Controlled and directed masturbation

A bit of a let down, it seems. I still think that you made the right choice. On the positive side, you got laid! At least they kept their part of the bargain, even tho your wife should have realized what this meant to you and maybe spruced herself up a bit.

On a personal note. As time goes by and as I get older, I find myself losing the cuck mindset. While I appreciate the lifestyle that you live, and the fantasy that many of us have, I don't think that I'll ever let a woman treat me badly again.

I like your story and please continue documenting it here.
Thanks!

Just as she's controlled and directed your masturbation habits, so she has controlled your feeble attempt to fuck her as your 'reward'. Yes, you have technically fucked her, but that's it. No pleasure for anyone involved, not even you, and it was a never to be repeated event. I hope it's firmly etched in your memory, because that's very probably it for the rest of your life!

As I'm sure you already know, there are many kinds of cuck relationships. My wife never mistreats me, although I can understand the appeal. How wonderful it would be if she was more into sexually humiliating me.
Faggot Pussy

Thanks once again for all your comments and observations. Looking back you are all right .. not a lot of pleasure for me, and certainly none for my wife! I had such high hopes, building it up in my mind thinking that I would have a wonderful night of making wild, passionate love with her, re-kindling a normal husband/wife relationship and winning her back. How different reality was!

And to cap it all, as he locked my clit cage her bf leant in and whispered in my ear "don't expect to be released for at least 3 months little bo y...from now on you're going to be so frustrated that you'll be dribbling your pathetic cum within seconds of touching your tiny clit".

Well you certainly chose wrong. I'd have gone for the other anyway. And now you have a month of frustration knowing that you could have been having a glorious w*nk or more if you had not made the bad decision.

I realise that now stevenjam12.

But as I say, I got into my silly head that maybe I could "man up" and somehow suddenly perform like a stud and pleasure my wife, have her writhing beneath me in pleasure, having multiple orgasms as I made love to her. Sadly, the reality was as it always was...my pathetic tiny clit doing absolutely nothing for her and me dribbling my cum within minutes of entering her. So now I have nothing to look forward to apart from 3 months (at least he said) of frustration. There is no way I am going to be placed in a position of beating the video ever again, to allow me another chance to enter my wife. Both my wife and her bf will make sure of that, either by denying me my monthly release by extending my time without masturbating and so making sure I will cum quickly or by only allowing me to watch the harder and longer Cock Hero videos. As kennyboy82 said, I have probably had my tiny slug inside a woman for the last time ever.

Oh my! As I have never had my pee pee inside anybody else I can't comment on that but I imagine it will be tough to have only memories of failure. As I have written on another exchange my wife and her current boyfriend allow me to play with my pee pee but only if I have been good and only when they have put me down for the night. They have been kind lately and I shall try to keep in their good books.

Fingers crossed that you are allowed release stevenjam12

Stupid me! Having been in their good books for a good while, I said something stupid and immediately Luke (her boyfriend) said that my privileges were over. I begged him but they both said that I would be punished for at least a month and if my behaviour merited it then it would last even longer. I tried begging again but that just made Luke cross. I should explain : he is only 21 and really enjoys bossing me around. He is big and strong so can easily punish me if I try to resist. I did when he first became her lover but after a few sessions over his knee (to add to the ***********, he treated me as little boy) I realised that I was being stupid. Which is when I started to be a good boy for them.
Now I just face at least a month of early bedtimes (7.30 after I have been bathed) and my pee pee in a CB. And, no doubt, a few sessions over his or her knee.
Just for one little outburst. My stupid mouth!
steven

Oh dear stevenjam12 ... what can I say? I sympathise of course. Another month without release on top of the wait you've already had is (will be) hard for you. Luckily, the longest I've had to wait (until now) has been around 6 weeks and so I'm not looking forward to my current 3 month "punishment".

Your wife having a young lover sounds quite exciting - well, for her at least! No doubt he can last all night when it comes to seeing to your wife. Lucky her! But I guess being dealt with by a young guy is pretty hum1liating for you, especially when you have to go over his knee. How totally emb_arrassing. Good luck!

dear clit-dick
Thanks! yes it is embarrassing to be spanked by him. But that's not all, as you know. They put me to bed when it suits them, and now it is it is to be the bedtime of a boy again. 7.30! and that's AFTER a bath.
But she is wonderful and, to be fair, he is quite a hulk.

