Found wife's video with black boyfriend

My wife and I have been married for 15 years we're both 50. Of course, I have fantasized with her being with BBC but have never mentioned it to her. She has really never shown an interest in black men. We have a great sex life. I was going through some boxes in the garage 2 weeks ago and found some old unmarked video tapes. She was at work and I was curious about what was on the tapes. I fast forwarded through a few and found nothing of interest. I came to one and started to fast forward it and found footage of her playing in co-ed softball. I knew she was a softball player for years in her 20's and early 30's so I didn't think much of it. I just let the tape play and was watching out of boredom more than anything. Her best friend was shooting the video. It was a series of games. It came to one game and next thing I knew Marie it was playing a game and on her team was a huge black guy. Marie and the black guy seemed very friendly, taking smack to each other during the game in a team sport attitude. When they were on the bench, which was just a few feet in front of the stands where her friend was taping, the black guy was standing very close to her and she wasn't pulling away. It was obvious she liked his attention. She was laughing at his jokes, toying with her hair and enjoying herself. I have to admit I got hard watching her flirt with him. The video of the game abrubtly ended and it was inside a bar/restaurant after the game. Everyone still had there uniforms and it was obvious they had been partying for some time. The camera panned over and Marie was sitting on the black guys lap, takeing and his hands were all over her. Marie leaned over and gave him a deep mouthed kiss to a collective ohh and ahh of the table. Her best friend said for all to hear " I think Marie is going to get lucky". Marie just laughed took a deep take ( she was obviously tipsy) and just laughed. The black guy reached under her top and you could see his hand move under her uniform. Marie playfully pulled his hand out and took another take. The camera went dark and the next scene was the next day ( It was obvious an tourney) and with Marie warming up, her best friend came up with the camera and asked " so...what happened last night?' Marie just smiled. Her friend just encouraged her until Marie said " I can barely walk today. I don't know what hurts more, my head from the takes or my pussy from his cock." Her best friend and Marie laughed. The black guy said something out of camera range and her best friend turned it to him and zoomed in on his crotch. He was too far away to have heard them. Her best friend brought the camera back to Marie who was waving at the black guy. Her best friend asked " are you going to do him again?"Marie said with a smile " as many times as I can...I'm not going to get takes though..I want to remember it." I jo'd all after noon thinking of my wife getting fucked by the black athlete. I hid the tape and when she got home, I acted like nothing happened. I'm trying to figure out my next move. She has other videos of her playing softball in our video library, so it's obvious she wanted this one hidden. Every time we fuck (which is now almost daily) I think of her being a BBC slut. Suggestions?

video?

That's really hot. You should pop the tape in the player one Friday or saturday night when you two are alone and watch it with her, and then discuss it with her. Be honest and tell her it really turned you on hard thinking of her fucking a black guy and you would love to get her started on it, and see what she says, then discuss it.You may be very pleasantly surprised with the result.
phredd2003

I've been trying to figure out a way to bring up the subject of my discovery of Marie on video ( 15 years ago) talking graphically with her best friend about a black softball teammate Couldn't really think of anything until we went to the mall this past weekend. We were sitting on a bench and a couple walked by. She was white and he was a very well built black guy. They were in their early 30's. As they passed (out of earshot) I said " I guess it's that old saying, once you go black..." Marie asked " What do you mean?" I said, " You know once a white girl gets gets hooked up with a black guy and ( I gently poked her in the ribs) and finds out how big he is, she doesn't go back to white guys." She didn't say anything for a few seconds and then said " I don't know I think some may try a black guy, but it doesn't mean more than sex." I started to get a little hard as she said it and asked her " Would you ever date a black guy?" She said " Well...I do think some black guys are good looking and I've heard about the size thing, but I don't know." She said " Would you date a black girl?" I said " Sure if she was attractive....Haley Berry sure is good looking." Marie said " Really?" I said sure, " Why not?" I nodded my head toward the couple that we saw and they were standing about 60 feet from us. He had on tight jeans and a tight T-shirt, revealing outlining both his cock and muscles. I said " Would you date him?" Marie just said " Well I have a few years on him...I don't know if I would date him" I said " Well how about just casual sex...let's say we weren't together, and you were in a bar and he picked up on you...would you go home with him?" I glanced down and to my pleasure, her nipples were starting to get hard through her blouse. She said " Well, we are together, I don't know, this is a weird conversation, but maybe." Hearing just a maybe got me rock hard, but I couldn't let her see. She said " He is well built and I've always had a thing for athletes." She then stood up and said " Let's go" She was somewhat quiet on the drive home. Trying to figure out where to go from here, without overplaying my hand

