have but what can you do?

I regret that I wasted the time of several women letting them believe they were with a real man. These poor girls believed they could have a future with me as the man. Funny thing is I thought I could too, until my real self would keep pushing its way forward and another girl would leave, bitching me out for how fucked up I am. At least they can tell their friends and husbands about how depraved their ex boyfriend was and enjoy the feeling of being superior.

My wife has no idea what a faggot I am. She's not interested in sex. I'm not sure why. She never really has been. She's maybe just frigid or repressed. Sometimes i think she's a lesbian. I really don't know. A perfect cover for a cowardly sissy like me.

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Only GAY porn for this happy cuck. No pussy no pressure. Ex-hubby takes great care of the pussy and cucky boy fantasies about beautiful hard cock. All white cuck married males should be turned GAY. Only cock for the cuck. Wives and their lovers should always completely cut-off the cuck from penetrative sex and turn them into card carrying HOMOSEXUALS !!!

Gay porn really does it for me. Big hard cocks shooting loads of cum make me salivate. I need to find a RL lover so I can suck cock every day.

One man's porn addiction is a sissy's mental therapy.

being a pussy free cuckold is such a relief...have had ED for a few yrs and am so relieved that I don't have to worry about performance any longer...just serving by clean up and sucking cock and pussy...watch lots of porn..cuckold..tranny..gay...learning to really enjoy sucking cock and being subservient!!!

That makes sense, wimp_cuck! Being a cuck, being a sub, being a sissy, all of these things should relive you tremendously of performance anxiety. Cucks aren't responsible for performing for their wives, sissies can't be expected to perform for women, subs just do what they are told. You embraced it and are happy. Thank you for sharing. I always love good news stories on this site.
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

I started this thread over 3 years ago.
Back then it was easy for me to look at cocks and fantasize sucking them.
But I always managed to look at naked women too. Even though I had stopped fantasizing about actually having sex with them.

But the male body repulsed me. Men kissing repulsed me. Men fucking repulsed me.

I am proud - no not proud, a little scared, and a little shocked, - to say, I have recently had two very intense masturbation sessions where I only looked at gay porn. Guys kissing, fucking, assholes, pecs, powerful legs...
Instead of fantasizing about men fucking my wife and me watching and maybe sucking them, I am fantasizing about a man fucking my asshole while another fucks my mouth.

It has taken me a long time to get to this point.
Not sure how far I want to continue down this path, but I think I need to suck a cock soon.

I don't know that you wouldn't do better to find a real man to use you. Throw yourself in the water rather than acclimate yourself inch by inch. A coward dies a thousand times. Maybe that's what attracts you. All those little deaths.

I only look at gay pron. My sex life consists of looking at gay porn and spending 45 seconds in the bathroom with Rosie. My ONLY sex is masturbation and I always cum in less than 60 seconds. If I don't make it in under 60 seconds, which is next to never, then I stop and deny myself. I jack-off about once every 5 weeks. I love to deny myself. Longest I ever went without an orgasm was when my wife was into playing and she helped me go without cuming for 2 years and 8 months. Mostly she helped keep me orgasm-free for periods of 6 -8 months. We've been married for 24 years and she has been losing some interest lately. I am trying to spark her interest in helping me go for 5 years with no orgasm. She has shown some interest when I mentioned going 5 years. She was surprised that I wanted to go that long and asked if I wanted to make it permanent by getting castrated. We both agreed to discuss castration further. Both of us are definitely interested in making it permanent.

Since the last post I have been to the glory holes twice with no real success.

Then yesterday, on a whim, I went to my favorite ABS.
It took a while but finally a cock through the hole. And I was ready.
I gave him a condom. Sorry, I know not erotic.
I sucked 100% of what came through the whole, and I sucked hard, up and down.
He pulled back and just barely gave me the tip, which I licked. As he gave me more I first licked and then sucked it. Finally he put it all through and I licked it all. Just when I was starting to wonder how long I would be sucking he pulled away again. Took me a moment to realize he had come.

It was time for me to leave, but with a smile on my face.

4 years after starting this thread I can say it works, you can train yourself with porn.

Congrats!!

I also want the same situation

Piemme30
Piemme30

Congratulations sudsycat!

You know that they say it takes 90 day for something to become habit and 10,000 hours for someone to become an expert. So I suggest you pick-up the pace of your gloryhole visits. Put 'em the calendar like a workout or a job meeting so you can protect the time and make sure you get to it regularly.

You'll be an expert cocksucker before you know it!
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

Thank you.

Gosh, I love this thread!

Last month I was traveling on business through Idaho.
Stopped and an ABS in Boise.
I was hot and sweaty and not dressed as a sissy, but I got a handful of ones and headed for the booths.
A cowboy watched me go back there and entered my booth in short order.
Tight jeans and a big trophy buckle had me on my knees and rubbing his crotch as soon as he entered.
I took him out and started sucking right away.
He was big and not too thick and I worked hard trying to take all of him.
I was sucking and gaging and trying to get it all in.
He pinned my head to the wall and started fucking my mouth.
The booths were advertised as 5 minutes for a dollar.
Each time the video stopped I would take a quick breath and put in an other dollar.
It was very clear who was dominate, and paying for his video pleasure (I couldn't see the screen) added to my **********.
I sucked him non stop (except to lick and suck his sweaty hairy balls) for 25 minutes.
He didn't seem any closer to coming.
My knees hurt, me lips were chapped, my throat was sore, I was covered in sweat.
I started to feel more like I was being raped and I needed to leave.