Luke has tightened the noose. Now not only do I have a boy's bedtime (though to be fair he has relaxed it to 8.30 most nights) but he has decided that I must ask him ( politely, as he said) if I want to play with my pee pee even in bed. Before, he would simply say that it was permitted on a particular occasion as I was going upstairs. NOW , if I want to have a w**k, I must go to him and ask him if I may. Unless I ask, there is a blanket ban. I haven't yet because I find it so difficult. But I am getting to the point where I need some release and I guess I shall have to humiliate myself.
Any advice would be welcome
steven

I'd say bite the bullet and ask him while your wife is in the room. Otherwise that will be a mental barrier you might have to get over in the future.

Why does she need to be there?

Humilation I'm guessing my friend
Droopy and Miss

On a related topic there is something related to masturbation that I think would be really hot. I like to go in chat here or another forum and show pics of my wife enjoying sex with other men. THis makes me very hard and of course I masturbate as other men see her fucking her lovers. I wish there were a way that they could see me masturbating and watch my cock spurting cum as they see my wife joyfully fucking other men.
Love watching my wife spread her legs and take another guy's bare cock inside her pussy:-)

Luvsub. Is Shankly right? Is it to increase the ***********? Or do you think she might help me as I submit to his will?

Hi stevenjam12 ... I think that having to ask for Luke's permission to masturbate is a natural (and normal) development in your circumstances. It has everything to do with your humili@tion and the increasing level of control being exerted by your wife's lover. How (deliciously?) embarrassing for you to have to politely ask this young man if you can touch and rub your tiny pee pee. No such problem for your wife's well hung young stud. She is probably touching him and caressing his cock at every opportunity. A loving squeeze of his package showing how hot she is for his manly cock.

I'm sure he will have discussed this latest means of controlling your masturbation with your wife and whilst I may be wrong I'm betting she agreed without hesitation. No doubt they discussed it after a long bout of sex, as they both laid in your marital bed, relaxing after she had had many orgasms and after he had pumped his thick, youthful sperm deep inside her. They would both have laughed at the idea.

You will have to give in. There is no use fighting it. As the days without release add up you will have to pluck up the courage to ask Luke. Let us all know how you get on.

Dear clit _dick
Thank you so much for taking the trouble to discuss my situation. I think you are right and that I shall have to pluck up the courage and ask him if I may play with my pee pee. I am near bursting point now and it will obviously get worse not easier. He is coming this evening after work so that may be the time to do it. Although he is younger, he is already very clearly the Man of the House and I have to be a good boy for him. Of course he may not agree but I shall try to be really careful. Keep your fingers crossed for me.

Did you ask? Did Luke give you permission?

Hi, sorry for my late reply Stevenjam12.
I see a future where you may have to ask both him and her. If you ask in front of her to start, you may be better able to.

Gay.


You love this sh1t! What did you reasonably expect to happen? You are happy with the result. Admit it! If they gave you another chance, you know right well that this same thing will happen. Stick with rigidly controlled masturbation, ruined orgasms and sexual denial. It's your kink of choice!
..............PSEUDO PERSON...YMMV!

Hi I_A_S_P and once again thanks for taking the time to read and comment.

To be honest, I suppose I should have reasonably expected to orgasm seconds after entering her but in the excitement of knowing that I was finally going to be allowed to put my clit into my wife's pussy after so many years of being denied and having to only feel my hand wrapped around my tiny appendage at the time I truly believed that I would be able to perform. I truly believed that I would rise to the occasion (in so many ways) and prove to her that I would be able to give her everything that her boyfriend and previous lovers had. OK, so I was delusional and I was being totally unreasonable in my expectation. But was I happy with what happened? No I was not. I was mortified that as soon as I pushed in and felt her pussy rub along my tiny shaft then my balls tightened and my watery cum came dribbling out.

You are right that no doubt if I was given another chance to enter my wife then the same thing would happen, but if I ever got that chance (which I have to say is highly unlikely) I will no doubt once again think that I would be able to control myself.

And so whilst no necessarily my choice, I am resigned to the fact that my only pleasure will be through masturbating, using my hand, being controlled and directed by my wife and her boyfriend.

