Has anyone else grown disgusted with your wife?

I'm pretty much like most guys here, in terms of how I've progressed from fantasizing to doing.

When I first started dating my wife, I would have wanted to kick another guy's ass if he started hitting on her. But after the first year or so, I remember seeing some cuckold-themed porn. It made me sick to my stomach at first, but then I started checking it out more and more. Eventually, cuckold fantasies became part of our sex life. We pretty much didn't have sex without me talking about her being fucked by someone else.

Of course, she wasn't into it at first. She played along, so as to turn me on. As she got more comfortable with it, she enjoyed it more and more. With a lot of encouragement, she finally did a few things to humor me. She'd go with her friends to nightclubs and meet guys to fool around with other guys a little, making out, letting them feel her tits, jerking them a little, but she didn't want to become a whore. And she never did it with me there.

After we were married, my fantasy started consuming me. I couldn't get hard without thinking about her getting fucked. I got her to start calling me "little dick" and cuckolds brownie. The first time I asked her to do that, we were both takes...her much more so than me. In her takesen, almost ****** state, she totally refuse. She couldn't call me that, and even yelled "What is wrong with you?" But as I kept fucking her, she started calling me what I needed to hear. Eventually, that became normal for us as as well.

It so took over our lives that even in the most romantic situations, we were consumed with our cuckold fantasy. On our wedding night, I told her I wanted to watch a black man breed her like a farm natural. Over an anniversary dinner, she has told me that she couldn't wait until we got home so she could "ride my semi-hard short dick."

So our fantasies grew more and more perverted until finally, at long last, this past winter we took a Caribbean vacation, with the sole intent of her getting laid as often as possible. She actually was a lot more receptive to it than I thought she would be. When we arrived at our hotel, she was having second thoughts. But, after a couple of bottles of wine later that night, she managed to lose her inhibitions. Meeting men was no problem.

I don't want to turn this into a "Dear forum, this is totally a true story" sort of thing. Yes, this most certainly happend, but I don't feel like writing about the sex. But yeah, we found what we were looking for.

She fucked one guy on the first night. After that, it seemed like it was game-on for her. For six nights, she fucked every day and every night. All sorts of different men, some vacationers, most were local. Muscular black men. Our favorite fantasy. Some of the men she met on multiple nights, others were one-time. Our hotel bar had a lot of local men, and those numbers seemed to grow every night, as if word were getting out. She gangbanged three of them on the second night. They were back with several friends the next day. Honestly, we were takeing most of the time, so it is actually hard to remember one gangbang versus another.

Frankly, after the second day, I was almost sick of it. I'd jerk off a little when she was fooling around. But, except for the first night, when we made love after she was done, if I got hard, I usually came quickly. After maybe an hour or so, I'd seriously kind of feel like an outsider. So I'd leave the room and sit at the bar and try to pick up some vacationing chick (never worked out for me, though I had some good conversations). Every so often, I'd go back to our room. Sometimes it was almost as if I was walking in where I wasn't invited. I'd sit down and take a beer and watch.

But it wasn't like I thought it was. Here is the most fucked up thing -- she honestly looked like a disgusting fucking whore. The men were mostly treating her like cuckolds brownie. Why wouldn't they? They knew what she was. They had zero respect for me, and they knew there was no way I was going to do anything to stop whatever they wanted to do.

Cumming on her face, pinching her tits, shoving fingers in her mouth, slapping her ass and face. Yeah, no cuckolds brownie. It was harder than you think...not that fake porno slapping, but real no-fucking-shot slapping her face. I won't say that she loved it. She didn't. But she kept fucking them. Fucked them harder, even. And that fed fuel to the fire.

And then there was the unsafe sex.

The first night, everything went like clockwork. Condoms, my presence. We made love after. On the third night, at some point our agreement to play safe went out the window. I wasn't there when they stopped wearing them. I'm not 100% sure that I would have said anything anyway. She protested at first. At least that's what she told me the next day. Total bullcuckolds brownie move. But she kept fucking them. More fuel to the fire. By the time I came back to the room, dudes were doing whatever the fuck they wanted. I couldn't have stopped it without causing a riot.