That was a great conversation. I wouldnt go to fast with her if shes anything like my wife. I would wait a couple weeks and then come at it from a different direction. Depending on your lifestyle, you could introduce IR porn, or maybe buy one of those big black dildos for her. Eventually you are going to have to tell her about the video so you should be thinking about what you are going to say.

If shes ok with you knowing, then I would try to do some roleplaying until shes ready to try it again for real.

Question: How far do you want this to go?

If I were you, I would proceed with caution and maybe think twice about going down this road with her. You say you've been married to her for fifteen years and have a great sex life together so why hasn't she told you that she fucked a black guy back in the day? What else don't you know about? Doesn't it make you wonder?

If I was in a relationship where I described our sex life as "great", that would mean to me that we were very open with each other and had discussed past sexual experiences with others. Seeing that your here I'm going to assume that that you have had conversations with her about her past lovers, kinda goes with the cuckold territory I would say.

You think she is afraid or your reaction to the interracial thing? Just one permister's opinion though. Women who keep sexual secrets don't seem like good candidates for this type of lifestyle to me...too risky.

Best of luck to you though...looking forward to your updates...Thanks.

Nice. No advice for you. Just nice. You're in the catbird seat.

Good point Geecrizz. But I dont know if I agree. I think it is very common for people to not know about their partners every sexual encounter. Men can be very jealous about sex. If she really loved and cared about her husband, I can totally see her making the decision to let that event fade into history. Why bring it up if it will just hurt her husband?

Anyway, if this is something that you want in your life, I would just bide your time and see what happens.

proxima, thanks for that - great stuff.

I think you have done OK so far. I think the next thing, is to talk about past sexual encounters. I have asked girls, u know, "what's the craziest thing you ever did?", "Wha'ts the biggest cock u ever had?" etc.

Maybe those conversations are difficult for you - I don't know. Its very easy for me!! Even for me though, I won't get the truth out of the woman many times. They only spill the truth when they are confident you won't be shocked, hurt, or kick them out!!

But if you can somehow show you approve of any wild kinks in her past - she might spill the beans. Then, who knows...?

By the way, for all you guys asking to see the video. If Proxima's story is true, then he hasn't fronted his wife about seeing this video yet. As if he would show it on the internet! And, he'd after get it transferred to an electronic format first.

I suggest you make a copy of that video tape (or capture the video to the computer). When she discovers of the tape's existence, she's going to immediately want it to be destroyed.

BTW... any updates?

proxima, i loved the story and would also like to see pics or video of that tape but i understand the reluctance to post it if you haven't discussed it with her. I agree with spooj about making digital copies because she will likely want it destroyed. take care and don't do anything to jeopardize your relationship. i'll bet your heart was pounding in your head(s) when you watched it!

