Sissy Humiliation

My wife made me a cuckold from the days when were first started dating in high school. At the time, I did not know what a cuckold was and had no desire to be one, but there is no mistaking the fact that I have been a cuckold for 25 years now (I am 42 years old now and she is 40). Our relationship has never been like many of those described in this forum. We never both openly admitted the nature of the relationship and she never openly dated other men. She generally would "cheat" and we both knew she was doing it despite her denials ("he is just a friend"). As we got older / married / kids ect. she settled down and I learned what it means to be a cuck, and to crave it. I think that without ever vocalizing it she sensed from the beginning that I was submissive and a sissy at heart and that she needed stonger dominant men for sex, particularly when she was younger.

In the past four years I have tried to live some of my cuck fantasies despite a wife that has settled down to a more routine sex life. One of the ways I have done that is through a series of dominant men that have made me their sissy cocksucker. I have had three such permisters take control of me for various periods of time. I have provided these men with nude pictures - both polaroid and computer - of my wife. These men have made me suck them off while they look through the pictures. I get great satisfaction from coaxing a big load of cum from their cocks while they look at my wife. I know their cum is meant for my wife's pussy, mouth, or big titties. Frequently they discuss how they would like to fuck my wife like the little slut she is while I am sucking their cocks like a whore.

One of my dominant owners would also make me bring my wife's panties, bra, or sexy nighties with me. He would smell them for her aroma and rub them all over his cock and balls. Another of my owners would make me dress in stockings and panties while I serviced him even though I am not even close to passable as a female. My wife is the dominant permister in our relationship and I can never pick or choose lovers for her - she takes them when she decides she wants to. But through these relationships with dominant men I have been able to satisfy my need to service superior men with my sissy submissive talents. I know my purpose is not to satisfy women sexually - I am just not good at it - I am not a real man. But I have been told I am a good cocksucker and believe it is my job to provide sexual services to dominant men that demand them. I would gladly allow them my wife for their pleasure if she were mine to give but for now I will have to be satisfied with this.

We live in Maryland currently. I know others have shared pictures of their wives before but have never seen anyone that took it this far. I would be interested in your comments.