Training Myself With Porn

I credit my Femdom Mistress for turning me first to bi and now to gay. It took about five years and it was done gradually with more cooperation from me as time progressed. I had worn panties on my own and she encouraged this and reading/viewing both femdom and sissy porn. I gradually got more and more interested in sissy and gay. She was happy when i found a gay Dom and has encouraged me to play with him on my own. The turning point came when she dressed me as a sissy and took me to a Bi male dom and had him face fuck and anally fuck me; i loved it! Now while i still have a serious interest in Femdom play and torment but i also now have largely turned to sissy and gay porn.

I think the transition from an interest in panties through femdom presentation to bisexual play and eventual gay presentation is quite natural and common but the key for me was finding an Femdom Mistress with an interest in turning male subs into gay submissives.

I thank her for doing this and allowing me to be what i was destined to be. I also thank my gay Master for competing the transition.

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warren

I am more of a sissy, and more into gay porn than before.
Thank you all for the help and encouragement.

Out in the world I still look at women's bodies, and ignore men's bodies.
I am ready to suck a cock again. Soon I hope.

Hubby is now 110% homosexual and we BOTH love it. Tuning her was both interesting and very satisfying. If I didn’t permisterally whiteness the transformation, I wouldn’t believe that it could be done. It was fun taking a reamisterably ‘normal’ white boy and in a matter of several years of training, ending up with a faggot queer for a spouse.

How is everyone's training going? Are you all still following Anna Malice?
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

Looks like they are more occupied with sucking cock than to write more here

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A cuck to my GF - A bull to all other women

actually I have had major progress in realizing my and accepting my submissive and sissy nature. I have been sucking alot of cocks as of late and watching the self magic porn has really helped me more than i can explain. I no longer ize of cock means lessworry about being gay or a fag, I have come to realize its just my place and i really like sucking cock and swaliowing cum. the guilt I used to feel has faded away almost completly and I am much more open about wanting to suck cock at the porn shop i visit. I even approach othe men in their vooth and play with their cocks and drop to my knees,,I used to always wait till i was offered a cock..now if i see a nice one as i am cruzing the shop i go for it. after all if i dont someone else might get to it before me and i dont want to miss out on a load.
Size of cock means less to me lately as well, i really like a big one shoved down my throat but smaller ones need love too Not many people know about mysex life, I guess the next phase will be letting the cat out of the bag to some who are close to me. In the meantime i will suck and swallow away.

Congratulations on your progress wimp_cuck; there is nothing more powerful than self-realization.

I was wondering, do you have a wife or girlfriend or female who has partnered (or witnessed) this transformation or is it strictly DIY?
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

Iwas married twice, first for abot 3 yrs, 2nd for nearly 20. both wives cucked me but my second really got into it. I have been single for some time now with a variety of g/fs. most figure my nature pretty quick since i am such a nice guy who puts up with everything...lol i have a semi girlfriend now, she hangs out w me but dates whoever she wants as well while i am loyal to her alone. She does alot of kissing and hugging with her lovers when i am around and she knows it makes me nuts...lol. her lovers really enjoy all the affection and fondling of her in front of me. As far as my serious cocksucking, that is mostly myself since it has become so prominent in my life.it has developed pretty quck in recent months. fairly good for a catholick boy....lol

Just want to add my two cents: porn works! It can and will change you.

Thanks for the background, wimp_cuck. Not to be intrusive, but can I ask why the marriages ended?

dicklet - amen to that my friend. It sure does. I wonder if I had known or believed that when I started if I would have gone along.
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

I have not sucked any cock since this post.
I have been looking at gay porn, but I look at straight, sissy, cuckold porn too.

I have had a few public offense outings. Buying lingerie, showing my undies to strippers...

My wife continues to deny me intercourse and most other sexual contact. And I thank her.

first marraige was hs sweetheart...we never should have married..we did lot of things with other couples but we were both too young and we went our own ways..we both remarried and each lasted alot longer. My second marriage lasted over 19 nyrs...lots of great sex..kids..parties..some swinging and lots of cucking. My wife really liked to get high,,didnt matter on what, *****, haves, pills etc. neat the end all she wanted was to stay high, she was in multiple rehabs but to no avail. up until the final couple trs the sex was for the record books, if she could have backed off getting high we would still be together and I would worship the ground she walked on everyday.