I've been trying to figure out how to get the ball rolling and yesterday I think it started. I've been watching the tape everyday and of course, enjoying it more and more. I knew Marie was going to be coming home from work a couple of hours early, so I set it up like this. Marie and I watch porn on occasion and she knows I watch it by myself. I've been downloading a lot of BBC videos over the last few weeks since I found the tape and yesterday I started to watch one ,timing it so I would get "caught" by Marie. I was about ten minutes into a BBC threesome with a big titted white girl. I heard the the garage door open and about 2 minutes Marie came in, walked down the hall and I was in my den watcing the video. She asked what I was up to and as the word were in the air, the sounds of the video filled the room. She just laughed and came around to my side of the desk ( the monitor faces away from the door) and Marie just kind of froze. The scene was the woman on her knees with two huge black cocks competing to get sucked. Her big tits were hanging out of her bra, swaying back and forth and black hands were on the back of her head powering it to each of their cocks. I was very hard and Marie didn't say anything and was transfixed with the scene. She watched for a few minutes and then said " is this what you've been doing all day?" I said, " Not all day" and just played it cool. I pulled Marie down onto my lap and we just sat there watching the video. I could tell she was getting hot from it as her breathing started to change and she was squirming against my now hardening cock. She had a dress on and I reached under it and started to rub her pussy through her panties. She opened her legs and watched the video. The woman was on her back, her legs open with a huge black, heavily veined cock just starting to be powerd into her pink pussy. I powerd my fingers between Maries panties and her cunt was soaking wet. To my surprise, Marie suddenly stood up and took off her panties, then sat back on my lap. She opened her legs and I started to deeply finger fuck her soaking, opened cunt. She was starting to pant to the scene n the video which was now with the woman getting fucked very hard by one BBC and being powerd to suck the other cock. I reached under Maries blouse with my other hand and, pulled her big tits out of her bra and started to rub her now erect nipples. I was rock hard ad Marie reached down and started to rub my cock. I continued to finger fuck her and then I told Marie to stand up. She did, got on her knees and took out my cock and started to suck it. She was watching the video as she did and the woman in the video was getting fucked hard, her big tits moving. The BBC that was fucking her had her get on top of him and as she put his BBC in herself, she moaned again. The other BBC got behind her and readied himself to put his cock in her ass for a DP. Just as that scene started Marie got up and said " Let's gon into the bedroom.' We went down the hall to the bedrrom. I pushed her onto the bed, stripped and pulling her dress off, (her blouse still on but opened and her big tits hanging out) and Marie opened her legs wide. I mounted her and we started to fuck very hard. Marie's cunt was wide open, soaking wet and loose. After just a few minutes, she came and i soon followed, emptying myself in her. We spent the rest of the afternoon in bed fucking. She asked why I was watching the video and I said " I was just bored, but I like how the day turned out." I said" You sure got hot over it." Marie just smiled and said " I was kind of horny all day, it just caught me at the right time." So it starts

Nice! Sounds like you're keeping it subtle. Keep up the good work!

Things have been going well, and we've been watching some IR videos together ( my suggestion of course) but Marie hasn't responded to it outwarded any differently than if it was non IR porn, though she is hotter and sluttier about her acts. However, I found out something that surprised me on Friday the 19th. Before I go on, Marie dresses very conservatively, looks like the MILF next door, doesn't really party, has no tats or piercings. In other words the almost boring housewife.
Her best friend (the one that took the video..they've been friends over 20 years) dropped by the house to drop something off for Marie. Marie and I knew she was coming and Marie was at work. Her friend ( Laurie) and I get along well, and I always thought she came on to me in subtle ways, but out of respect for Marie never acted on it. It was obvious that Laurie wanted to hang out for a little while rather than just dropping off the gift for a mutual friend and then leave. This is the first time that Laurie and I have been alone in months and since I found the tape, so I thought I could find out more of Maries' history. I fixed us coffee, and we just started talking. I gradually worked it into their days playing softball, and encouraged Laurie to tell me about the games they played, tournaments, etc.
I then started by saying " I bet there were some wild parties after the games huh?" Laurie got a little evasive, but did let a smile cross her lips. We continued talking and I brought up the parties again, until Laurie just said " Is there something you want to say?" So I let it all out about the video. At first Laurie didn't remember it, so I asked her if she wanted to see it. She said sure. I put the tape in and in 30 seconds, Lauries memory was jarred and she started to tell me about it and what happened. It was pretty much what I thought, that Marie had fucked him based on what she said in the video.

I pulled the tape out and Laurie asked me " Do you want to know more about Marie?" As I've said, Laurie has made subtle hints that I could fuck her, so I didn't know if she was just being a bitch, but couldn't pass up the chance.

