cuk6974
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I've been lurking for a while, but joined to reply to this post.
I've been a cuck for about 4 years and I suck myself.
I started sucking myself in high school, but I didn't do it a lot. I had 2 sisters and was always paranoid about getting caught. But I would do it from time to time, usually just by sitting on the edge of a chair in my room and bending over while jacking off. I could get a little past my head in my mouth that way. I was about 5'11 and 150 lbs in high school, with about a 7.5" dick.
I went to college out of state I lived in the dorm the first year and didn't do it at all then, but then I moved into my own apartment the next year and... The first night I moved in I didn't really have much, just a bed a desk, a computer and a table and chairs. I was pretty bored and it was really the first time I had total privacy. So I started jacking off that night and then started trying to suck myself. I was a little out of practice, but I decided to try rolling over on my back in bed and I was able to get about half my dick in my mouth and it felt really good. I did it a little and then would take a break and just stroke until I came on myself. But over the next few weeks I started doing it a lot and got to where I could really do it good and then one time I finally came in my own mouth. It was kind of gross but hot at the same time and I started doing that every time and was doing it almost every day at that point.
But then I started seeing a girl and didn't do it so much and then I started staying at her place a lot and pretty much stopped. We saw each other for about a year, but then broke up. I started doing it again, but then got another girlfriend and didn't do it much again and then I got a roommate but stayed at my girlfriends a lot so didn't really do it then. After I graduated I started working and I broke up and started seeing an older woman. Then I moved in with her for about a year and she was pretty freaky and was not exclusive with me. She would see other guys, and we had one threesome with another guy, but I never told her about sucking myself or anything.
Then I decided to move back to my home state and moved back in with my parents for a few months while getting a new job and moved into my own place. I went to some Meetups, this was the early 2000s and met a girl that I started seeing. We went out and we had sex on the first date, which was my kind of girl. She was really hot and also a professional with an MBA. So we started seeing each other and I started staying at her place a lot.
One day we were lying in bed, it must have been a weekend because it was in the daytime, and I think we had just had sex (or we were about to) and she was talking dirty and she said something like, "I wish I had a dick sometimes. It seems like it would be really hot to pound someone." I was like, "Oh really?" And then she was like, "But I like sucking dick so much, if I had a dick I'd want to be able to suck myself. It would be so hot to be able to suck your own dick." I was a little shocked, I'd never heard a girl say anything like that. And then she asked, "Would you suck your own dick if you could?" I could feel myself blushing and I was like, "What if I can?" She was like, "What?! Can you?!" I was embarrassed, but I was like, "I don't know." She was like, "You've done it haven't you?!" And then she was like, "I want to see. Come on, do it." I was pretty embarrassed and I didn't want to really go all in. So I sat on the edge of the bed and bent over and licked my head a little and then sucked it a little. She was saying it was so hot, etc. She got on her knees and started sucking me and then would hold it for me to suck it a little and we took turns and then she got on the bed and we had sex.
After that, though I was really into her and we got more involved and moved in together. I still held back about that, but from time to time she would suck me and then want me to suck myself too. But it never really went beyond that. After being together about 2 years, I proposed and we ended up getting married. We got married in our early 30s and decided to have kids pretty quickly. We had two kinds within our first 4 years of being married, and then out sex life went down hill pretty hard.
Oh, BTW, so my wife is about 5'8". When we got married she was probably about 140lbs, now she's like 180, but with huge tits. I think they are E cups now. But she still looks really good. She's got dark brown hair with light green eyes, huge tits, nice legs, big butt. She looks kinda like Kim Kardashian or Angela White, but no plastic surgery.
When our oldest was 8 we sent both kids to the grandparents for 2 weeks for the first time, which was the first time we'd had time to ourselves since they had been born. So we went out ******** and dancing and things like that and one of the nights we came home and she was pretty ***** and she started crying and we started talking and she said she wasn't happy and having kids was harder than she expected and she missed doing the things she did before getting married, etc. Then she started saying like, "Do you know how many guys I was with before you?" And we had never really talked about that before. I mean I could tell she was freaky and figured she'd been around, but I really didn't know. She told me to guess and I said like 20 and she laughed and was like, "More like a hundred and twenty." I was like, "Wow, really?" And she was like, "I was such a slut, and I miss it." And she told me that she had cheated on every guy she had ever been with except me, because I was the nicest guy she'd ever dated.
So anyway, we started talking about her past and she said she had been afraid to let me know about her past because she was afraid I would leave her, etc. So we talked and I told her I was fine with it, in fact I thought it was hot and it didn't bother me. She had never asked me how many women I had been with, but then she did and I told her 12. We talked about more of her past and she said she'd had a couple threesomes, with both guys and girls, and she'd been with black guys, and older guys, and married men, and one time she had sex with three guys in one day, all separately without them knowing. It was her boyfriend and then a married guy that she had been with before who called her up and then she went out that night and hooked up too. And she said she cheated on one guy with his brother, I mean some fairly wild stuff. But as she told me about it I was getting turned on and I was letting her know and she felt a lot better and said she was glad I wasn't upset, etc.
