Training Myself With Porn

When I realized I was a cuck I slowly stopped fantazing about funking a woman when I viewed porn.
Now, if I see a picture of a woman's pussy, I imagine myself eating it, and sucking out any cum.
If she is bending over, I am kneeling and kissing her ass.
If she is displaying her tits, I am standing before her in my panties being laughed at.

I am working now on only looking at cocks when looking at sex pictures.
If she is sucking a big cock, I am not seeing her tits or face or ass, only the cock.

When paging through porn pics today, If there is a cock I will look at it and stroke.
If the next pic is a woman I will stop stroking.
Instead I will punish myself for looking at a woman I don't deserve by squeezing my balls or teasing the tip.

How do other sissies view porn?

sudsycat
I'm right there with you. I love looking at porn now and thinking i'm the bitch sucking the cock or taking it in the ass. When i see a hot thick cock pounding a hot ass or pussy i think about sucking the cock clean and cleaning the ass and pussy of cum.

My wife trained me for the past year, I have only been permitted to look at GAY porn, no cuckold porn with women. The only porm with women has been CBT, Chastity or women pissing on submissive men. I now can only cum watching GAY porn and my little cock never gets fully erect and will not keep the erection it gets for more than a minute at a time. By doing this and feeding me birth control my wife has turned me Gay (of course I have always loved men anyway) and ruined my sissy little cock and now we are both happy and proud to admit it...
I have finally decided to take control (total) and have sissy in panties daily lock sissy in her CB 6000s for good. No more feeling sorry after a few weeks and no more giving into her pleas for mercy! Welcome the NEW MISTRESS!

lucky

lucky

sudsycat, soon you will find cocks to be just as attractive -- if not more so -- as pussies.

You will gaze upon them and be mesmerized by their sheer beauty and strength. You will be stunned by what that strength and power represents: raw masculinity. And your own little penis will twitch and ache with the desire to rub those beautiful cocks all over your face, to smell them, to taste them, to feel their weight.

Keep looking at cocks, sudsycat. The more cocks you stare at, the sexier they become, and the more you want them for yourself. Soon you will be speechless at the very sight of a thick, powerful cock of a real man. You will want nothing more than to pleasure those wonderful, lovely cocks with your mouth. You will want to feel their thickness filling your mouth. You will ache to be filled with their sweet sperm.

You will notice their balls as well, and how sexy they are, how they look as though they're just full of sweet cum, and you will want to rub their silky sacs on your face, your tongue licking, tasting. You will want to inhale deeply the scent of a real man, a sexy man, a masculine man.

Gaze at those magnificent cocks. They're so perfect! So elegant. Are your favorites the ones that are perfectly straight, or curve upward a little, as though presenting that delicious sweet spot for your hungry, fluttering tongue? Notice how their sexy pubic hair perfectly frames them. You want to hug their legs and bury your face in that sweet crotch, smiling with contentment.

sudsycat, you're going to be such a good girl. Aren't cocks wonderful!

My wife used porn as part of my training. From early on she had me switching to gay porn. For the last nine years at least the only porn with pussy I ever get to see is some of the caps here on Cuckold Place (I try to avoid them, but some of the threads have diverse pics.)

I think I can attest to the fact that this method has potential. My wife combined it with regular dildo sucking, "confessions" and begging, and the strict rule never to orgasm without plug or dildo up my ass. Although man-on-man sex had appeared very, very rarely in my sexual fantasies before we met, it now makes up all of it - including sex dreams I sometimes wake from in the morning! When woman appear, including my wife, it is in supporting roles as dominants and witnesses to my offense. I really almost never fantasize about sex with woman anymore.

This completeness has come in the last year or two, but slowly evolved as she reprogrammed me through the years. And there are downsides to it. Just a few years ago we both knew the delight of having me frustrated by her denial of sex to me, by the agony of my being horny for her - or other women - but knowing I would never get to act on it or consummate it again. Also, by then she had already "outed" me to many of our friends and family and it was humiliating beyond belief to have all these people - females I was attracted to included - believe I was gay (and I had to be careful to ensure that they never doubted) when I wasn't.