Laurie told me that Marie fucked the guy in the video for 3 months straight, until he moved out of town. That he had a huge cock and that Marie would brag to Laurie that Simon ( the guy in the tape...I didn't know his name.) treated her "like a white slut" in bed and that they would spend entire weekends snorting small amounts of coke and fucking until they ******. I got rock hard of course and I could tell that Laurie was enjoying telling me the story.

Laurie then went on to tell me that Marie was quite the team party girl, that she had been willingly passed around the team and other teams, had done MFM threesomes, couple foursomes and had done at least 4 black guys that she knew of.
Simon was her first BBC, had wetted her appetite and she loved " the taste of black cock, but loved how the black guys would treat her like a slut. Laurie said that Marie confided to her that she had done things with black guys she wouldn't with white guys such as rimming, anal, taking facials and low levels of offense" Marie does none of these with me.
I was rock hard and my face was flushed as Laurie was telling me this, and not to my surprise, Lauries nipples got hard as she was describing Maries past in detail. She told me that one time during a tournament Marie and Simon snuck off between games and Marie came back with her hair " a mess and her blouse misbuttoned." Apparently Marie and Simon went to his van and Marie sucked him off as he played with her tits in her top.
Laurie said that Marie was the team slut for 4 years and the after game parties for Marie generally revolved around "getting takes, high and getting fucked." I was so hard listening to Laurie eagerly share detail of encounter after of Maries past. I asked Laurie how many guys Marie had done and Laurie said, " Probably, in all honesty, at least 150 , maybe 200 guys." I thought I would cum in my pants. Laurie then said " I can see it turns you one." I didn't say anything. Laurie then said, " Just so you know many of the guys still live in town. I'm certain that you've walked by them, stoodin line with them the bank, been at the same restaurant. Didn't you notice how many guys say hello to Marie? Just think how many don't say a word but had Maries legs in the air."

I told Laurie that I knew Marie had lived in town her whole life and I was a recent newcomer when I met her 15 years ago and I just thought that it being a small town, ( 50,000 people) everyone sorta knew each other. Laurie just laughed and said" Marie is an attractive woman...didn't it ever dawn on you why she'd never married?" I told Laurie that Marie told me that " She'd wanted to live her life until she settled down." I told Laurie I had a past as well, so I understood "Sowing some wild oats." Laurie snorted and said " Marie has sown a county of wild oats." Laurie asked " Did you ever ask Marie about her past?" I said sure and Marie told me that she'd had a "few guys" and left it at that. Laurie grinned and said that a "few guys" was a weekend for Marie. I told Laurie I thought she was lying about the number of guys in Maries past. Laurie didn't get angry but said " look at the video, look how she acted...she was a slut." Laurie said " so many guys fucked her, that no one wanted to marry her." I asked her why Marie stopped acting that way. Laurie said it was weird. Marie had hurt her knees and couldn't play softball anymore and just turned it off. Laurie said they went out a few times and Marie picked up guys a couple of time and then just stopped going out. She said " you came along couple of years later, asked her to marry you and Marie settled down." I have to admit that I was no longer aroused. Laurie could see my mood changed and said ' I know it's hard, you thought you knew her and I love Marie like a sister, but you asked." Laurie looked at her watch and said " I need to get going...just so you know, I'll never tell Marie about our little chat." She left and I sat on the couch processing what Laurie told me. About an hour later, Marie came through the door and was her normal self. I said hello, gave her a kiss (thinking how much cock had passed over her lips) and watched some TV. She came out after changing and asked if anything was wrong and I told her "no." I am very conflicted here, part of me gets hot thinking of her like that, another that I'm probably the town chump. I don't know whether to confront her, become swingers or just pack my stuff and leave one day.

