Beautiful European girlfriend hasnt had sex with her thongboy for a mo

My girlfriend "Tatiana" makes me jerk off on video and beg her to fuck guys whos cocks r 2x the size of my pathetic 5" dick. When we first gotto gether she told me the only porn shed tolerate was double penetrated white girls with black guys. now she brings home powerd femdom vids and makes me dildo my ass while begging her to fuck a real man. the last time we had plain sex her pussy was so big i couldnt feel anyting and lost my erection she laughed at me and told me its because she uses 4 fingers on her self......i dont believe her but she wont confess anything. She told me last night that she wants to make me watch her fuck 2 black guys while i dildo my ass with toys ofall kinds begging her to let me lick her or even kiss her mouth after shes swalloed a big load which she loves to do then she tells me to lick her clit while she straddles my face in doggy with another man fucking her.....she wants to make his cock rub on my face and mouth while entering her. she wants him to cum all over my faceand her pussy. idont know if o could live with myself but she hasnt fuckedme other than with a strapon in over a month...comments suggestions orders im wearing panties and a cockring right now she went out with the girls to the clubs and hasnt called