Ive be watching lots of sissy porn and visiting Annamalice blog almost every day...this morning I went to a porn shop after i showered and shaved all the right areas, snugged up my cock ring, and put on my new thong panties too. I was playing with myself for about 20 minutes when a younger heavily tattood man approached my booth with a nice big bulge in his pants. he saw the was i was dressed..or undressed..lol and began rubbing himself just inches from my face. I felt myself getting flush and I looked directly at his growing tent. He unzipped his pants and out sprang a beautiful long cock, semi erect and heading toward my mouth. I knelt before him and gently kissed and licked the pulsing head. He adjusted his pantes and more of his cock escaped its confines. i began to suck on his cock and rub and pinch my own nipples like a little sisy and my limp dicklette dangeled from my panties. he was moaning and rocking his cock in my mouth, I kept taking more cock each time he pushed, he held my head to see how much cock I could take..he was delighted when I began to gag but kept allowing him to power deeper into my throat. he finally made it completly down my throat before he allowed me some relief and time to breathe. we worked out an unspoken rythem..while I was catching my breath he would jerk his cock into my mouth and all over my face, as soon as I recovered he would make me deep throat him again as he pumped my throat..this went on for several minutes and I could tell he was getting ready to make me take his cum..he pulled out one last time and stroked and rubbed his cock all over my face and lips as he was moaning all the louder. He shoved his long thick cock back into my mouth and firmly grasped and held the back of my head..pushing all of his cock deep into my throat and holding it there as he firmly rocked his his,,i felt the veins in his cock enlarge and his cock and balls brgan to pulse and i felt warmth flowing down my throat to my belly. he finally pulled out before I ****** and squeezed the last few ropes of his load into my waiting mouth..I swallowed and sucked every last sperm from hih cock...he didnt even have to wipe his cock...I actually sucked him dry. We both sorta laughed as he zipped up and left me kneeling there playing with my nipples and rubbing my dicklette like a little sissy fag.

nothing like feeling a big cock swell in your mouth then explode, mmmmm sissyfag heaven.

Iv been slowly moving from streight to cuckold to shemale videos and pretty much need gay videos to get me off. I just tried to watch a Skin Diamond video for a quick wank but I just couldn't get it up for SUCH a beautiful girl. From there I switched to some man on man porn and was hard in seconds. I especially am aroused by the "bottom" man having a hard cock while sucking or getting fucked. It's so hot to watch them turned on with dick in them!

Sometimes I'll look at some young(ish) looking girls like Leah Luv fucking some confident dominate black guy with a buautiful huge black cock but in my heart of hearts I just wish I were the girl.

Since my last post above I've realized that women have become even less attractive to me. I only get off and stay hard with a dildo in me somewhere. I need to finally give in and get real dick.

I was pretty much the same. I went from straight porn to shemale porn to crossdresser porn to MMF porn and now gay porn is all I jack off to.

I think I've always thought I was bisexual (and obviously tried to suppress the bi side), but the more I explore my sexuality, the more I realise I'm almost entirely homosexual. It's men I crave, men I fancy, men I want to date. Girls can still turn me on, but where previously I needed a girl involved to keep hot, now I need a fit guy or two at the centre of things or I'm only semi-erect.

Honestly, there is an exquisite pleasure in slowly coming out to close female friends of yours - confiding in them about your true sexual orientation... Then having excited chats and coffee breaks to discuss boys you fancy, etc!!!

Anyone else using porn to wean themselves away from sex with women and using gay porn to train yourself to become a homosexual? This should be the goal of all white cuckold hubbies. Cuckold hubbies have no business having sex with females. NEVER!

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Great hot story, wimp_cuck, thanks for sharing this experience. This kind of encounter is an excellent way to train yourself over. A couple of months ago my wife had a "do" in the next state (nothing sexual -hobby related.) She had me come with her. What I didn't know was that she had researched gay glory-holes/cruise sights on the Internet. She drove me to a peeps place, instructed me to find a glory hole and suck off as many cocks as I could, then gave me a wad of bills for the video drove off. I didn't even know what town I was in. She came back four hours later to pick me up. by which time I had sucked seven guys. (I also snapped their cocks with my cell as proof to her.) Last weekend she had a repeat in the same place and so did I. (I only had five guys this time, but one come back later and had me suck him a second time.) The first time she picked me up, she called my cell phone and had me meet her out front, but this time she came in to get me and chatted with the manager. He was surprised by the whole situation, but amused. She took his email and said I would send him notice next time before we came.

The whole thing has been very hot but also very bizarre. In the past my wife has been very negative on glory holes for health reasons, but she doesn't seem that concerned now. She also won't talk about it. She didn't tell me either time that I was going there (although I had a feeling the second time) and she won't talk about it after we leave. (She never even looked at the cell pictures that first time.) The only time she has ever mentioned it was twice when she was edging me, and she won't talk about it or answer questions otherwise. The whole weird mystery is hot!
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

I followed a similar path, albeit with some help. It started for me with FemDom movies and video. Soon I was zeroing in on feminization, she-males, and strap-ons. I had limited resources and limited Internet access in those days, so I went for the most extreme as a strategy to stretch my money and increase "bang for the buck." Soon f-o-r-c-e-d gay stories and scenes were tempting me. With my wife taking me firmly in tow, straight porn was banned. Then anything without she-males or strap-ons. Then anything with a biological female. Then she weaned me from she-male to good looking masculine top guys. From there it was steps to a wider array of guys. twinks, jocks, different races, etc. (she even let me bring she-males back in, as long as I also included trannies.)