(There was also a bond of intimacy in that my wife and I shared the secret of my hetero-ness. There is nothing like a shared secret, but in our case we had gone from the secret that I was a submissive kinkster while publicly vanilla, to being public about that and sharing the secret that I was neither as gay as or as perverse as we pretended.)

Now that I seem to have accepted what had been an act as reality, (and honestly, this was not a conscious thing. As much as it was deliberate, I never really thought I would eventually be gay "inside") this agony, taunting and double life stuff is less potent for us. (When she taunts me about not being able to get hard for girls anymore, it is true and so a bit less fun for either of us.)

Of course, since she hasn't needed me sexually in some years, it is not a big thing for her. I have my inflatable "husband" (a male-blowup doll) I get to come with, and a few masters whose cocks and bodies I get to service without (my) orgasm. She has her boyfriends and the sympathy of family and friends. It is an unusual marriage, but it works.
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

MrsBlackBlowupDoll


My wife and I are out to a select few friends, although we haven't yet revealed me being totally GAY yet, except to one of my co-workers who we have done some swinging with. That woman LOVED the confession, and a few others we chat with on the web also wished that their sissies and cucks could be turned GAY. Turning me out to all of our friends has always been a fantasy of mine and although my erections dont happen like they used to I still get very turned on by the thought of everyone knowing I am GAY and my wife needs Men outside our marriage to sexually please her. She is a little more reserved about outing me because she fears that she will be looked down upon and considered a whore, I differ with her because she needs to go out and meet men because she married a Fag. I would also be left to defend her actions by admitting to being GAY. I have always since a young age loved being with the same sex, I always stole my sisters panties and lingerie, tried it on and pretended to be a girl while useing their dildoes up my tight ass while I stroked to cum in their panties so I could lick and suck them clean. I have always been GAY and now can finally admit it, it feels so nice, Jeanne also feels better knowing the truth that has been avoided and diverted for so long. We are still loving each other, although she is not in love with me anymore she still loves me like her best friend and has stated she will always keep me around for those special little chores only a sissified faggot could accomplish.
I have finally decided to take control (total) and have sissy in panties daily lock sissy in her CB 6000s for good. No more feeling sorry after a few weeks and no more giving into her pleas for mercy! Welcome the NEW MISTRESS!

Thanks to everyone who wrote.
Since writing I have tried to work even harder at only jerking to cocks.
Jerking to cocks is not that "hard" for me, so I have also tried looking at mens bodies, which typically turns me off.

I have increased my punishment for looking at women.
I now slap my balls with a ruler when looking at the women in porn pics.
The hope is to make not want to look at women, instead I think I am begining to enjoy pain. A little. The pain does encourage me to look at men more.

J&GFJ: Your humilation and your wifes domination are a big turn on.
For me, if I was gay there would be no humilation. Nothing wrong with that. I love women so much I love looking at their bodies. But I know I am not worthy so I humiliate myself by looking at men.
I do find cocks attractive, and have sucked a few, but mens bodies turn me off. But with training I find them more attractive everyday.

SL_BH: I am there.

MrsBBD: You are living the dream to the extreme.

Jeane and Girlfriend Jess


I know exactly what you mean. Being "outed" (I use quotes because I wasn't gay) bit by bit was hard, although the thrill of my life. It took some years for my wife to be comfortable going public with our lifestyle at all. She was concerned about the impact on us socially and financially, but also about how people would view her.

One of the things that made it easier for us was that my job is remote. I work from home and see colleagues, almost none of whom live in my home city, only occasionally on trips. This meant that we could be open to friends and family without much risk of my career contacts finding out and the possible financial consequences. But that still didn't address her other concerns.

The whole thing about me being gay was in part the solution to the problem. Initially I wanted just to come out as a slave and cuckold, but she was of the view (probably correct) that our friends and family would fault her for being a bad or wicked wife who had fucked me up or who was treating me badly. Planting in peoples minds the seed of the idea that I was a closet case, and then carefully cultivating their suspicions to confirmation was a way of psychologically shifting the blame in the heads of friends and families. Now I wasn't the poor spouse being cheated on or used by the wanton woman, I was the pervert who pressed her for unreamisterable things or the coward who lied to her to lure her into a sham marriage. More importantly, she become "that poor woman," who suffered from not having the intimacy she was entitled to from her husband, a victim of my perversion or dishonesty.