Not long after that night we started talking about having a threesome with a guy. We tried on-line stuff a couple times but it didn't work out, and then we found an up-scale private sex club, actually she found it, and we went there and she hooked up with a guy the first night. She had a blast and was super excited about it. I joined in, a little, but she was mostly with him. So we went there a few more times and then found a better on-line site that we heard about at the club.
At this point we were going to that club about once every couple weeks, like on a Saturday night, we'd get a babysitter or whatever. And then we started meeting guys on-line and we meet a couple guys and went to a hotel room with them. And most of this time I usually joined in a bit, but kind of more and more I would just watch. We were still having sex ourselves on occasion, too. She also started waxing, which she had never done before. And she loved talking dirty about our experiences. She would always talk about our experience the next day and for several days after, etc. As we talked and were doing stuff on-line, she was introduced to the term "cuckold" or "cuck" and we talked about it, but didn't identify ourselves as being in that type of relationship. I was working from home by then (coding) and was masturbating a lot and I had started sucking myself again. She didn't know that, but I started trying again and couldn't do it at first, but got to where I could again.
But then one Friday night we had a lot lined up. She had made arrangements to see other men for the next three weekends in a row. We had been talking about it so I locked the door knowing we would be fooling around. We were laying in bed talking about all the guys and I was getting turned on and she started saying stuff like, "I can't let you have any. I've got to save myself for him tomorrow. I'm going to be busy for a while, so you may not be able to get any. I'm going to have to start saving my pussy for other men." Then she said, "Maybe you should try sucking yourself since you can't have my pussy." I didn't tell her I already had, but I said I would try. I sat up and bent over and was able to basically kiss the head of my dick, and she was like, "Oh yeah." And then I rolled over on my back, which she had never seen me do before. I was able to suck myself real good then, with about 3 inches in my mouth. I was moaning and stroking and sucking myself and she was watching and masturbating and getting into it. Then I started to cum so I opened my mouth and pulled my dick a few inches away so she could see me squirting into my own mouth and I moaned while I was filling up my mouth and she was really into it saying stuff like, 'Oh yes, oh that's so hot! Yes, fill your mouth up!"
When I had finally finished cumming I looked her in the eye with my mouth open and then I closed my mouth and swallowed. She was like, "Oh my God, I've never seen you do anything like that before." And then she was like, "Now I don't feel so bad about fucking other guys, since you can suck yourself like that." She said, "I like that. Maybe you can just suck yourself so I can save my pussy for other men." I said something like, "Maybe so." We kissed and she was just like, "Wow, I'm so glad you can do that." So the next night we met the guy and went to a hotel. He was really good and they had a great time and I just watched. We talked about it all the next day. Then next weekend it was the same thing. The night before we were getting all worked up and then she told me to lock the door so I could suck myself. She was talking dirty and she started saying stuff like, "I think you're becoming a cuck now. You gonna be my cuck?" I was like, "Mmm hmm." So I started sucking myself and she was talking dirty about me being a cuck and how she was only going to let other men fuck her now, etc. until I finally came in my own mouth again.
This time we were seeing a guy she had been with before. I was just watching, but I was on the bed with them and was holding her hands when he came inside her. I had never cleaned up before, but when he got off of her I just moved right in and started licking her pussy. She was like, "Oh my God. Oh yeah, I like that. Don't stop baby." And she was kissing him while I was cleaning her out. He was like, "Damn."
Not long after she worked a dildo into my ass while we were playing one time and then said she wanted to try using a strapon with me. I agreed and we got one, but we waited until the kids were away and then she tried it on me. I shaved myself real good and got all clean and ready. When I came out of the bathroom she had it on with some lingerie and she had me get on the edge of the bed and she worked it in and really got into it. We changed positions several times and ended with me on my back cumming into my own mouth. She really liked that.
And basically ever since, that's how things have gone. She has gotten super into cuckolding. She got me a cage about 2 years ago and we've gone through a few different ones since then. It's a challenge with kids; we make sure it all stays private and secret, which can be difficult. She encourages me to suck myself and cum in my own mouth. She usually only pegs me when we've got plenty of privacy, but she really gets off on that. She's had several gangbangs now, lots of threesomes. Lots of DP and DVP. She is very into cleanup. She likes to call me her little cum cleaner and her self-sucking cuck. She likes to tell other guys that I'm her cuck. Also, when we meet swinger couples she quickly lets them know that we don't swing because I'm just a cuck. But she isn't into bi stuff. She likes all the attention and likes being the only one who gets cock or gets to fuck me. Several guys have brought up bi stuff or asked about fucking me and she says no. She told one guy that she's the only one that gets to fuck my ass.
I haven't had sex with her since the first night I sucked myself for her. I jackoff pretty much every day, but I only suck myself when I'm with her. We usually masturbate together 2 or 3 times a week, pretty much always with her leading the dirty talk. I don't always suck myself, but usually end up cumming on my own face or in my own mouth when I'm with her. She usually cages me when we are with other guys or when we go to the sex club.
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