These days she is working on two fronts. In the first place, she says I need to accept that I am a complete gay whore, so she mostly exposes me to scenes involving really unattractive (to me) guys like really fat guys, weird red-neck geeks, etc. She is careful with this because she says the goal is to make sure that I come to them but still find it repulsive. She does that in part with the second front. She says I need to accept that I am a total slave for guys, so she has slowly ratcheted up the extremeness of the the domination and vulgarity in the porn to get me past any resistance and make me turned on by it. She has said that ultimately the depravity of the act should make me hot no matter who or what the (cock-bearing) partner is and the gayness should make me ready for any depravity as long as it is with someone with a cock.
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

Anyone else using Gay porn for sexual relief within their marriage?

I love this thread so much.

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I am. I love looking at gay and transgender porn and jacking off. I get so much hotter and harder than I do when fucking my wife. I love looking at cock and thinking about sucking it and taking it in the ass. I so want to be a gay sissy faggot!

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That’s a huge part of your problem. As a gay sissy faggot you have NO business fucking your spouse. How dare you. I’m surprised that you can even achieve an erection in the presence of your spouse let alone an erection strong enough to have intercourse with her. Stop it. Intercourse with a wife is the job of a Real Man, namely her Lover. It is most certainly not something that a wimp faggot hubby should ever be allowed to attempt. As a married male, your job is to suck the cocks of Real Men. You’re too much a gay faggot to ever be heterosexual so that makes you homosexual. Acknowledge it, admit it, embrace it, and live it. Leave the heterosexuality to your spouse and her Lover.

I find our sexuality to be the most fascinating aspect of being a sissy. I always believed a permister was born either gay or straight and had no real say in the matter. You are what you are. Maybe you lived in denial either physically or mentally or both but deep down a permister knew. Now I'm not so sure. College years showed me how much more experimental women could be with their sexuality than most men. I include myself in all of that. I had threesomes with women but would never had considered it with another man. It wasn't that I was anti gay. I was just so positive that I was straight.

I've always been a submissive and always like female domination but kept it mostly a secret. All my relationships eventually ended when I pushed the limits too far. I stumred into an awareness of the sissy and chastity lifestyle pre internet and have never been able to erase it from my mind. In fact it just grew and grew and grew.

Would I have been satisfied with some level of female domination had I not found my first issue of 'Slave Piercing'? If the seed wasn't planted for male chastity and total control would I have still conjured up what seemed unimaginable at the time?

I've gone from believing I could never touch another man, to thinking of nothing else. I have not had sex with my wife in over a year, almost two since I've successfully ejaculated with her. My ass craves cock, my mouth waters at the mere thought of sucking a cock. I know my place.

And now I think I too was born this way. So what is a choice and what isn't?

Nicely said!
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

Wow! My journey exactly. I have also often wondered what would have happened had I never found "Slave Piercing." That magazine changed my life.


Yes, that is where I am too (except that it is now over 11 years since I've fucked my wife.)
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

Me too. Found my first copy of Slave Piercing in Las Vegas one night on a road trip and couldn't believe what I'd found, it was like stepping through the looking glass, my world just about blew up. At first I couldn't think of anything else. Lost my first girlfriend to my need to keep pushing her limits and try and learn where mine might be. I have to be honest, I fought the urges hard. I was in an endless cycle of girlfriends, fetish and failures. I would purge myself of all I'd collected: magazines, toys, videos, clothing, heels, make up, wigs etc . . ., And then I'd start all over again. Once I knew the world existed, I couldn't go back and pretend like it didn't.

I'm only speaking for myself here, but once I accepted I'm a sissy, and it is hard, everything else just starts to fall in place. I began to understand and accept my place and what I am. I imagine it to be like when a permister accepts that they're gay. I know fucking is for real men and women to do in any possible combination they chose. The only fucking I will ever be part of is if I'm ever fortunate enough to be fucked. That is my place. My cock belongs in a chastity device. I can still remember the absurdity of that idea when I first learned of it from Slave Piercing and how now I accept and crave it as my natural state.

Totally "been there, done that." It is truly astounding how the path of my life has been shaped by this need!


Unfortunately, for me that was only half true. It certainly made many things easier when I stopped trying to fight it, repress it, hide it, etc. I was comfortable, more confident, and lost much of my self-recrimination. But two things continue to haunt me some: My regrets for the wasted time and opportunities before I accepted my sissy self, and sadness at the loss to others - like my wife and friends - of the limits of what I can be for them. My wife, for instance, knew I was a sissy when we married. But I don't think - despite my honesty - she fully grasped at first what it would mean over time. And while we have built a very happy life, I often feel guilty for the things she doesn't have that she might if I had been the man I (and everyone else) thought I was instead of the sissy I truly am. I know there is nothing for it and it is just the way life is, but it still hurts sometimes.
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.