Sissy or not?

I have been doing all the right stuff for years now. Wearing my bras and panties under my male clothes. Last year I kept my legs shaved for several weeks and was even honked at by an 18 wheeler driver. My dress is mid thigh and he couldn't see my face. I would never pass for a girl but all of my jerk-off fantasies involve me being penetrated by a big hard man-cock. I have a collection of clothes and supplies including dildo and a butt-plug that I take when I go out of town on business. I like to go out for the evening with a noticeable bra line and bosom.
In my job I am in contact with a lot of people from India and have become attracted to the men. Sometimes when I am sure they do not understand English I will ask them if I can suck their cock. I know they don't understand but I like hearing myself ask another man that question. Anyway this past weekend I was working with an Indian guy and under my shirt I have on my favorite bra with just the right amount of stuffing. We had been having a conversation about the infrequency of sex in marriage and out of nowhere he asks me to come back to his house with him and use my dick on him. I'm dumbfounded! I never thought about sticking my sissy-clit in some guy. I hem-hawed around and told him I didn't do stuff like that. In my mind I thought that was gross. I soon left and went home in a state I can only call depressed. I have have no sexual inclinations in four days. Now I don't mean to say that I'm off of sex or getting all sissy-fied again but what does this say about me am I just fooling my self. I really like getting dressed up but am I just a wannabe cocksucker or do I need a really take charge guy to get hold of me?

sissyfluff
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chanatub

Well now, you are a bottom. You don't like fucking guys. Anyway, this site is more het than this post so don't expect a lot of advice on gay sex here.

cheers
Vancouver BC, Canada

Thank you Dick Diva, I agree with your statement about this site being more heterosexual than my post. But it ain't as "het" as some on here are telling themselves.
chanatub: I have no idea what you said.

sissyfluff
do you have a wife???
if you had a wife you could ask her... maybe you need a nice take charge kinda wife to get hold of you
i thinkchanatub want you to send picssissyfluff
he wants you to suck it for him maybe???

Unfortunately, my wife is not a take charge kind of woman, in the bedroom. And before you ask, no she would never consider taking on a lover. I am begiining to think our sex drives have become unequal. Regarding chanatub, I don't think it's possible to suck any thing over the internet. Great graffic.

i dont think you have to be gay to be a sissy i would not know i am niether of these.
you might like the idea of the graffic but you dnt irl like the graffic
thats ok ....me either, i am into my wife orgasm and her being horny,how ever it be.... thats what gets me off.
one of my "fantasy" is lesbian white/chinese/pacific island twin sisters
my wife knows about this fantasy and we both know it will never happen, it is just pure fantasy......
you say your wife is not a take charge kind of woman that can be taken in difrent ways.
what does she likes...you whearing dresses?

No, I said she's not a take charge woman in the bedroom. Very passive passionate and loving. Outside of the bedroom a whole diifferent woman. She would ******* me if she knew the extent of my sissyness. As it is, she has some raised eyebrows over the times I have shaved my legs. Says it make her sick. How did we get to talking about my wife?