Dude, it sounds like she pulled the old "I'm gonna find a guy who doesn't know cuckolds brownie about my past and play good girl" on you. Not much you can do about that now. However, it could be worse. As far as you know she hasn't done any of this stuff since you've been around right? I mean her "friend" (the one who sold her out) told you quite the story but she didn't mention any episodes of cheating did she? From your last post, my take is that she is probably just real embarrassed about her past and scared of how you might react. I mean damn, she was a black dick ho! Having said that, in my opinion that's no excuse. She should just be honest with you especially considering everyone seems to know about this but you. Your job now is to find a non confrontational way to get her to fess up, if that's even possible. If you do manage to get her to open up to you, it could be awesome listening to her spill her guts about what a slut she has been. Also, it could possibly even lead to new adventures provided she is comfortable with the fact that it turns you on.

Be cautious though...from my experience and what I've seen over the years, women who keep secrets of this nature can be some sneaky, low down back stabbing bitches. There's an old saying "You can't turn a ho into a housewife" and I'd say it's about 99% accurate. Myself, I've known quite a few slutty females in my day and I can't think of one who ever really changed her ways. Most of em just found some unsuspecting guy from out of town, married him, and then resumed relaxing around albeit behind his back.

Bottom line...in my opinion, of all the attached women out there who participate in exta-marital sex, only a small percentage of them are cuckold relationship material simply because the majority of women cannot and will not be honest with themselves about who they are and what their needs are. It would ruin their own image of themself. The vast majority will go behind their partner's back even if said partner gives them the green light to partake in sex with others. It's like an oxymoron or something. Discouraging, I know. But maybe your wife falls in the minority? I guess you will find out soon enough. Keep hope alive! Good luck.

Well, at this point you'll have to decide what YOU want to do with this information. Do you want to have her resume her slutty ways, but under your control?
Geecrizz above makes a good point, I wouldn't feel like a chump if I were you, you were from out of town, and didn't know her history, and still living in the same town as all this slutty activity took place with so many people it was only a matter of time till you found out. As long as she wasn't a slut behind your back, you weren't really betrayed because she ceased her slutty behavior and honored her vows, and changed her ways, which people can choose to do.
I do think it is time to let her know you found out about her past, it shouldn't be a surprise, and then discuss what you want to do. Do nothing and keep your relationship the way it is, or have her resume her black dick slut ways for your amusement and pleasure. She'll probably do what you choose-
phredd2003

Laurie called me on Monday (the 22nd) and asked if I wanted to have lunch. I agreed as I knew she had something to tell me, as we don't just “do lunch.” She picked the restaurant, a place that Marie and I had gone to only once before, as it is somewhat out of the way. We met and after a few minutes of pleasantries, I asked her straight out what was up. She got coy and asked “ why?” I said, “ I know we get along, but we just don't have lunch unless Marie joins us, does this have to do about our last talk? Laurie smiled and said “ I have the feeling you doubt me about Maries past, so I thought I could show you something.” I was a little pissed off. I know Laurie is needling me about Marie and other then trying to perhaps get me to fuck her, I'm wondering what the endgame is. She was dressed somewhat on the normal than hotter side. She does have nice tits, and her neckline plunged a little more that normal and I could tell she had a very thin bra on as her tits moved quite easily under her blouse

I told her to show me what she had. Laurie enjoyed the drama and I must admit I got hard watching a little more of Maries past being revealed to me even though I'm ambivalent about the outcome. Laurie pulled out a picture and Marie was wearing an incredibly small bikini. Her tits were all but hanging out and her bottom exposed a huge, ripe camel toe. She was standing in a line with 4 guys on each side of her. A well built black guy was on one side of her and she had an arm around his waist and he had an arm around her shoulder. Even though it got me aroused, I played it cool and said “ So.” Laurie went on to tell me that this was at a friends pool party after a game, that all the guys were teammates and that the black guy was another of Maries boyfriends and that she had done all but one guy in the line during her time on the team. All if the guys were in great shape and it was obvious that Marie was enjoying herself. I didn't say anything, but Laurie went on. She said that Marie was known to ' have gotten to be known as getting her brains fucked out in the pool house during the parties by team mates”