A good description of life for many cuckolds! You do have a choice. You describe a lust that so many cuckolds love to hate! All enjoyment you can get from your current situation is cool! This is a popular kink!

You go wrong because you mix things up! There is absolutely no good reason to take any sh1t from your wife or her lover! You are letting them exclusively sex each other at your own expense! Your cock size has nothing to do with any important thing! Genitals don't make a man desirable. Daniel, Shadrach, Meshach and Abednigo didn't have so much as one testicle among all four of them! Yet, any one of them demonstrated that they have more "balls" than I do! Quit letting cock size allow your wife and her lover to sh1t all over you! THAT is your real problem! Stop entertaining them by acting like a clown by wanking to stupid videos. So you love having a cheating wife! Many other husbands enjoy the same type of wife, so you are certainly not alone in your kink!

It is time for you to collect your thoughts, devise a plan and then have the Talk with both wife and lover. Stand up for yourself and declare that you will no longer let them push you around anymore! Even if her lover beats the living sh1t out of you, the end result is that you and your wishes will be treated with respect! Cock size means zero. It is time for you to tell both of them to go and fuck themselves! You are a man and henceforth will not allow yourself to be pushed around anymore! I guarantee you will feel much better about yourself! When you address this issue with them then stick to your guns and don't wimp! It is time for you to score a big win here! You know that you can do it! Nothing is stopping you but yourself!
..............PSEUDO PERSON...YMMV!

Clit dick, thank you for sharing your story with us. Personally, I believe you made the right choice.

Of course you didn't magically turn into a stud in that instance. But I know it was worth the one-time opportunity to be allowed to penetrate your wife and come while you were inside her. I would have made the same choice.

I think that the reason you managed to go 40 minutes without coming to the video is you had experienced the much deeper humil iation of having to do it in from of your sister and her husband. Not once, but twice. I think that's why going back to what the "typical" stuff was before had so much less excitement for you.

I have to wonder what incentive your wife and her boyfriend will come up with next. If you want to survive the next 40 minute time and claim whatever the next reward will be, just keep the image in your head of the times when you had to do it in front of your sister and her husband. Your wife might get an unpleasant surprise again.

xoxoxo

Christine (a sissy cuckold)

I chickened out and didn't ask him. My frustration grew and grew but I simply couldn't bring myself to ask his permission. That lasted a couple more days. Then disaster!! I had been sent to bed at my usual little boy's time. This time it was 7.30. He grinned as I said good night to them both and went off to my room. I crept into bed and lay there feeling crazy with frustration but still afraid of what it meant to ask his permission.
Eventually, I fell asleep. Don't ask me how given the way I felt but I did. And it was while I was asleep that the disaster struck.
I had a wet dream.
You all know what I mean by that. The white stuff came, uncalled for and unannounced. But it came. Ans it made one hell of a mess of my PJs. They make me wear PJs with cartoons and short trousers, just like any ***** does. And now I had PJs which were messed up. I knew that I was in deep trouble.
I had a fitful night from then on knowing that I would be punished. And sure enough next morning they saw what had happened. He of course did not believe (or said he didn't believe) me when I said that it was a wet dream that "just happened in the night.
"He needs a good thrashing" he told my wife "for such disobedience." She, of course, agreed. And that is what I was given. Her hair brush. His powerful muscles. My poor backside. This was the combination. My bottom came off worse. He really gave me what's what until I was just a blubbering mess begging for forgiveness (which he said "proved " that I was lying and that I had w*nked or why would I be asking for forgiveness) . After he had given me what he regarded as "enough" he sent me to the corner.
The rest of the day went normally except for the fact that I was in agony but couldn't tell my colleagues at work what was wrong.
And that evening he stood me before him and asked if I had learnt my lesson. "Yes sir" was all I could say. Then, to turn the screw even tighter, he decided that I couldn't be trusted to keep my hands off my pee pee so he bathed me.Then I was put to bed by my wife.
No chance to ask him for permission since then but I shall when the urge becomes as strong as it did last time. No chance of me risking another catastrophe.

Oh dear Stevenjam12 ... thanks for updating us but I'm sorry to hear how it turned out. And how mortifying it must have been to have a wet dream! At your age! Something which is normal for a young teen@ger maybe but for a grown, married man? Maybe next time you will just ask and then at least you will firstly, save yourself a thrashing and secondly you will remember and enjoy your ejaculation.

