nawct
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Been lurking the site for many years curious about cuckoldry in fantasy but never thought I would consider it in reality.
By day I'm the one who runs the show and takes care of business and can be very alpha but I have always felt submissive and the giving type towards women in bed. I have covered these feelings up as I felt it showed weakness and unattractiveness/undesirability. Recently I've started taking steps I guess to condition the situation and set myself up for the lifestyle as I cannot shake the idea out my head and feel compelled to try it out as it seems fitting.
I've been with my spouse for almost a decade and as any long term relationship seems to have it, sex has dwindled from 3 times a day in any hole to once a month if I'm lucky, and she has stopped doing anything interesting(oral specifically unless I'm giving). So being bored and not being able to get the cuckold fantasy out of my head, I started to open up to her about my submissive feelings. She loves to tease and has actually been having fun watching me squirm and beg to finish. She knows I like my own cum and recently cleaning up my mess has been becoming a regular part of our late nights together. I have put the idea into her head that I know she doesn't swallowing and I want to do it for her to please her(which is true). It surprisingly has actually made her quite wet and amused. I've also started doing 69 with her where she only gets pleasured and I'm lucky if I get a handjob out of the deal, usually have to finish myself. The last time we did this I almost ****** because she was so excited she was sladying me.
She is naturally shy/quiet, conservative and never talks about sex or anything dirty. I've never caught her looking at another man or have ever suspected her of flirting. Since I've started to show her these submissive feelings and sissy-like acts(cleaning up, even had her use a prostate massager on me for the first time as well) I think in bed she is amused but definitely is lacking that alpha male satisfaction which is where I think the cuckold/bull idea will fit.
During daily routines like trips to the grocery store I've caught guys looking at her and mentioned to her quietly that it was happening. She suffers from lack of self-esteem due to recent weight gain due to stress so she feels very self-conscious. She typically shrugs my comments off and says things like "oh he's gross, eww." but I can tell she's flattered someone is looking by her body language.
So anyway the biggest breakthrough today was during lunch, enough that I decided to post the beginning of my possible journal.
A very good looking young server which a french accent served us. I could tell she was looking at him. His service actually sucked but when it came time to tip she convinced me to tip him very generously, more than we usually would even with great service at a dinner. I jokingly said it's because of his sexy accent isn't it? To my surprise she said "actually I really have a thing for Irish and English accents. One time I had a customer at work with an Irish accent and I was so fluttery and red around him I sent him out the door with half the order." She was blushing telling me this. I took it very well and added positive reinpowerment to her comment and she was receptive. As mentioned previously, she has never ever spoken this way about men EVER. This event actually happened a few years back!
I'm going to approach her with the fantasy soon. I overanalyze everything but she already knows I'm different from the norm so why not through it out there?? Wish me luck.....
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cuckold4one
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Good luck...... I hope she opens up more and makes you a cuckold. Cuck who loves a creampie.
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nawct
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Thanks for the encouragement. We're just returning from travelling and had no opportunity to play around so I'm hoping that this weekend we can get frisky and talk about fantasies....
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geecrizz
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You should do it soon as it may take some time for her to come around. It will go against her programming so she will probably need to think on it awhile to get comfortable with the idea. Continue being patient although it can be difficult.
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nawct
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I'm not sure how she'll receive it. There are definitely signs she's picking up about who I am as she knows I'm not your typical average guy. She was very happy when I opened up about being submissive. I plan to do it in the heat of the moment to plant the seed in her head, and see what happens from there
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Bandit4911
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I could have written that post myself..............uncanny.
After 3 years of trying my wife is still not playing.
We do occasionally play with femdom and chastity, but its just a weekend thing. I have not given up but its going nowhere fast.
Good luck and keep us posted.
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nawct
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Bandit4911: How long have you two been together? How did she react to your other fetishes we share when you brought them up?
Today is supposed to be our nooky day we've been talking about while we were gone for two weeks however we just returned from holidays and some relatives decided to drop in during their travels and spent the night which was unexpected and are still here.
I'm hoping the stars are aligned today and the mood is right to bring it up as I have to go out of town this week and it would be fitting to let the idea sit with her. I just discovered the oldest cuckold movie clip I have dates back to 2006 so it's time to bring this up and see what happens.
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nawct
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Wow.. so the deed is done. In the heat of the moment I told her about my cuckolding fantasy. I think for the first time ever she actually had a multiple orgasm.
That however was short lived and ended up with at least a good hour worth of questions about how this came to be. As I've heard from many other people, she seems intrigued but feels that she would be wronging me for doing this and can't understand why I would ask her to do such a thing. I could see the gears turning and I tried my best to reassure her that this a fantasy that I don't want to act out tomorrow. Not sure where things are headed but I'm very glad that she wasn't repulsed or turned off by the idea.
I'm exhausted.. 7 years lifted off my chest. Over and out for now.
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Bandit4911
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we have been married 10 years. Second time for both of us.
She is not easy at accepting my fetishes but will try to please me. But cuckolding is a no no. She has tried role play, when she has been out with the girls, telling me she has been naughty. But she usually stops part way through because it gets the better of her.
