Had to end it.

Me and my girl had been getting our feet warm in the world of cuckolding. It started when I caught her talking to guys online about fucking them, how I couldn't perform as well as she wanted and her sending sexy, but not nude pictures to these men.

When I found out I was upset, yet turned on at the same time. I played it off like I was angry at her and hated these guys but I always found myself looking at the chat logs, horny each time. I finally admitted to her that I thought it was sexy and she seemed weirded out but accepted it eventually. We agreed to just keep it online for awhile until we were comfortable

At first she sent me every chat log, picture, etc. That was my only wish to be kept in the loop otherwise I considered it cheating. She had a guy over who did everything but have sex with her and I was fine with it. Eventually I heard less and less until I figured she had quit completely. It wasnt until I read all her chat logs again to see that she was still very into it and just not letting me know. I didnt bring it up and let her continue. Nothing else physical had occured, just chats and pictures.

It was just recently she told me she had grown emotionally attached to a guy she had been talking too and the only reamister she had not fucked him was because he was too shy for it. Perhaps if I was kept informed throughout the process I would be ok, but when she told me I would be left for him I had to stop it. At first this lifestyle seemed worth it, and maybe I'll explore it once again later in life when things are a bit more locked down. But for right now its just too much to risk for a quick turn on.

Godspeed to all in this lifestyle, your stories and pictures are going to have to keep me entertained for now.

My wife and I have had our bumps in the road like everyone else. And it was usually because we didn't communicate with each other. Whether it was her keeping things from me, or me not being honest of ow I felt about certain things.
We have found that you have to be honest, vulgarly honest, to each other if you want this type of lifestyle to work. And least in our situation.

I understand completely. I'm going through worse: wife is out actively having hot sexual affair with guy she met online, this after almost two years of our getting turned on (mutually) by the cuckold/wife-with-other-man scenario. Now I'm learning how how the sex is with this guy, and I'm in constant pain about it, all the more because I know I can't give her what she's getting from him. I'm just lucky she's not in love with him, and also, supposedly he's leaving the country for good three weeks from today, which means I only have to suffer it another 21 days. But given how painful my situation is (my wife's affair), I'm amazed at all the accounts I read here at CP about guys letting their wives get fucked by other men and expressing only excitement from it, not pain. I guess in my case, the problem is that I'm madly in love with my wife (a situation which I would have thought before was the greatest thing in the world, but in reality causes horrible pain). Yes, SheDatesHeWaits is right, we want them to cheat with our knowledge and permission. Actually, I would be quite OK with that, and for three years have told my wife that at the drop of a hat I'd let her fuck other men if I could be present in a "swinging" situation. But when the woman goes off on her own, unilaterally, it's really a different thing from cucking and swinging. A dangerous game, both extremely sexy, and potentially devasating as well. At least I'm lucky in that wife is basically totally honest with me about what's going on (although she spares me some of the more sexual details that she knows will only upset me).

I am cuckolded and femmed by my wife who has had 3 + other menin about 4 years. I feel the need to express our relationship developement here in this forum more then any other, as it deals alot with trust and feelings on both sides the male and female.

Our relation ship changed when Jeanne took a deployement to a foward operating base to run a contract in Iraq in November of 03. We had experimented before hand with other men joining us in a swinging type MMF type scinerio (I have been a BI crossdresser for most of my life)prior to her deployment. Before Jeane left we agreed she could seek out sexual satisfaction with males over seas and I would be exclusively with men for the duration of our seperation since her concern was me finding a better woman to be with (yeah right I worship Jeanne) and she could confidently control any feelings and kep it just to sex. Well lets say the first two men that exactly happened just a little kissing, feeling up, oral and fucking with no attachments and she was very honest about those men. Then she met Larry a soldier they met totally by coincident one day when Jeanne walked up behind Larry and touched his side and ran her fingers around his back as she said hello thinking he was some one else. Larry turned around and when there eyes met it was something special. They had lunch that day Jeanne called me an told me she met a nice guy she felt very comfortable with then off they went and she fucked him not ten minutes later after telling me they were just friends at this point after just meeting, he was even there when she called and told me this. Well that first fuck turned into a daily thing for the two new love birds, they even got called the lovely couple and lovers through out the base by others as they did little to kep thier feelings secret. Jeanne told me for all the next 6 months that they were just good friends, I knew different in my gut and mind. Her calls were less frequent and less in length and there was little mention of this friend that she was so fond of. when Jeanne came home on leave she didn't want sex hardly at all and was very distant. She also couldnt wait to go back to finish her tour there. When it came time to redeploy home Jeanne didn't want to leave she was considering an extension and was not sure at all about how it would be comming home.