Not only did most of our friends accept her dating once they were in this frame of mind, many encouraged it. Some of the most vividly painful/hot moments of my life involve learning about, or even seeing, close and old female friends of mine trying to set my wife up with guys. Even hotter was that some of my friends urged her to leave me, either out of righteous anger on her behalf or because it was best for both of us. When she didn't, some did drift away, but most regarded it as a kind of nobility or misguided goodness that just reinpowerd their high opinion of her relative to me.

So we did find a way to shield her from the brunt of the opprobrium and even make her a sympathetic figure. But ultimately there was no way around the loss of social status in the eyes of many people that came with being public and I doubt she would ever have been willing to go so far if she hadn't met someone she was wild about at an opportune moment. Ironically, that didn't work out, but her desire to be public about her relationship with him did get us over a big hump.

Good luck with your own future!
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

So hot, I want to work on only being able to get turned on by looking at hard cocks. I do wish I was some dumb stacked blond like Brittney Skye getting gangbanged quite a bit. I makes me squirm and push myself into my bed, grind my ass into the mattress.

CONCLUSION?

You are not a cuck....you are gay
A cuck to my GF - A bull to all other women

norwegian

I'm jerking off to your post!

How exciting!

Thank you for the encouragement norwegian.
OF course if I was gay I wouldn't have to power myself to jerk to cocks and punish myself for looking at women.
You are right my attraction to men is growing, and I am sure you are not the only one who thinks that makes me gay.

I hope the thought of one more married man turned gay turns you on.

It turns ME on!
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

I'm just so happy when a man gets turned on enough by me to feed me his thick cock and empty his big, full balls in my mouth, I don't care what anyone calls me. If that makes me gay, so be it. But I'd really rather be thought of as female by everyone -- especially sexy, horny men!

Mostly from this site.
Caption threads and the Just Out And About thread contains lots of good IR.
I look for thumbs with men. If there are cocks I constantrate on looking only at the man and the cock. Ignoring the gorgeous woman. Her round breasts, wide open pussy begging to be fucked by his throbing cock. The pussy I desperatly want to eat. But I ignore that.

I've watched hardcore porn for 30 years now. The cum shot is the ultimate of all HCP. So I have been looking at cocks for a long time. I have sucked a few. So jerking to cocks is not that big of deal.

I have always found the rest of mens bodys repulsive.
Especially conpared to women.
So, lately, I have been concentrating on backs, butts, abs and .... lips! while jerking. This was difficult at first, but now we can call it hard and getting harder.
What I am noticing is that these men, Real Men, are as different from me as women are. Not only do their cocks make mine look like a joke, their biceps are bigger than my thighs, their butts are firm and smooth, their abs are hard and flat.

The Just Out and About thread also has lots of great photos of full ripe women proudly displaying their bodies and smiling at the camera. I can't help but open those thumbs. I love women and their curves and damp places so much. But instead of jerking I get the ruler and smack my balls for as long as I am looking at them, imagining them laughing at me. I try to only look at their faces, even though I know they are holding their wet pussy open begging to be fucked by a real man even as they are laughing at me smacking my balls.

If I feel like I need to power myself to look at more men I go to flikr where there are lots of pictures of naked men.

There are lots of Yahoo Groups you can join (email or PM me for a list) where you can find more specific kinds of photos. There's one, for example, which emphasizes the beauty and sexiness of the male butt.

Meantime, I suggest you watch primarily gay porn, if only to save your balls from further harm. If you must watch hetero stuff, check out BDSM which shows little of the woman but lots of hot men and their horny, stiff cocks.

Then keep at that, and soon you will find men far more desirable than women, and want more than anything to be curled up in their strong, muscular arms.

It do not turn me on...but I see the practical advantage for the rest of us...there will be relatively more women on us
A cuck to my GF - A bull to all other women

This thread is such a turn on, when I used to watch porn and loved blow job scenes. I didn't realise when I was young that I was actually watching the cock.