They even fucked her when she was ******. I was there. Watched the whole thing, like a trainwreck. Didn't do cuckolds brownie to stop it. Just watched. Didn't jerk off, or even really get hard. Just watched them take turns fucking her still body. Finishing inside her. Some still sticking fingers in her mouth, laughing hysterically as they pinched her tits or spread their asscheeks over her face and pushed their assholes onto her lips. Maybe it was me betraying her, but it was so sickening to me that I actually left the room with guys still taking turns fucking my ****** wife without condoms.

I watched her get pissed on, degraded, slapped, take facials. And I grew more and more disgusted. There was no degradation she wouldn't take. They actually called her a "white cow" and "white pig." And she kept taking it.

Seriously, I don't look at my wife the same way. Sex has grown sort of passe...all I can think of is the vacation. She's still hot, but not in the same way. She's a whore. A filthy, disgusting whore.

First, thanks for posting. I think I can appreciate your feelings. However, it seems to me that you are blaming her for everything. I do not think that's fair. You seemed to initiate it, and admittingly stated you didn't do anything to stop it. It's not fair to her for you to blame/resent her for what happened, and for not stopping it. You stated you couldn't have stopped it without creating a riot... maybe she felt the same way. Also, some of it happened while she was ******. You can't blame her for that.

If you want my advice, take some time and concentrate on each other. Remember what you love about her. Time usually lets some of the memories fade especially when you replace those memories with more pleasant memories.

I hope this doesn't sound like I'm attacking you... I certainly don't mean it to. I really hope to read how you were able to work out all these feelings. Good luck.

Years ago I had a black guy that I knew from work that was always hitting on me, so one night my hub and I invited him and his wife out (she was white), we rented a room on the beach in Daytona, everything was going fine, he was fuckin me, and my hub was doin his wife,,,then she started to cum, he froze, stopped fuckin me, and after my hub came in her, he slapped her around for enjoying it too much. Needless to say we never saw him again, his wife however came over quite often,,,even brought her new husband,,,there's a message in there somewhere.

Thanks for the responses. I guess I wasn't 100% clear in that I don't blame my wife for this. No doubt, it's my fault that I'm in this sort of situation. But at the same time, seeing her like she was...I see her differently now. I posted in this particular forum, because I almost feel like she's kind of "ruined" now.

I definitely don't want to say anything to her. I'm going to give it some time, see if this sort of feeling goes away, or if I get used to it. It's not that I don't believe in complete honesty in a marraige, I just don't want her to know about how I feel because, after all, I egged her on this whole time, I convinced get her to do this. For years, she had been so reluctant to do it because she didn't want to become a slut, or she didn't want me to think less of her. And I know this sounds totally crappy, but fuck -- she didn't look like my wife like that, and now it's hard not to see her like I saw her there.

Surely I can't be the only one who's had this happen? Again, I know this is my fault. But I can't help feeling like this.

This is the key feeling/thought that allowed this to happen. You need to realize that it's not just her that allowed this to happen, it was you as well. You can't sit back and say "I look at her differently now" and treat it like it's her fault. How you see her is *your* mind at work. Your perceptions, memories etc fucking with you.

She isn't ruined. She's a woman who's been through some intense negative sexual experiences, but to say that she appears ruined is to say that you think there's no way that you can change your perceptions. That's some screwed up logic, there.

Your perceptions are coloured by your attitude and decisions. You need to realize that this is a woman that deserves your respect and admiration. You need to learn how to actually see her like this. The feeling won't go away on it's own - replace it with positive feelings, reject the BS impression formed by that traumatic experience.

I have never felt unhappy about my wife having kinky sex with other men. I love watching my wife lick another mans asshole. I would probably even enjoy watching a man piss on my wife; but not sure about that. My wife has asked before if I would mind a couple of guys pissing on her; she really wanted them to piss on her, but I said no, I am not sure I would like that.

bostamp


How about they piss on you?

I think you both just went too far and you both need to have a long talk and put on the brakes.

She's probably pissed at you for not controlling the situation and you're pissed at her for doing it and taking it. All the while, she might have been thinking 'why doesn't he stop this, how far does he want me to go?" while you are thinking, 'I can't believe she's going so far and letting them do that."

Don't make a big deal out of it, you two just need to talk more and talk about what happened and what you both truly want to do.