I am now just one month in to my punishment for daring to penetrate my wife, even though that was the deal if I beat the Cock Hero video. As I was locked up in my cage by my wife's boyfriend he had whispered to me to not expect any release for at least 3 months. I fear that I too may be experiencing the emb@rr@ssment of a wet dream before my time is up.

As a matter of interest, how common are wet dreams amongst us who are in chastity?

I shall certainly be asking Master Luke for permission in future! As you say it will at least save me being Punished. It is likely to be soon as I feel the tension building up again.
I'd be interested in answers to your question about others having wet dreams. I wonder how usual they are.

It has now happened. It was last Saturday and they were going out so I was being put to bed early. 7.30 to be exact and I was in the bath beforehand. Master Luke came into the bathroom to make sure that I was getting ready. I was. He decided he would help me and started to wash my body. inevitably, my pee pee hardened. it grew a little but it was of course still tiny. He reminded me that it was like a little boy's. Which it is. I decided to ask him if I could play with my pee pee.

"Luke" I began. "I think that might be Master Luke or Sir" he interrupted. "Sorry sir. You are right of course.But please sir, I have a favour I want to ask you". "Oh and what is that??

"Please sir, you know that I had an accident the other night in bed for which you punished me. I have tried to be a good boy since then as I don't want to annoy you again so that you have to punish me again"
"Oh, did it hurt?"
"Yes sir it really did. "" Good. I hope you learnt the lesson. Now what is the favour you want?"
"Please sir I wondered if you would allow me to play with my pee pee in bed tonight. Please!"
"But you have a wife. Wouldn't it be better if you used your pee pee to satisfy her? "
"But that's the point sir. My pee pee is too small to satisfy her which is why she has a lover who is much better equipped than I am. In any case when we married she made it clear that, as I was still a little boy that she wold not allow me to have sex with her."
"Are you happy with that?"
"Oh yes sir it's very fair she needs to enjoy her sex and she can only do that if she is with someone as good as yourself sir. That makes me very happy"

He laughed. "You're a flatterer" "Oh no sir I am not. it's true"
I was scared that he had forgotten my request and I would not dare repeat it in case it annoyed him. But I didn't need to
"OK. I agree. Now let's get you dried and into your PJs. Little boys should be in bed!"
And with that he started to rub me dry. I was so happy. And when I was in bed later and they were out on their date I had a wonderful time with my Teddy. And my hand. I slept well that night

Well done stephenjam12... you see? It wasn't too difficult asking Luke after all. And I think he may have let you off lightly keeping such a humili@ting request just between the two of you. I wish I could agree the same arrangement but I must get the permission of both my wife and her boyfriend. Not that I have any chance of playing with my clitty for a long while yet.

My wife's boyfriend as you know said it would be many weeks before I would be allowed to masturbate again since that debacle with my wife (see earlier posts). Its only been barely 6 or 7 weeks without being able to rub myself for relief but the frustration is increasing and he "promised" no release until the end of August if I was lucky.

One of his mates is getting married and his stag weekend was the weekend just gone. Tony (the wife's bf) was invited and he insisted that I join him. I couldn't fully understand why. I mean its not as though we are best mates is it! Anyhow of course I didn't have a choice and it soon became pretty obvious what his game was. The ******** was fine. The scantily dressed ladies about town were not lessening my sexual frustration and my tiny clit was becoming quite cramped in my mini cage. But I was managing. But then the stag's best man said "Right time to get off to the Cyclone Club". This is a well-known "gentleman's club" in Birmingham. Rooms full of topless stunningly gorgeous women, and of course, lap dancing. The rest of the party were lapping it up (quite literally). My wife's bf continually whispered in my ear about how horny he was getting and how much he was looking forward to getting back to my wife so he could "fuck the living daylights out of her". He paid for 3 lap dances for me, laughing all the while as he knew the effect it would be having on my frustrated, caged clit. As we were going home in the taxi he just grinned and said how much he was missing my entertaining shows, masturbating for him and my wife, and so he thought this was a good substitute watching me getting redder and redder and being unable to get an erection as these near naked woman danced around the place. My panties were soaked with pre-cum but my poor tiny balls just ached, desperate for release.