Help develop my cuckold, sissy desires

Hello all,

To cut a long story short; I have been with my wife for for over 20 years and married 12 years and we are each others only partners. I have a small penis and this has driven my fascination with the cuckold world. Unfortunately my wife is pretty 'vanilla' towards sex and it does not play a big role in her life. This however has provided me with the opportunity to satisfy myself through masturbation, which I find I actually prefer now to physical sex with my wife.
I got talking to an online dom at start of year and he made me view my situation differently and even made me feel differently towards my wife, he was very clever at mental manipulation and convinced me that I didn’t deserve my wife anyway, especially sexually and to see her only as sexual object. I started to realise that it was because of me my wife’s sexual needs have never been truly developed. I am about 4.5inches fully erect and have always orgasmed pretty quickly through sexual intercourse.
As time went by I am actually started to become so aroused with the thought that I was a married husband who was not providing basic sexual pleasure for my wife. We may have a fantastic relationship but intimately we were not close. Since talking to this dom I have tried to have sex twice with my wife and each time I could not gain an erection and I ended up leaving her feeling frustrated, I also discovered that my orgasm through masturbation after this event was very intense.
I was told to by my wife a vibrator, which I did. At first my wife wasn’t interested but I have since discovered that she does use this provide herself with sexual relief, which excites me even more.
What really arouses me is the thought of never having sex with her again. I do not want to openly discuss my feelings with her as this would jeopardise our marriage but I want our situation to slowly play out and see where it takes us. I am looking for another man to join me on my journey and pick up where my last dom left (we lost contact). I want another man to control my sexual thoughts and desires and decide how and when I can masturbate. I want someone to develop me as a sexually useless husband and make sure I do not and cannot ever make love to my wife again.
I am looking for a creative permister with good ideas on how he can further develop me as a sexually useless hubby who has sissy cravings, stills lusts over his wife but prefers to masturbate thinking about her in the arms of another more deserving man. My wife will not know but the thought that another man is sexually controlling me and changing my sexual thinking and needs is so hot, the ultimate thought that she could even become suspicious with my behaviour and discover my sexual desires is very arousing.

Thank you

I appreciate your desires. I myself am someone who has very circumscribed sexual contact with my wife and never uses my penis with her and it is HOT. But your own intentions for next steps seem pretty self-centered to me. Where does you plan leave your wife? Her husband no longer gets hard for her and she has no idea why. Pretty harsh on her. You seem to be thinking about your fucking her as only a matter of your "rights" or "desserts" as a husband and forgetting that she has claims on you and needs in that area as well.

I suggest one of two things: Either share with her, gently and slowly, your denial fetish and try to integrate it into your shared sex life, or, get her into cuckolding and help her find and accept a lover first before you wither away your own sexual access. Ideally, you should do both.

Good luck.
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Listen to MrsBlackBlowupDoll, Tiny_hubby. He's one of the most lucid guys of these forums.

Certainly, discuss your feelings with your wife can jeopardize your relationship, depending on how closed she is, but I think it's more likely to damage your relationship if you do or stop doing things that can make your wife think you no longer love her.

I understand the idea of "​​a man who control your sexual thoughts" is within the context of an erotic game, sounds very funny, but I think everything would be more fun if your wife is part of the game.

The challenge for those who want to maintain a marriage while unleashing sexual desires is to help the wife to break their own sexual chains. It's not an easy task, I know, but what you did to give your wife a vibrator is an excellent example of things to do for open to your wife the door for her sexual freedom (and the sexual freedom of both, as a couple).

Make a friend to control your sexuality, as a game, that's fine, but focus your efforts to get your wife to be more open sexually.
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no i don't want to help you

Very well put slemx!

(And thanks for the compliment, by the way.)
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.