Set limits in the future. Restrict it to one or two regular studs, one night a week or something. Take more control over what is going on.

You just screwed up that's all. Now fix it and continue the great relationship and fun sex life that you have with your wife. Don't just be quiet about everything and let it get worse. Fix the problem and start over again but this time with more communication and standards.

i agree withjamesriske
spot on 100%

The only time I've actually watched a girl get fucked was a fuck buddy who got turned on by being a whore. I loved to hear the stories. One night I was hiding in the second bedroom to listen to her fuck a large black man and peered out a few times. She was riding him and saw me peer out and she loved it. I, however, felt a little disgusted with it and couldn't look at her the same. I can't imagine what you're going through and I'm sorry it happened the way that it did.

The general theme above seems to be that you need to talk things out and save the relationship. It appears that cucking is not for you. Counseling might not even be a bad idea. Ideal cucks see their wives in the same or better light after watching their wives fuck, but yours went a little too far and probably ruined it for the both of you for the rest of your lives. What you haven't talked about is what she's feeling or how she's acting now. Does she still desire to be with other men? If she's not talking about future possibilities, she's probably feeling the same way and hoping to forget about the vacation and move on with your life together. This is a good thing for you because it means you're on the same page. Talk it out and live happily ever after.

Best of luck.

i love to watch my wife get fucked but i control the situation.i don't slap my wife and would never let another man do it either. you could have stopped it it may have got ugly but you could have stopped it."busted glass and naked men don't mix you wouldn't had to get all of them just a coulpe things would have been over in a heart beat.things got out of hand.for me my wife is the woman i fell in love with and always will.all this extra is just fun and games.in the end she the one i'm going to bed with and holding.you got a lot of jackasses taking adavantage of the women you are supposed to love and protect.i hope she is doing well.

I've seen my wife fucked in all 3 holes by other men, sucking cocks, licking assholes, feet and balls, takeing cum, takeing piss, slaped in ass and face... etc. But I never felt disgusted. All it was VERY exciting for both of us. My wife loves to be dominated and humiliated. And love to watch her geting humiliated because I feel humiliated too.
My wife is a whore and I'm very proud of her.
She fucked 93 guys since our wedding and just sucked 26. I hope this number will grow very fast.

I am with sissy jack on this we both love my wife to be a slut and I love her even more.

I am with sissyjack also, he has a very exciting wife.

It was because of the holy water.
If she was aware of the situation it would be totally different (for example: no unprotected sex, and her would notice you feeling bad about it).

It is the male nature that bring us to degrade our partner, this is the point of any kind of erotism..
First worship, then degrade.
But after the degradation phase the only thing you can think about will just be changing your partner.
It is perfectly normal.

In my opinion you have to accept the female point of view: some (most) girls just love being used, the is nothing bad about it, it's something "natural"...

You have just exaggerated, but time will put things in the right order if you still love and respect her as a permister.

Right now you feel like your toothbrush has being used by another permister, I know.
But you have to accept that she is a permister, not an object that you own, and if she liked it you should try hard to accept this point of view.
At least you fulfilled her fantasies.

Women, are women... If our wives gave us the chance to fuck any other woman we wanted. I'm pretty sure we would all run with it! Don't forget that we are hooking our wives up with strangers. That's the hottest sex besides true love there is. So don't be pissed if she gets buck wild. We ask for it, right? " We are all youngren playing with fire."

Remember, good intensions aside, one the fantasies, urges and desires are out of the bottle......hard to go back.

iloanmywife,

I like your story and think its hot. To me, it is almost perfect - what I would look for. Your wife got turned, broken in - whatever you want to call it. She got to a point where a cock pushing up her guts was more of an expectation than something special. That is a woman in her true and natural state (Right Missy19?).

It seems that a woman's capacity for sex is a highly variable quantity. Your wife is one that can take dick almost indefinitely. Women like that are not uncommon.

What is the latest news? - nearly 6 months gone since your post.

well....anatomy statistics indicate that most.....most all vaginas are 3 1/2 to 5 inches deep.....however.....they tend to stretch a mile before they tear an inch....and feeling someone pushing deep is a true feeling of presentation even if enduring pain for their pleasure is our true place .....for service.....such as it is....Missy

iloanmywife

Thanks for sharing this extreme experience!
I wonder, what your wifes feelings were and how she saw your role.