When Jeanne returned Larry sent emails a few times a day and I thought things were kind of just not normal between us especially when we made love she seemed like she was somewhere else. One day came out and asked about her affair with Larry and she denied any sexual relationship most defensively. Later one night after I had been out for the evening I hacked her email and found the hottes email between my wife and her lover saying how they missed each others touch and how good they felt together when they made love. I confronted Jeanne expressing my frustration, hurt, and distrust in her. Jeanne at that time asked me if I could just listen like a girlfriend as that would be easier for her to tell what had happened to our life together. She had me dress in lingerie and perfume and she lit a long 120 menthol cigarette (she didnt smoke except to make me hard and cum) then proceded to smoke and tell of her affair. I couldn't help at that point as I was in femme lingerie with a raging erection having her exhale smoke in my face and her nails running all over my stiff cock in the silky panties do anything but lay there listen and soon explode in my panties not 3 minutes into her tale of how she lied, cheated, and loved doing what she did. Jeanne also told me she thought it would be so nice to have a real man make love to her and how much she loved he lovers cock and how much bigger it was compared to mine she even tol me his cum was sweeter. I didnt know what to do or say so I said what I felt, I was hurt and wanted her contact with him to stop as just days before this night he had started to call. I didnt want her to email or accept calls or I would leave her. She stopped as far as I could tell, I felt guilty and never forgave myself for going back on my word when she asked to talk to her girlfriend that night she opened up.

Two yers later she said out of the blue that Larry had called one day at work. I played it off like she was just joking. Later in bed she had me dress in some lingerie, lit a long 120 menthol cigarette, blew smoke in my face, ran her fingers over my silk covered cock and told me she herd from Larry and his voice made her wet and horny. My cock jumped to attention and at that time Jeanne told me that I had been boring her in bed, I was not man enough for her, and my cock was pethetic. I would be kept in female panties from now on and she would see her lover again in the stated and would take a local guy or two for a regular lover. It started out okay I was allowed to still fuck her once in a while and now I am not permitted to even touch any part of her with my ciccy fag clitty as she calls it. I am only allowed to service men sexually and the only female contact I am permitted it to clean her pussy and ass at her beck and call.

I was hurt, betrayed, decieved, and all in all devestated. I dont know how or why it happened but she had the power to play those feelings I had into her power. She loved seeing me become submissive to her and her big cock lover tales and she made me submit with only her words and a few strokes. I am now her total sissy faggot, and sissy slave to her and her lovers. I am happy now accepting that my clitty is not enough for her although average in size, and will for ever serve her and her lovers happily. Our marriage is more of a girl and a sissy faggot best friend type relationship now and she keeps the key to my chastity device only allowing me to cum when she sees fit. She had all this planned from the time she met Larry and nw I thrive on her being in love with him, and her other men.... Just a good relationship, almost going bad and a week male strong female she made the untrusta and dishonesty work for them.... Good luck
I have finally decided to take control (total) and have sissy in panties daily lock sissy in her CB 6000s for good. No more feeling sorry after a few weeks and no more giving into her pleas for mercy! Welcome the NEW MISTRESS!

Jess, that is an epic story but I'm not sure Mill is going to be able to see the relevance of it to his own dilemma.

Mill, jealousy is a funny thing. It makes you do funny things.

If you persuaded her into this life style, then you have a responsibility. I'm not saying you shouldn't be able to stop her, or tell her if she doesn't stop you'll leave. But from the sounds of things, you didn't put it like that. You just ordered her to stop. That's not going to engender respect and if I was her I would carry on behind your back. How about saying she can carry on for three weeks but after that you please want her to stop?

And why can't you perform as well as she wants?

MaxMasters
Hey hi, was really moved by your experience...am currently encouraging my gf to try and go on dates and potentially taking on another regular lover but what you've said has given me second thoughts...