sissycindylynn
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As I look back upon my life, I realize that I have always been a sissy, even from a very young age.
When I was young, one of my earliest memories was of my parents attempting to teach me to stand to pee, and my fighting them every inch of the way, preferring to sit down, something that still prefer to do. Standing up just felt wrong even back then.
I can remember girls ordering me around, from babysitters, who commented to me that I would've been so much better off being born a girl, to my easily feeling more comfortable taking orders from girls and doing whatever they told me, my being the patient while they were the doctors for example, to admiring and desiring the kind of pretty underwear they we're allowed to wear that I wasn't.
I remember being told by other boys that when playing ball the way threw like a girl, and how much more comfortable it was playing with the girls than it was with the boys, as I didn't have to compete playing ball, and being ridiculed about how bad I was or how afraid of being hit by the ball I was, just like girls back in those days generally were. I recall wearing dressier outfits, in order to go play with the girls, rather than blue jeans many times, so I wouldn't have to play ball and so I just could play with and talk to, virtually be one of the girls.
Having attended an all boys high school, a member seeing girls as something I wanted to be, whom I longed to be near, superior to the males, better than me. I remember being shy, afraid to ask girls out on dates, as most of them were attracted to more macho, masculine types, most of those boys were jerks, but these boys were were the same ones these girls surrendered their virginity tom, an option I was never offered nor denied ever expect.
In so many conversations over the years I've had with females, most of them intuitively knew who and what I was, and treated me like one of the girls. So many times I've heard, "oh don't mind him, just think of him as one of the girls." So many conversations of what might be known as girl talk, never done in front of real men, and so easily done in front of me. So many things women would never do in front of a man, like change their clothes, use the toilet and bathroom, and on and on, myself seen as someone completely nonthreatening to them, certainly not some horny male who might try to take advantage of them. In many moments with females in my life, that would discuss whatever they wanted to this I was viewed perhaps even intuitively as just another one of the girls.
As an extension of all of this, as soon as I came out and revealed to most women of the known in my life my deep and strong desire to be feminized, wear panties, bras, slips, stockings, dresses, makeup, perfume, carry a purse, and generally behave, act and look like any other female, most of these women jumped at the chance to turn into their very own little sister or living Barbie doll. To most of them, I strictly belonged and was in the female part of society.
I can remember having dreams, very vivid and very lucid, looking down at my body and see myself as a female, only to wake up very disappointed.
If it were economically possible, I could easily foresee living the rest of my life in an sissy/submissive/feminine manner.
Even when I've been involved in relationships with women were I've had to play it straight, all I've had to do is to think about the aspects of my life I've written here which allow me to be able to perform and function in a way that will please a woman. Most women I've been involved with in that capacity, have been amazed and delighted how focused and driven I was to fulfill their needs and their pleasure, and how even if they weren't not interested in my sissy aspects, how I am so easily willing to forgo any permisteral gratification to maximize theirs.
Does anyone else here wish to share any insights about their lives and how they feel?
For the women here, do you recall any non-threatening males anf how easy it was for you to treat them as a fem/sissy and how easily you took to it?
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