Torment of my soul

Long story short, recently sat around the table in the local with my ex lover, her husband, my replacement and my wife. I am the only one who knows she has shagged all 3 men. I love and want her so much, yet can't say a word....(except to her of course). Because everyone involved is 'normal' (no deliberate cucking etc), most of my pain comes from not being able to talk to anyone else. The poo really would hit the fan if word got out.

Married Dom
You are kind of missing the point. My pain comes from her having pushed me away, and now having to watch her socialising with another bloke. I am friends with my predecesor (whom she maintains was purely emotional not physical) and the fun i have keeping him up to date on her exploits without giving away that i have been involved in the meantime....