She said that the black guy and Marie had partied for a few hours and then Laurie said “Marie was up to her old tricks..her and Raymond ( the BBC) slipped off to the pool house and Marie told Laurie later that Raymond had fucked her until she could barely walk” I played it off and just ate the rest of my lunch but did ask Laurie how long Marie dated the guy. Laurie said it was for about 6 months, that he was a player and it just ran it's course.” After I paid the bill, Laurie asked me if I wanted to get a take at the bar in the restaurant, in an adjacent room room through a large opening. I told her that I would pass, and just wanted to get home. Laurie said “ I think you should have a take with me, I want to show you something else” I figured that perhaps she may have had another picture, so I relented. We sat at the bar and to my surprise (though in hindsight it shouldn't have been) the bartender walked up and yes it was Raymond the guy it the picture. Older but still very recognizable. I just looked at Laurie who grinned back and almost got up and left, but was drawn to watching it play out. We ordered takes and as it was slow, Raymond came back after a couple of minutes and gave Laurie a weird look and asked “ Don't I know you?” Laurie said yes that they had played softball together. He snapped his fingers and with a a big smile said “ Laurie!”. She introduced me as a friend and Raymond and I shook hands. They did the small talk about it being a long time and how they still both looked great. I was all but ignored as they reminisced

Raymond though older was still in good shape. He stood about 6'2” and weighed around 225lbs. It was obvious that when he was younger (as in the photo) he would have been in great shape. Raymond got a distant look and asked Laurie “ Hey what ever happened to Marie? Man that girl was wild, I'd like to look her up.” Laurie said “ Oh ,Marie is married now, she's really settled down.” Raymond said “ I respect that, but man she something in the sack in her time.” Laurie said “ remember the pool parties?” Raymond just smiled and said “ Yes, and the pool house for sure.” I got rock hard listening but also got a slightly sick feeling as well. We finished our takes, said goodbye and left. In the parking lot, I asked Laurie why she did this. Laurie said “ I may be a lot of things, but I'm not a liar and I didn't appreciate you calling me one.” Then she asked me “ How do you feel about this?” I told her that I was somewhat aroused, but also conflicted by it. I felt like I've been played. Laurie said “ You had no idea.” I just said “I know”, said goodbye and drove home. Marie got home a few hours later, gave me a kiss (thinking of Raymond's cock in her mouth after she kissed me) and changed into sweats. She asked me several times during the evening if I felt ok as “ you seem very quiet.” I said I was fine and went to bed early.

Laurie is playing you for one reamister or another man. She may just be using you to hurt your wife even though she is her best friend. If you cause the pain, she is satisfied in her revenge for not being the favorite slut and she could even be her comforter when it all turns to crap with you. Be careful of her and protect your wife!

proxima
Wow, what a story. Please keep us posted.

We greatly appreciate you sharing this with us.

Nobody thinks you're a chump because...
(1) They might have thought of you as being so good in the sack, Marie would choose you to settle down with
Or
(2) maybe they thought that you're just a fantastic guy for loving her
(1) Really, If anyone ever thought you were a chump, that would have been 15 years ago, but that'd probably be old news now.

in fact, you can ask Laurie if she and everyone else in town thought you were a chump. I'll betcha she'll tell you 'no'.

The real question from here is... how to move forward with getting Marie to get a bull.

Laurie seems very sneaky. What's in it for her, telling you all this stuff?

Maybe she's jealous that Marie got to enjoy being a slut for so long and was still able to marry a great guy like you. Perhaps to Laurie that's just having your cake and eating it too.

I wish you luck

It's been a weird around the house for the past few weeks until Monday night (12/13/2010) when Marie finally asked me what was up. I told her nothing and then she said that enough was enough...that I hadn't touched her, that I really hadn't spoken to her. I figured it was time to come clean. I told he about the video, the lunch that Laurie and I had and the graphic details Laurie shared with me. Marie was quiet for a long time and then finally just said " yes it's all true, you saw the video, what Laurie said is true, all of it, I've fucked alot of guys here, was quite the party girl and yes, I did what Laurie said regarding the pool parties..I was young and loved to fuck, now what?" I told her I didn't really know, that's it's weird to be in town now, knowing that she probably fucked guys I've stood in line next to, etc., and now I'm kind of the chump. She said, " don't think of yourself as a chump, you didn't know and I want you to know I've never cheated on you and I know you have a past as well" She asked me what my next move was and I honestly told her..." I don't know"

