my ex

I fantasized about her cucking me for about a year straight before we broke up. sometimes we would role play in bed, and even though she was hesitant sometimes she would just say something i hadnt even suggested but made me feel like she could be a real slut inside just needing to be released. she would ride me and say oh he is in my ass where you have never been, oh i can feel him cumming in me..." and i would cum thinking about it.
oh, i should back this up, about a year ago, but not before i had this fantasy, we were on a "break" and i slept w another woman, she found out and got revenge, with a handsome guy i might add. the day after she fucked him in the back seat of a car, taking his cum inside her, she called me and said she needed to be close to me. i didnt know she fucked a guy, but thought she might be vengeful. so anyway, we get together and immediately she wants me to go down on her, which i like to do, and also because she didnt want to have actual sex w me until i got an std test from having sex w the other woman. so i get her off and she is lovely tasting as always, no cum taste. then we go out to eat. at the restaurant it comes out she got revenge and it was the night before. im half disgusted and half turned on. the turned on out weighs and i take her out to my truck and take her pants off and tell her i wanted to have this fantasy for years mind as well not waste the opportunity, and i eat her pussy while she tells me how she fucked him and came inside her pussy, and im just a bitch. it was hot and fucked up relationship wise. no wonder we broke up.

but here is the kicker, and why im writing this: im feeling depressed because we broke up about a month ago, less than actually, and we havnt really talked or seen each other. but, as it turns out, she is now in contact with the same guy she got revenge on me with. im going nuts here because i know she wont pass up an opportunity and he is hot, but im not in the picture anymore. its only through my vicarious spying that i know anything... i wonder how she is able to move on so quickly right now, what she is thinking, how she is turned on by him...ahhh.

for me, im not ready to move on yet. maybe sometimes she will feel bad and want to come back and fuck me, and i will eat her pussy like no tomorrow knowing she is a slut for other men