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nawct
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Well this morning went well. I still am a bit in shock that I told her about my fantasy.
Usually in the mornings she wakes up later than me so we don't see each other as she's relaxing when I leave. We used to give a quick kiss and I'd be on my way but for the last couple of years we stopped.
This morning I wasn't sure what to expect. She woke up and actually cuddled hard with me and I felt like we were in love all over again. We didn't talk about last night but I definitely felt close to her.
I'm heading out of town for the rest of the week so things have time to settle. For those that have been here - what's the next step?
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nawct
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For anyone listening, I have a great update. I bought her roses yesterday and when she came home I hugged her. She looked at me with a big smile and said that I have some explaining to do with what I brought up last night. We ended up in the bedroom for 4 hours talking about the fantasy. I explained everything I've learnt about the lifestyle - what the definition means and where it came from and what I would like for both of us out of it(didn't get too kinky). As the talking went on things got hotter and hotter. She would get very into it but then she would feel guilty, which I believe is normal as geecrizz said it goes against our programming from a young. She started to ask very specific questions like if I would want to be in the room or not, how we would find a permister, how we would keep things discrete. I was literally vibrating and she chuckled as I tried to answer these questions. She told me she would like me to be there in a passive supporting role to cherish her and hold and kiss her. We talked about different positions and I told her I would like to lay next to her during missionary and also underneath in 69 position while she was getting it behind. She smiled and said it would be nice if I would also just be on the bottom while she was getting it behind so we could look at each other. I couldn't believe we were even talking about this. I told her about many movie clips I've seen where couples do these types of things and when asked if she wanted to watch them in the near future with me she was very receptive. I also suggested reading some stories on her iPad together and she smiled and nodded yes. Anyway, the night finished with me pleasing her and me being left to finish myself off. When it was time to come I was told to finish on her tits but NOT to get any on her face. I asked if it accidentally happened would I have to clean it up and was told YES. She is usually not direct like this. I blew a large load, much normal than usual as the buildup was a few hours. She chuckled and commented on how big it was as I cleaned it up This morning I received a text that she was feeling unsure and gross about things. I reassured her that this is still a fantasy and we can take things as slow as necessary and make sure we cover all bases and told her that I feel that even though I was terrified to bring this up with her I feel that we're more closer than ever. She smiled and told me she loved me. I have high hopes this will continue as it feels so right.
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jabal244
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Good luck nawct!! this is quickly becoming one of the most erotic posts on this site. I hope all goes well and wish you success. You sound like you've started down a good and exciting path.
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nawct
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I'm out of town for a few nights and she had girls night at the house and wanted to talk to her friend about it as they usually discuss these things. We talked about this and I told her that I don't want the world to know about the fantasy but I'm comfortable with her talking about it with her close friend as her network doesn't extend into mine.
Her friend is a slut, she's in her mid twenties and was recently dating an older guy and fucking other young guys behind his back. LOL. Pretty sure if she hasn't heard of cuckolding she'll be interested herself now. I just hope she doesn't send the wrong message to my wife because she doesn't want to be a slut.
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Txmurdok
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Don't know if you should think that 'she don't want to be a slut'.....I really think its in most women, it just needs to be brought out wife would rather have cock left over than room for more!!!!
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nawct
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Well I hit the first roadblock. Arrived home and we got into things again. She was very curious and asked me to show her a video of this. I found her some pretty mild stuff. She broke down on me saying she couldn't do this - it looks and feels like a gangbang and she cannot understand how I expect her to form an emotional connection with someone but just fuck.
I actually don't have the answer for that and I'm starting to wonder myself how some women can do that. The night was not a loss - we played around and explored other femdom fantasies I had so she wasn't completely turned off ;) Pride is a bit hurt but I know this is a game of patience with no guaranteed results.
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roddick
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I agree with arthurarthur. The reamister she is freaking out is because, in short, she is REALLY thinking about this. My advice would be to back off a bit, lavish her with love, attention and affection. Before you know it she will be the one bringing it up again. When she does you will know it's only a matter of time before you're truly cuckolded and she has a bull.
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Hawthorne65
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Any news?
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nawct
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Sorry for the delay. I've been cucked 4 times now and she messed around with a 5th but didn't ***** with him. Best experience so far was her coming home and me cleaning her up. Loving the lifestyle!!!
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tiny_tim
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Very good news and I am happy that you are communicating with her and not worrying about posting updates here. Make sure that you continue to listen to her needs and if she's not comfortable with anything, back down and put your fantasy on hold for a little while.
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i122
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nawct Nice to hear and please update whenever you have a chance and with pictures too
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cuckoldtm
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nawct: I've been cucked 4 times now and she messed around with a 5th but didn't ***** with him. I take it she's becoming more comfortable with it? Congratulations!
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kennyboy82
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nawct: I've been cucked 4 times now and she messed around with a 5th but didn't ***** with him. Best experience so far was her coming home and me cleaning her up. Loving the lifestyle!!! Welcome to the lifestyle! You're there now, never to abandon it. Keep us posted, and enjoy your wife's slutty behaviour from now on!
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