Confused

Really don't know how to go on anymore. I explained my desires about cuckolding to my wife and we tried it a few times. Now whenever in some sort of way I bring up the idea she is reluctant and says no or oke you want me out of your life. She had a few encounters some good some really bad. With the good one she came home and I asked her what had happened and she told me everything. They kissed and fucked and licked and sucked and all those things. When she told me about the kisses I asked how and she showd it to me with such a passion. But that affair died a quick death. Then she just to go out and meet up with other men. It was always oke until she said them I was okay with others fucking her. All of the guys she met didn't understand. After that she just freelanced around meeting up with men again. One time she went out and I woke up around 4 in the night to find the bed beside me empty. Texted her and asked where she was. Got an answer back that she was in a hotel with another man fucking and that she didn't know what time she would be home. So once again I thought that we were started on our journey. She had 3 encounters like that and then it died again.
Last thing she went to do was working in a sexclub. Her job there was to open her legs and get fucked by the men who attended the parties. She worked there for about 2 weekends. In those 2 weekends she fucked about 20 different men and some of them also deepthroated her or roughly facefucked her. At one moment I also went to the club and saw her busy. She was being facefucked and the guy shot his load deep in her throat. While she was still gagging on it another one went in and facefucked her also. Others were licking her, playing with ehr tits or fucking her in the meanwhile. She saw me and when she finished she walked past by me. Not even nodding or smiling at me. It was obvious she didn't liked it that I was there. She didn't talked to me just gave me a evil smile. Other ladies who worked there asked here if they had to fuck me or her and her answer was he doesn't get fucked now. Okay I know this is what I always wanted. But later that evening she told me she didn't wanted to work anymore and wanted to stop. Now this is where I get confused. We used to talk about it and she said that the guys who facefucked her weren't that vulgar at all. She had customers b4 who were more agressive with her. Although she only worked there for a shortwhile and told me about it it are these small lies that make me wonder if she has a forbidden agenda. That togheter with the fact that she almost never wants sex with me anymore. Hell she even comes to bed at 3 in the night and after complains that I am already relaxing. She knows well enough that I start working at 5.30 in the morning.
Any ideas or suggestions are more then welcome. Also what you guys think she is up to and how do I get her back at ease for cucking me.