My cuckolding mistress

I approached a number of girls with messages on Plentyoffish dating website about 3 months back basically asking if they were interested in humiliating a submissive guy online at first and see how it developed. Got some mixed answers back, some just not understanding and saying I needed therapy, some curious and some new straight away what I was after.

Started chatting properly to 3 of these girls and by the time a fortnight had passed I'd got it down to 1 who was going to be the mistress for me. For the first couple of weeks it was all texts, emails, whatsappa and then we spoke on the phone. We discussed my fetishes and she took great delight in taunting me about how I'd lost my ex to a real man, how I had a little dick, how I couldn't satisfy women etc. I explained to her that I really wanted her to cuckold me, to fuck other guys and torment me about it. The first time, she made me pay for her beauty treatments a day before her date. She wanted to meet in a bar in town but I got cold feet, scared incase she had friends in the bar laughing at some guy walking in with £60 to randomly hand to a girl off the internet. We agreed I would park up in a busy street in the city centre, I would wind down the window and hand her the money, she would laugh and call me a loser, then walk off. Wow, what a turn on watching her walk off to her date in my rear view mirror.

Texts went back and forth during the evening and about midnight I text asking her to ring me when she was home. She replied "ok but it could be a while yet". No further texts until the phone rang at 2.40am with her in a taxi. She told me the whole story, the £60 I'd handed over to her ended up being used to buy him takes before she went back to his hotel room and got fucked by him. She said he was massive, a great fuck and she couldn't wait to see him again. I was so turned on by this!!

As our relationship developed we have set up rules. Quite simply I don't get to fuck her. I did once but went soft within a minute which pretty much sealed her decision to deny me sex in future. I'm allowed blowjobs (but not to cum from them) and I'm allowed handjobs where she usually humiliates me verbally as she wanks me. She has 3 fuck buddies who she allows to fuck her from time to time. She has made me buy her underwear for her dates, I've been made to buy her Chanel and Miss Dior perfume so that she smells amazing for them. The arousal is unreal, like nothing I've experienced before. I pleasure her orally and she says I'm one of the best she's ever had for it and I'm absolutely loving the arrangement we have.

The only sticking point and I can't figure it out at all is there is one guy she has dated in the last 6 weeks. She has fucked him once, it was a complete disaster, the smallest dick she's ever seen, totally hopeless in bed and was physically shaking with nerves as he tried to do the job. However..... she tells me he's the nicest guy she's ever met, they go for long country walks and just talk and she feels relaxed around him...... but she's told him she can't bring herself to relax with him and needs her satisfaction elsewhere. He's ok with this, has told her he loves her and is absolutely besotted with her. He just says whatever you do don't tell me about it and please don't fall for someone else. She has told him she doesn't want a full on relationship but is happy to date etc.

I can not for the life of me fathom out why this guy who can't fuck, seems a total drip who has totally fell for her and accepts a non sexual relationship........... why the hell am I so jealous of him and it really bugs me when she's with him??? Yet whenever she is being fucked hard by her friends with benefits I'm turned on????