Is she cheating on me? Its official I am a cuckold

I just want to say thanks to sb64 for posting all of this, it's a wonderful and inspirational read.

If you read this, please do keep us updated, even if it's not on this site where your wife can find it. I think we're all desperately curious to find out more about how things are now and how your life as a cuck has progressed while you've been absent from the site.

Best wishes,
oxf_acr

Yes I echo the above, would so love to hear from you SB64, hope all is going well

Steven/Chloe
What's happening in your life?
SFD

sorry Jenn,
i don't want to let this thread die.

Steven
have you started hormones yet?
sfd

Steven / Chloe
How are you doing?

Hi to all, thanks so much for the support and interest. Nothing really new to report, life is good. I really do appreciate the posts< i wish I ahd soemthing interesting to tell you.
Life is acrrying on as 'normal" if you can call it that. I cannot remember when last I entered my wife, I doubt I ever will, does this trouble me, in a way I guess, but the reality is life is great, we are closer on many levels than ever before, I guess to soem extent we are girlfriends now rather than husband and wife. We are discussing my going on hormones this is soemthing I do wnat to do now, so its really a case of how and when not if. Where will it end? I really dont know.

I will try keep up postign here, I have earned back my free access to teh computer and she knows I may post here so I can try be a bit more regular now
Thanks again for the support
Chloe

Thank you for the update. How does your face look now? Are you done with electrolysis? Are you still relaxing in the same bedroom as your wife? Do you share any sort of intimacies? Have you had any complications at work or with your family of living fem? Do you ever have dates with men?

Sorry for so many questions. I still think about you.
sfd

Yes I am done with everything, I am quite nice and smooth right now, its really very nice. Yes I do usually relax in the same bedroom, well lets say I do most nights, of course when she is entertaining men I dont and some nights she makes me relax in my room as she calls it. We have decorated a spare bedroom in pink and full of all my nice girly clothes and stuff.

Regarding intimacies, we do have a kiss and cuddle from time to time and she lets me service her with my mouth when she is horny and can't find a man. But she never touches me in a sexual way. I am allowed to please myself up to twice a week, but the rules are, I have to be dressed femm, have to rub myself through my panties, and i have to be reading or watching Tranny porn.

I am not allowed to date men, all sexual activity I have had with men have been in her company, when one of her boyfriends has serviced me, she loves watching and it drives her crazy with lust, but its only happned 3 times I am not sure why it has happened so few times.

Thanks for the interest, happy to answer any questions.

I know before you had absolutely no interest in men. If your wife still ascribes to RJ Remenko, she should accept that you'll start getting interested. A good ice breaker is an M4M massage. For your birthday, why not ask for one at your house so she can watch. Look in google for your area for M4M erotic massage. It sounds like you could use some nurturing, touching and intimacy.

Have you had any issues being semi-fem at work or with your family? Did you get your ears pierced yet? Do you have styled hair? Do you wear stockings to your job?

It's so nice to hear from you Chloe!

XO
LB

Chloe,
I've re-read some of your posts. I had forgotten all you said because it had been a while since you posted.

You said before that you had NO interest in men but were only obeying what Jenn wanted. Is that still the same? You say now that you want to start hormones - that's a change in your feelings. Have any of you other feelings changed since you've been Chloe for so long?

I feel sad that you're in a situation where no one will touch you or give you sexual stimulation.

SFD
Please whatever you do do not be sad for me, I have never been happier in my life, I love everythign thats going on, if I didnt I would walk away.

I now realise that Jenn knew me better than I knew myself, all along she was right, as she told me the other day, there is a beautiful girl inside me struggling to get out. As soon as Jenn was brave enough to do something about it, life has been great. Yes I do want to go on hormones, I dont care what they think at work, ears are pierced, hair is not styled.

I dont really have much interest in things sexual I would much rather cuddle with Jenn. I love the fact that she is getting what she needs from real men, that still turns me on a lot.

Life is great

Chloe
Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

Your new real life remisterates with my own fantasies about being vulnerable and humiliated. May I ask some more about what you're feeling?

Do you feel different dressed as Chloe than you did as a man? Vulnerable, submissive, humilated - how does it feel? Do you ever go out of your house fully dressed as Chloe? Have the neighbors seen you? How did that feel? Do you worry about being "read" as really being a man dressed up?

I imagine you've gotten into a routine, maybe being Chloe provides no special feelings anymore?
SFD

SFD
Yes I do feel different as Chloe, I feel great, I now feel like its me, I am definitely more submissive and femm when I am Chloe. I don't feel humiliated at all, actually the opposite, the irony is I think I look much better as a girl than I do as a guy.

