want my neighbor to cuck me

I've posted some fantasy stories here in the past and now really want to have a real life experience. I beleive I'm destined to be a sissy cuck because of my small cock which just can't satisfy a woman.
I have a very hot neighbor who is a single mom that I've known for many years as being somewhat of a gold digger. I think she realized many years ago that she can use her beauty to get what she wants and has dated many rich guys in town that are way older than her. She has the hottest body and is in her early 40's.
Late last summer she started showing interest in me and we actually went out a few times. I really wanted to bring up my desires to her but never did. I wanted to tell her that a woman as hot as her deserves the best of both worlds, a guy that will take care of her (me) and MANY men that will give her what she needs, big thick manly cock. I found myself not wanting to have sex with her but wanting to hear about all the studs that she must have been with, hearing about how she used them just for sex and money. I found myself fantasizing about licking her pussy while she told me these stories and telling me how small and worthless my cock is. I dreamed about the night when I find myself prepping our first hung bull for her, sucking his cock and then guiding him into her pussy and watching as he fucks her like I never could and having her tell me how she loves his big cock. I want to be reserved to standing there jerking my 4 inch clit and finally cleaning his cum from her pussy.
How do I approach this without totally turning her off if she is against it?
mike

If she is the gold digger you say she is, then I think you'll find that she will believe all her prayers have been answered and she will be more than happy to spend your money while she gets fucked by other men.

bull4bbw, thanks for the response. I do feel that she may go for this type stuff, but just have to get the nerve to ask and be able to accept if she says no and thinks I'm a freak...Well, I'm definitley a freak if I want a realationship with a woman but just want her to fuck other men
I'm hoping for a relationship where we can fall in love and get married and respect each other in all ways except for sexually. I want to be able to set up all her encounters for her and then make sure WE ALL get what we want. I want to have everything arranged before hand so when we travel she has a BULL ready for her in the city we stay. If that means she is spending my money then thats perfectly fine with me because beleive it or not, I'll be getting just what I want.
Anyone have any advice on how to proceed?
mike