It almost seems silly now but I have always been this way. I love playing with them, wanking them and letting them spurt in my mouth. I'm starting to think like (Jeanne and girlfriend Jess) that I'm a little gay sissy. I did a whole load of captions that were all about me getting fucked by Bulls, taking cock, sucking, takeing lovely Bull cum.

I'm a sissy to a lovely couple (we play online) and they love it because I'm locked in chastity, dressed in frilly panties, wearing a butt plug begging for him to cum so I can clean him up.

I'm such a cock loving gay sissy

xxx
Love & kisses

sissyfagcuck

cuckold, sissy, faggot, cumeater, cocksucker locked in chastity, I love eating Bull cum and creampies, currently taking anal training from select Bulls

Yes, you did. But conditioning held you back from admitting it, even to yourself.



Why, of course you do! What girl doesn't? Enjoy it dear -- and enjoy the very attention those sexy men pay you!



I'm sure I speak for all of us when I say, Let's see them!



You're a good girl. Men are so sexy! Don't be ashamed to admit that, honey. PM me if you ever want to talk.

Yes focus on gay porn to turn us. conect1812@hot....

I can tell you over the years my fantasies have become more and more gay. I have masturbated all my life I think. Before peuberty I had fantasies of being with two girls with nice boobs. Around peuberty, I started having submissive fantasies and liked to kiss girls legs and feet. I did this with my first real girlfriend when I was 18. Then about 24 years old I would be very submissive with my ex wife. We were married 28 years before we divorced and I loved the cuckold fantasy. She didn't like it after our first young was born. Gradually this fantasy became one of wanting to kiss the boyfriend's feet and then later to sucking dicks and getting fucked up the ass. Now all my fantasies involve being submissive to both the wife and the bull. So my fantasies started out completely hetero and now I am just a gay faggot. I never fantasize about fucking a women or a man for that matter. But in these fantasies, my wife is always powering me to be submissive and gay.

I don't think I could reverse the process with porno. Not sure where all the submissiveness came from. Maybe because I was very nervous around girls when I was younger and got rejected a bit.

Thank you connect. Great caps. I like the first 3 the most.

A year later I am no more, or less, gay than I was.
I still beat off to mostly pictures of straight women or straight sex (with a hieghtened awarness of the men involved). I do mix in some gay porn.

I think where there has been improvement, instead of only looking at cocks, I am able to look at and fantasize about the whole male body now.

About to stroke my sissy clit to some hot gay porn as I type this.

It took a while, but now I'm turning myself homosexual pretty well.

Just thought I'd add my experience.

When my wife first started to have affairs with other men, its irrelevant that they were African, I was heartbroken, but I loved her and still love her, so I put up with it and, I have to admit eventualy found it exciting.

Because her lovers were always able to perform sex better than me, my wife became convinced that I must be gay. I was not but she began to insist that I watched a lot of gay porn and of course it was exciting.

She went as far as to set me up on a date with a friend of one of her lovers and he fucked me, it hurt and I was very confused but I have to admit I enjoyed it.

Do I have sex with my wife - no but we have a loving relationship and I wish I was able to satisfy her.

Do I have sex with men - sometimes but I dont seek it - its just when my wife takes it inro her head to arrange something.

Do I use gay porn - sometimes - but I much prefer porn which involves sexy women because although I clearly am gay I still think of myself as straight.

I know this make little sense but I guess life is complicated.
jim

If you are really serious, you need to go to the 'Warp my MInd' web site and download all the subliminal and magictic audios you want that will encourage you to be a faggot, suck cock, and the such.
There are also free programs : 'Subliminal Blaster', Dream Accelerator' that you can run on your PC, loading pictures of cocks and men sucking cocks, that flash up on the screen just long enough to plant suggestions in your mind.
I am straight (or was) and used all these; I am now bi-curious, and crave cocks.
Bluegrass cock

a great blog is Annamalice...sissy self magic...tons of flicks about turning or being a sissy/gay/fag....I love it and watch alot...has helped me realize and accept my nature

Amazing

Well the more i see gay pics themore it love it, contact me if you wish to share these kinds of caps.
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