dude!
you started the thread by admitting that it would turn you on if your wife would play with BBC. now you've found out that she has been a BCS b4 marrying you. she says she hasn't cheated on you (& there is no evidence to the contrary). you should be delighted! all of our wives have a past...if you had expected her to be a virgin (or close to one) when you got married & she claimed to be, i can understand you being a little upset. otherwise, NO!
the only issue now, i feel, is do you still want to see her resuming her lust for BBC as there is a certain risk of her falling for a black man again...permisterally, i say go for it!
i think if you talk about it openly (which you seem to have started to), things should be alright. marie may well decide 'been there done that' & not want to do it again... as regards being the town chump, you're married 15 years for god's sake! you're no chump. worse case scenario, 15 years ago, some people might have commented on your situation but that's water under the bridge now for sure!
the laurie situation is a little odd! can't work out if she's a total bitch or is trying to help you with your fantasy. i'm going with bitch mainly but she only brought it up after 15 years & only when you asked. not only that, going by all the detail she's gone into including showing you pics & knowing where some of marie's ex fuck buddies work, it's not something she's forgotten. she didn't bring it up when you first asked but only after you showed her the video...i think that counts for something. i don't think she would've waited for 15 years & for you to ask if she wanted to ruin your marriage!
i'm actually starting to think that she thinks it's a fantasy of yours to see/think of marie with black guys & that this is her clumsy way of helping out...the other thing that may not have occurred to you is that marie may have mentionned to laurie that you had made a positive comment about a mixed couple at the mall & then found you watching IR porn ( can't tell how close they still are after all these years)...laurie might have put 2 & 2 together & then proceed to flood you with too much info.
sorry about the rant (my posts are usually very short!). you are NOT a chump, in fact you are where loads of us cuck wannabes would like to be. you seem to have a loving wife (with a sexy/slutty past, sure), don't screw up!

The next move...u don't know? How about tell me some stories and I'll jerk off...nows the time my man...make your move!

Hmm that got me thinking. Did your wife bring either of these instances up when you had your chat?

I realize that it's a much easier situation from where I'm sitting, but I'm going to drop my two cents anyway:

If I were you, I'd go several days without any kind of orgasm. Then sheepishly tell your wife that you're conflicted about her past. Part of you thinks you may be turned on by it. Ask her to tell you about one of her adventures (something you already know so there's no further damage). Assuming that she is agreeable, see how hearing her talk about it makes you feel. If it makes you feel anything less than aroused, then you will have to work through it some other way. If you get a tingle in your pants, make love to your wife while she talks dirty to you. Talk to each other about how you feel after making love.

Well,,, you have fantasized about this for quite some time! Now, it's in your hands and you are having a hard time dealing w/ it. My wife was a stripper, and i love it! I relished the fact that she had a wild past and i have found it to be easy to talk her into basically whatever fantasy i wanted. And we have done many!!! It is time for you to "man up" and realize that everybody has a past,,, except for the few women out there that i would'nt have a damned thing to do w/ anyways.
The past is past, the present is,,, your woman loves you and seeing that you are puzzled means that this lifestyle is unfortunatly not for you.
It takes a strong man to live this lifestyle,, even though they're called "sissies" and such! I am not submissive like others here but i respect their fantasies, and i hope they respect mine.
Look at it this way, you need to make up your mind and if you want your fantasies to come true, then you need to tell your wife that it turns you on thinking about her Being drilled by BBC!
Otherwise, you're gonna make your wife feel bad about her past deeds, and nobody deserves that,,, nobody.
My wife has no idea about how many women i have been w/.
Remember,, the past is the past!!
marc-br549

You need to get your emotions in check. Do you want to feel awful that she fucked a bunch of black men, or do you want to feel excited that she fucked a bunch of black men?

In my opinion, you should stick with the latter, being that it's already moot.