Much to my *********** and shame I must confess that I stopped, thanked him, and started to leave.
He started to try to talk me into anal and I fled.

I drove about 2 more hours, checked into a hotel, put on some pantyhose and jerked off.

That was the worse most painful sex I have had in my life and the best sex I have had in years.
I need to go back soon.

I want to keep this thread alive for all of us cuckold married guys that have turned gay. I have talked with several homo cucks so I know that I'm not alone. I exclusively view only gay porn. It's the only way I can get off. I am very uncomfortable seeing a nude woman. My spouse knows this and she keeps herself covered when she's around me.

So let's hear from the cucks that are jerking off to gay porn. And for all of the "bi" cucks that are fluffing the wife's lover and are permanently denied sex with the Mrs ... you are now a homo.


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^ This last part seems presumptuous to me. Once you're a cuck and have given yourself wholly to your superiors - your Wife and her Bull - I don't think that you have a right to a sexual identity of your own. you are what they say you are, not what some cuck on-line says you are.

I am sucking cock about once a month now at the ABS.
This is not directly sexually satisfying.
I don't want others to touch my clitty, and I don't touch it.
One guy wanted to kiss me on the lips, grossed me out, a sure sign I am submissive sissy, not gay.

Typically I go in and strip down to bra and panties.*
A guy will join me in the booth.
I ask to suck him.
I suck, he cums and goes.

Last week I had only a little time.
No one was coming in.
The guys I saw through the buddy glass on one side, and the glory hole on the other, were too dirty, smelly and ragged for me to encourage them.
Then one guy came in, very fat, didn't want to encourage him much either.
He told me that I was going to walk down the hallway of booths to the big one on the end in my bra and panties.
I said yes sir and did it.
I gave him a lap dance, he fingered my virgin ass.
He gave commands I said yes sir.
He said he was going to go find someone for me to suck and to wait for him.
I waited 10 minutes, but as I said at the start I didn't have much time.
I had to leave before he came back.

Can't wait for the next time.

*Bra, panties and body stocking, actually. The body stocking is sexy and hides my hairy man body.

my gf at the time started me down this road, slowly weened me off straight porn, then sissy and shemale porn, then to gay porn only. I was 100% straight when i started this, but now 3 years later in which i have only cum to gay porn, i know changes have happened. when i have a sex dream it is always with a man. about a year ago i stopped using my hand to get off and have used dildos and vibrators only, she even had me name my dildos guy names, and has me say their name when im fucking myself with them, i think thats when the changes started more quickly, most of the time now i cum completely soft almost like a woman. one of the truest tests is when i see a big hard cock now my mouth actually starts watering and i instinctively start to lick my lips, most of the time i dont even notice at first. Like i said before this started i never had any gay thoughts or had ever watched gay porn, so there has got to be something to this reconditioning. i thiink i might be to the end of reconditioning because, the last several times i was with a girl i couldnt even get hard and i never had a problem with ed before adn the times i have sucked a cock i was rock hard. its a little scary knowing that this may have changed my sexuality forever
justin mathewson

It really works.

Through the exclusive viewing of gay porn I have learned to adore the Male form and I am obsessed with the magnificence and beauty of the Cock. I now have no desire for women and I now find the sight of their privates to be somewhat repulsive and a total sexual turn-off. My wife thinks it's comical that I have been turned completely gay and she really loves me being pussy-free. She uses my homosexuality as her perfect rationale for cuckolding me and maintaining an active sex life outside of our marriage.

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sudsycat
1 I'm with you all the way. Aren't cocks adorable. I only cum when I cabin sere a cock!
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Slutwifes_bihubby
6. Per toy and beautifully said!I love smelling cock and ass hair!
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sudsycat
sudsycat
71. That happened to me. I was sucking so hard and swallowing sweet preCUM, I didn't even realize he had cum and Inloved it all. I feltt s9npr o ud Inwal j Ed out o f the booth knowing I had a strangers cum in my stomach. What a thrill.
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Jeanne and girlfriend Jess
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I think it was always in me. Had a couple of gay experiences, but always loved pussy. So was straight for a loong time, until my wife and I discovered interracial porn. I always thought it was just the contrast of the black dick and white skin. Then got my wife a black dildo, and loved to fuck her with it. Then I would fuck her after and she would tell me she couldn't feel my baby dick. When we split, she left the dildo behind and I would just pull it out and hold it thinking of fucking her with it, while watching interracial porn.
Then I found... Sissy ***** Porn... okay, this is fun, but no way this is *****tizing me, I thought. Before I knew it, I was sucking that dildo, and then, fucking myself with it. Old memories came flooding back... had a girlfriend just out of college, that started with a back rub, then butt rub with oil, then a finger, and pretty soon a strap on in my ass.
So I would fuck myself to sissy porn, but hurriedly put everything away and swear it off, feeling guilty.
Then I figured out what the "popper" videos were, and picked some up. That was it. I went ballistic for that black dildo on poppers. I bought another one, bigger. I was screaming "I LOVE BLACK COCK!" while fucking myself to numerous ***** videos, with sissies getting anally fucked, gangbanged, and peed on.
And now, I cannot come without my ass being filled with a dildo or a cock. I'm a girl 24/7, and proud of my tiny clitty, and my ability to take not just big, but huge dildos in my sissy fuckhole.

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