New issue for an old vet...

Hey guys, gosh....where do I start....from the beginning I guess. So short synopsis on me. I'm military...my ex wife is as well. From the on start of our relationship...she never stopped fucking other guys...now I was young, dumb country boy...as I got older I got wiser to her exploits amd I even had a few ppl comeout and tell me. I confronted her on it multiple times and she denied denied denied. Finally I found proof and she couldnt..this is all over the period of about 4 years...when I found the photos...I was devistated but found , myself turned on...I was confised and went in searchog why I was turned on as I didnt know how to handke those feelings.

Then I came across this site and I felt like Neo taking the read pill. Lol I posted my life on here made some great friends and then we deployed. She was fucking so many guys it wasnt even funny. It caused prpblems in her command as drama was always an issue wirh her. Finally in kuwait...while going on R&R...I told her I knew and it turned me on. She did the typical oh im so hurt bit...Im not a slut...but in fact she was. Things kinda fell apart for us and she finished her tour of duty. I stayed for another back to back deployment.

As with anyone who cames back from a tour...you party your ass off...which she did and ran though a slew of guys...and had accepted I wanted pictures and video. But she got with a guy who she gkt feelings for and so when I came back another year later. I was injured, and was in the wounded warrior battalion. We hadnt lived together in twp years and we both had pretty much went our seperate ways. I went from being a cuck to a bull though...and ran though about 60 women when I stopped counting.

One lf those women was a college student who loved to fuck me and I was open with her from the get go and we finally set up a 3 some. Amazing night in a hotel. We fucked her together, took turns...Id watch them then id take those sexy sloppy seconds. After that spat payed out withthe end of the semister I went on to a few other women..married and not married.

Then I came across this sexy puerto rican. She knew what she wanted and I knew what I wanted. We kept it simple and honest. Agreed to be fuck buddies. Whe she wanted dick, she would call and when I wanted pussy. Id call. Then feelings did develope and we started dating. Thrn I left for about a month then we started talking again and she had a few guys on the side she was tslking to and fucking. I told her it turned me on and made her go fuck one of the guys and come back to me with a nice creampie. She did this twice. We eventually moved in together.

We are hopelessly in love now and things amazing. She loves being submissive. But now says I'm the only dick she needs and wants...well...not to boast...but im a beat in bed. Very sensual and idk what it is...but women love my dick. I still tell her how much it turns me on when she would come home with sloppy seconds.

Well here's the issue. She tells me ok, set it up. But shes doing for me. Which is fine. When I jerk to the thought of her fucking alady guy I cum so fast...but after I cum....im not ok with sharing her. I love her and like the urge goes away...until I get turned on again. Then I want to share her. Lol so you can see the delema. So please help, advice, tips, anything.

Ps...sorry for the typing im on my tablet.

Thank you so much. I always find solace here. Yea, its just a new experience of feelings for me as before with the other girls I would still be turned on after words. She's sub and will do as I tell her. Just need and hope that push after words I still feel as though I did before I came.

I think your feelings are very common in any cuck relationship. I am ex military and my wife had several men while I was deployed; one even put his baby in her. This is how I discovered that I loved it when she got nailed by another. After getting her to try it for me and almost fucking it up because I was jealous when I wasnt turned on by it, I have with experience figured out how to control the jealousy. It's still there tho. But then again, sliding into your wifes pussy after another man has shot his seed inside her outweighs jealousy anytime...

If you dont want to share her after you cum, don't do it. That is a bad sign.