Actually Missy19, when I said a woman's capacity for sex was highly variable, I wasn't talking about depth of cunt, I just meant how much friction they can handle down below, and how much banging they actually desire. I know women who are hard core hedonists but would balk at the idea of a gang bang. Other women can take dick till the cows come home. In another thread I described how I once fucked a woman to a massive shuddering orgasm - and I was the 40th for the session. I kid you not!

iloanmywife
Where are you from.

First, thanks for the responses. Yeah, I left the board for a while...just wasn't into it. I checked back for a couple of days after I posted to read the responses, but I couldn't work myself up into thinking about this sort of thing anymore.

After about 8 months of thinking about it and getting used to it, it doesn't seem as bad as it did. Everything's cool with the wife and me, so that's good. It was almost certainly harder on me than it was on her -- after talking about it over takes several times and having very honest conversations (even laughing and joking about the whole experience), it's become obvious that she doesn't remember the whole thing to the extent that I do.

I mean, she's aware that she's drawing a mental blank on certain periods of time when she had blacked out (pun kind of intended) from being really takes. Still, she just assumes that while she doesn't remember what happened, that at the time she was still having fun. That's really mostly true, but she also has no idea that she was also used while she was ******, and I will never tell her. From that perspective, a lot of my disgust is with myself, not with her.

The bottome line is that I still love my wife, very much. But there is something else there, a different feeling -- it's pretty much SHAME. I was ashamed of her to see her in those situations, despite what we had fantasized about, and I'm still a little ashamed of her now. I'm ashamed of myself for encouraging this the whole time. Back when we just fantasized about this -- nasty and filthy fantasies, but just fantasies -- after we were finished and I had cum and lost the urge to think about it, we could just clean up and move on. It's like there's no cleaning her up now.

I know it's pretty much my fault from top to bottom. And I know that I was really disappointed that the vacation didn't turn out to be as fun for me as I thought it would be, which made her experiences seem even more extreme. And I think a big part of my turnoff was that, while it was easy for me to pretend to be a beta male in the bedroom with her, in real life it was hard for me to watch everything and get off on it. There were times I couldn't even get a boner watching it.

That said, now that it's behind us, we do fantasize and talk about it during sex. That's been the best part. And it's easier for me to think and fantasize about it when we're alone. We've incorporated this experience into our sex life. But still, what I said about it not "washing off" after we're done is completely true.

My advice is to understand that there's really no going back from this. You can kind of bury what you're feeling and move on, but it's still in the back of your mind.

that's her

wow, she is so HOT!!!!!!

Holy cuckolds brownie!

Like you story and I know to some degree where you coming from and I wrestle with that excitement/shame thing but that in itself is part of the attraction of being a cuckold. They are different sides of the same coin for me and I can't have one without the other. My wife has been used by more than handful of men albeit not like you describe the scene with your wife. I love the way her cunt is looser, she is more proficient at sex acts yet she is less entertained by my cock and I know it is cos she gets so much and better sex than with me. I would be ashamed if close friends and family found out she was an escort but the fact they might I also find exciting.

You are right there is no going back but again I find that quite exhilarating in itself.

Hi I loan, dont be too be=ummed. She could ahve gotten involved with a guy like me, who likes to move in the EMOTIONAL closeness associated with sex, and alter the cuckys relationship with this wife.

I REALLY get off on it!

What happend to your Lady on vacation was just a bunch of rough physical sex. Unpleasant, life altering for you for sure. But if you can be kidn and supportive and reprogram your mind to see the ways she is loveable and worthy of respect and affection instead of the one blemish, you can/will grow to tenderly cherish her again.

I am VERY happy for you that no deep emotional damage was done. Dont be too hard on your self!

Any updates? Please!

Dude! Your wife is fantastic!!! If you don't want her I do!!! She is like a dream come true. All the sex she did, she did for you. You asked for it and you got it. You know that and admit to it. Now, get over whatever your problem is. Kick yourself in the ass and be thankful for a wife like you have!!!!! Tell me how to contact her and I certainly will. She is wonderful!
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