Yes I have been out numerous times, been out dancing with Jenn even, that was quite an experience, lovely feeling dancing in a skirt.

I don't worry about being read, I don't care, I know I look quite good thats all thats important

I do feel very humilaited when Jenn has guys over, she always makes me answer the door and usually picks out an outfit for me that adds to my offense. The last time she had a new guy over I had to answer the door and then serve them takes ina very short flimsy pink nightie.

Being Chloe is still special, I always get a kick and now love the femm feelings, girls have it so much better than guys so much lovely clothes & accessories.

Neghbors have met Chloe, most people know about her
Ask any questions you like SFD, happy to answer
Chloe

Chloe
It sounds like your sex drive is low now. Is this true and is this different than before? Do you still get morning erections?
sfd

SDF
Sex drive is very low, it was never high, even before all the cuckolding stuff. Maybe that was aprt of the problem.

Jenn told me she found a new boyfriend, stay tuned for soem action where her words, not sure what that means

Morning what??? lol
Chloe

Chloe,
So if your sex drive has always been low, what led you to this site 2-1/2 years ago?
sfd

SFD
I said low not non existant, I came here to find out about teh whole topic, thats why when my mrs cheated on me, I was prepared for teh whoel thing. I am beginning to think that my mrs found out that I was reading this site and that may have triggered her 'cheating on me' I ddi ask her and got a vague answer so I am not sure, but I think its quite likely. She seemd to have all the answers

My best poster is back, Chloe thanks for the update, have missed hearing from you. Do by any chance have a picture you can show us, I am sure you are a great looking lady now.

I just went back and looked at my old posts, the last time I entered Jenn was the 29th June 2007, there was one attempt a few months after but I couldnt get hard (I still think she was slipping me something at that time)

OMG I didnt realise how early in the process she denied me, thats 2 years and 2 months, I know it will never happen again.

Oh wow Chloe thats over 2 years now, you are so lucky I wish i could get my wife to do that? have you thought about showing us a pic?

Chloe
It's been 2-1/2 weeks since you said:
"Jenn told me she found a new boyfriend, stay tuned for some action were her words, not sure what that means."

What's happened?
sfd

SDF, sorry couldnt get online.
Jenn has a new boyfriend, its by far the most intense relationship she has ever had, she sees hom around 3 or 4 times a week. He knows about Chloe, but we have not met yet.

Last weekend Jenn went away with him, it was a long and lonely weekend. She says he is great in bed but also a lot of fun to be with, not so sure I am so happy about the latest developments.

Chloe
Thanks for the update. I'm sorry for your loneliness. Should you talk to Jenn about your fears?

Chloe / Steven
Aug 10 You wrote:
"SFD
Please whatever you do do not be sad for me, I have never been happier in my life, I love everythign thats going on, if I didnt I would walk away."

Do you still feel that way, or are you very fearful right now?
sfd

Steven,
Let me explain. I'm afraid that the ultimate conclusion of a cuck - powerd fem life style can easily end in separation and divorce. Don't you fear this?
sfd

SFD
I am still loving my life, but of course its not perfet, never is never will be. Would I change anything is the key question, the answer is no not one bit.

Jenn and I had a good talk about her latest relationship, she did admit that it is more intense than any other, but said that as far as we are concerned nothing has or will ever change.

We will always be married, and that I will always be number one for her, just not sexually speaking. She also mentioned that she wants to find a guy to "give Chloe some loving".
Chloe

Chloe
A year ago you wrote: "As for yiur questions about sex with a man, the whole point is I am not the slightest bit attracted to guys, I hve no desire to kiss a guy or in fact do anything sexual with a guy. What I loved was the whole experience froma offense point of view. I am loving being a cuckold, loving the feeling of helplessness and uselessness that comes with that. If Jenn ddint make me, I would never have done it, nor would I do it again, unless she wanted me to."

Now that Jenn wants to find you a guy to be with, how do you feel about it now?
sfd

Chloe,
What's been happening?
sfd

Well.... Jenn wants it, so be it. I have not changed my sexuality, in fact if anything the dressing and being Chloe has reduced my sex drive even less. I don;t think being a girl has increased my desires to be with a guy at this stage.

Jenn is seeing her new boyfriend quite a bit, in fact a lot, much more than anyone before. She sees him 2 or 3 times a week. He is often in our house. Jenn ordered that I am always to be femm when he is around, he has only ever met Chloe. But I am totally excluded from any of their bedroom activity. He is not the slightest bit interested in Chloe sexually speaking. I think Jenn ahs been so busy with him she has forgotten about finding a man for me.